one year surgiversary

Dec 29, 2009

I can't believe it has already been a year! It seems like just yesterday I was beginning this roller coaster ride called the DS. It has definately had it's fair share of ups and downs, although I admit the ups definately outweigh the downs!!! I think the most difficult part of this last year has been the mental game that you go through. It still frustrates me when complete strangers come up to me and just start talking! A year ago they would have avoided me like the plague. I admit that I have made some poor choices due to the added attention I am recieving from guys...but, you gotta learn somehow right? Overall, I have to say that I LOVE MY DS! I love the way I feel and the things I can do. I love being an active participant in my life rather than an observer. I love that my boys are no longer embarrased to be seen with me! Hey, I even love that my ex can't help but oogle at me every time I drop the boys off...haha...he missed out big time!!!

Anyways, at one year out, I am half of the person I was. I started this journey at 304lbs and am currently sitting at 152lbs. I was wearing a size 26/28 pant and just bought my first size 6 jeans two days ago!!! I never imagined fitting into a size 6!!! I will admit I am ready to stop losing and hope I don't go down much more. I never was interested in being super skinny, just healthy, and am having people comment that I am not looking very healthy. I know there will be some bounce back and that my body will level it's self out but can't help but worry a little. I LOVE to shop for clothes now! The only part of the old me I miss is my boobs! haha! The ones I have now are pretty pathetic! Oh well, small price to pay!

I know I don't get on here a whole lot anymore, but I want to thank you all for being there when I have needed you. I am hoping that life will slow down a little here soon but don't really see it happening. I am looking at a semester with approximately 20 credits, a practicum (field experience), working for the Census Bureau and being a single mom to three very demanding boys (two with mental health disorders...bi-polar with major depression and ADHD with anxiety). I hope this helps you to understand the limited amount of time I have to spend on here. However, if you need anything, let me know and I will do my best to get back to you!

Thanks again...It has truly been an amazing year!!!!

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