Finally!!!

Jul 03, 2014

I finally have my date... July 23rd couldn't come any faster.. After trying to have this surgery 2 yrs ago, its finally gonna happen  for me. All i want is a healthy life. that's all i ever wanted for myself and now this gives me the opportunity to have it. All I can do is put it in gods hands and pray that everything goes good. I am very excited yet very nervous I am as what they called me today a Rookie.. I've never had any type of surgery, I don't know if I have a high tolerance for pain. All I can say is I am very happy and excited this is happening.

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Hoping 3rd time is a Charm

Oct 20, 2013

So here I am at it again, Monday Oct 14, 2013 I had my first pre-op appointment all over again.It's a little stressful to have to go through this shit over again, But hey I'm willing to do it if it means a healthier life. My first time trying to have WLS I went all the way and all I had to do was sent all my info and wait for a date. Things didn't work my way due to work and I decided not to go through with it. 2nd time  I went to 2 seminars and then couldn't start my per-op process cuz I hadn't received my insurance from my job. When I did get it, It was to late to start the pre-op process,and try to have surgery in the summer. Which is what I'm doing now, I get paid even if I'm not working in the summer so I will be able to not work the summer still get paid and have my surgery. That is the plan. Hope my 3rd time is a charm

 

Wish me LUCK!!

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So it's been over a yr...

Aug 05, 2013

Hi who ever is still out there and reading these blog's ...

So its been over a yr since my last post and unfortunately I never had wlscool. Of course I'm upset, it has been something I've been looking forward to for over 3 yrs and still nothing. In my last blog I mention the summer job I had as a teacher's aide for a visually impaired school. Good news on that is I got hired to work the school yr and I made a yr there on June 5. I Love this job and honestly I truly do believe that if I didn't take the job and gone ahead with the surgery. I wouldn't be where I am right now when it come to my career. So it's a bitter sweet feeling. I gave up the surgery for the job. Yes my health means everything to me and Yes at times I do regret my decision because it has been hard to try and maintain my weight and to get surgery again but I wouldn't change my decision for the world. I know my day will come. With that being said in October I will be starting all over  hopefully 3rd times a charm!!! I am praying to God this goes my way. I really want this . Both my sister got is done, and the sad part is I was the one who started this journey first. My older sister winkDamaris had the gastric bypass 3 yrs ago and my baby sister Michelle had the sleeve last yr Dec 26. Both successful and they both feel amazing and love the decision they had made. I want that soooo bad. as hard as I have been trying to either lose or maintain. its not enough, no matter how hard I try. So fingers crossed, prayers sent up to the big man upstairs laughthat this happens for me 

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OMG I Don't Know What To Do..

Jul 15, 2012

So I went to school for Medical Assistant December 2010 and finished October 2011, I couldn't find no work and then in June my aunt told me they were hiring at her job for the summer for teachers Aid.. I've have worked with kids before and I needed a JOB so of course I gave my resume and I got a call for a interview the next day. I got the JOB...They have fired about 8 people and are looking for employers and there is a high chance I will get hired to work there for the school yr.. And Of COURSE I will except if they ask..NOW HERES THE PROBLEM, they are very strict when it comes to attendance, they don't like when you call out not even when ur a minute late..Now the school is a school for blind children as well as other disabilities and you get pay a little more. and times are hard and I need the $$ Now I finished all my pre-op appointment and I get the results for my sleep study test next month.. I spoke to someone who is in charge of all the biatric department and she told me my surgery with be in September but she doesn't have a day yet until I get my results, But my aunt told me there is a chance that if I tell them I'm having surgery they might not give me the job I don't know what to do.. In October make a yr I've been going through this process and I am almost there I can taste it but I need money I have school loans to pay a phone bill, help my parents out with rent, save money for my future do. What happens if I get the job??

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What's going on in my mind!!!

May 16, 2012

So I haven't been on here for a while, figured I should blog maybe someone would read it... Soooo its May and my appointment for the PFT is almost here. I remember when I called again to get the appointment sooner and the nice lady I spoke to found something in June and I thought  OMG I have to wait 2 freakin months, this SUCKS ASS, but then again at least it isn't in JULY.. So I guess I should be happy right..?? I started thinking about this whole journey and what's ahead for me and even though I am happy that I decided to go through this I am also scared and nervous that I won't get approve, being the fact that I have no medical issues except that I am FAT. I remember my cousin telling me she got denied not once but twice so though I don't want to think negative I can't help but to have that in my mind. Since beginning this Journey in January I have went from 256 to 245 ( well last time I checked) which is not bad but then again I feel like I am no longer losing weight I eat less but than again I don't do much exercise but still I should at least lost 5lbs in 2 months..IDK I guess I just get too frustrated with myself. 
One thing I have notice is I don't eat much which I know they say we should but what happens when I'm not hungry I eat at least 3 times in a day and my meals are lunch dinner and a late snack( cuz I get really hungry at night and it's because I eat dinner to early like 3:30 or 4) anyway another thing is I don't drink water a lot but its cuz I'm not thirsty, so what does this mean?? Do I have to force myself to eat during the day or drink water if so this is so gonna suck.... 
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Just an Update

Apr 01, 2012

 Hey Guys...So I am almost done with all my appointments I have 2 this month one on the 3rd and the next the 10th... But I'm still trying to get the appointment for the PFT sooner I called last week and was able to get it to June 10th the nice lady on the phone told me they lady who had given me the appointment for july 5 wasn't really a nice person and doesn't like to go out her way to help anyone. So she just told me to ask for her and call back in about 3 weeks to see if any thing opens up soooo FINGERS CROSSED!!! On another note on friday was my graduation I went to school for medical assistant, I didnt go I really didnt want to, to be honest my diploma is all that matters to me. Anyways just wanted to give a update..
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Now it begins!

Mar 10, 2012

 So Friday was my third and last weight-management appointment spoke to the nutritionist about what is going to happen now they gave me a little package of all the appointments I had to make and what to do after I finish all the appointments. I got lucky enough and all my appointment excepts 2 are all in march. One of them is in April which is not bad and the one I am most upset about  is the PFT (pulmonary function test) which is in July... They had given me two different places I can call for the  PFT and the first place I called gave me May 30 which was not bad but I told the lady on the phone that they had given me another # and I will call that one to see which day comes first. That place gave me the # to the first place I called. SO I called back and spoke to someone else and this lady was so Nasty, and when I told her that I had just spoke to someone who worked there and informed me that May 30 was available this lady told me nope that person was lying to you next available appointment is July 5...Do you even know how frustrated i was... Anyway I am going to keep calling and praying that something opens up for me and I can see this Doctor sooner.
FINGERS CROSSED!!!
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Seriously!!!

Mar 05, 2012

So I went to my appointment today to only find out that it has to be reschedule..UGHHHHHH, so annoying I just want this process to go by fast.  This was suppose to be my last appointment for weight management but now I have to wait for the 9th. On another note I was so damn scared to step on that scale... I guess this gives me a couple of days to get my stuff together. I am not 100% sure what comes after this appointment but I am very anxious and nervous to know I cant wait.
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3rd Weight Management Appointment

Mar 05, 2012

 Today is my third weight management appointment and I am NOT looking forward to it. I feel as if I have gain the 10 lbs I lost all back and then some. The month of February was horrible. We had parties which had great food and last week my aunt in Puerto Rico died. She got sick about 2 weeks ago and last week Saturday she passed away which has been extremely hard on my family. I myself like many of us who are over weight grieve buy eating and that's exactly what I did and after eating I felt like SHIT! and was very disappointed in myself. My brother, sister and I weren't able to go to Puerto Rico to say our goodbyes because we don't have a lot of money and tickets were expensive. I think that's why I was so upset I really wanted to be with my family in a time like this and I wanted to say my goodbye to my aunt. Last time I seen her was almost 3 yrs ago. That's when my family and I take vacations every 3 yrs cause we cant afford it, and my aunt is the first person we see when heading to my grandmothers house. Its going to be weird not stopping by her house first when we visit Puerto Rico.
 On another I have been going back and forth with what procedure I should get. At first I was all for Gastric Bypass but now I'm really looking into Gastric Sleeve. My reason is because I've been told by some of you guys its a slower weight loss process but it gives you more time to work out and shape/tone your body instead of losing a large amount of weight and then have  a lot of excess skin. IDK >>> Well I'll give you guys a updated when I come back from my appointment in a couple of hours....


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I Hate You February!!!

Feb 12, 2012

 February is not over, yet it has just began and I hate this month.. I just want it to be over... LIKE NOW.. for some reason I have been hungry everyday all day, and on top of that I have been eating some junk food.. birthdays and super bowls.. = GOOD FOOD and junk food... I just hope when I go to my next appointment the scale doesn't show that I gain most of the weight I lost back...February please go by fast>>>cuz I HATE YOU!!!
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