Post-Op: a few bites too many

May 17, 2009

Tonight, I made the mistake of eating with my head instead of listening to my new stomach. It started when I wited waaaay too long between meals, a good 4 hours. In my head I thought "gosh I am so hungry" (i wasn't really) "I need to eat more". I had bought some ready made chilli at the grocery store and ate 1/3 cup (instead of the 1/4 cup I should have had). I immediately became very full but not nauseous or anything- just full. Probably more than I'm used to, but normal. Then... I had purchased some sugar-free, lactose-free Maple Walnut ice cream and I said I would have some an hour after my chilli. Well- that hour rolled around and I was still very full but no matter- my head wanted to try that ice cream even though my stomach probably would have said "nonononono" (if it could talk). I ate about 1/3 cup of the ice cream and as I'm eating it, I'm starting to get sweaty and nauseous. Uh-oh. I know what's next. I go an lie down, praying to throw some of it up because I know that will make me feel better- but no-go. Crap.
I had to wait it out.
10-15 minutes never seemed so long. Now I feel ok but I'm exhausted from the experience. I don't think I'll throw but I can't imagine wanting to eat again until Wednesday.
I can't believe I was so clumsy. With a bypass, you can't just decide what to eat without consulting your stomach (like I did before, when I would have easily eaten 1 pint of this ice cream).
My body is different now. This is scary, what if I unintentionally hurt myself again? I am feeling very iffy about this bypass business, if I hadn't had my stomach stapled then I wouldn't be this scared right now. I know I'm ok, the new pouch is ok but goodness---I really can't ever let up.

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