Used2Bthin
1 day pre op
Mar 26, 2011
Well I am getting ready to leave in about half an hour. I am very worried as I have come down with a bit of a cold. What if they wont do the surgery! It is a 12 hours drive, far to long just to turn around and come back. My dreams will be crushed to boot. I am so nervous. What if they dont put me fully to sleep? What if I have complications? Will my kids behave while I am gone? I am only doing this because I am selfish, if things dont go well, my kids will suffer. So much is going through my mind but yet it does not detour me. I know at the end of the day this is the only answer for me. I have tried for years, spent thousands of dollars trying to loose the weight. Joining this program and that, this is what I must do to change my life. I am so glad that someone else is driveing. I only had 4 hours of sleep last night. Did I pack everything. I went out and bought new soap/shampoo/tooth brush/toothpaste/hairbrush/washcloth/slippers. I am bringing my vitamins and ensure diabetic. Hope it is tastey!I wonder what it will be like to be thin. I have dreamed for many years of being able to say "its not like I am 200 pounds" I know it sounds silly but I have not been under 200 in 15 years. How long will it take. Will I ever be able to eat a bite of Steak! So many questions going through my head. One good thing about the cold, I have not smoked, I dont want to risk hurting my lungs any, I can imagine that couffing after surgery will be painful as well. I am just not a lucky person I guess. I hope that not all has been ruined!
Good luck to all - See you on the loosers bench! (hopefully)
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BMI
Jul 19, 2010
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Loss130 pounds