thank you judy for your encouragment.
i know that you and all of us understand how difficult it is to have lost so very much then gained a small amount back compared to that loss but the feelings of horror to have any gain take over our lives!
it seems like all i do sometimes is sthink about the weight and what i'm eating. it has become an obsession that i could well do without. but i do not know how to turn it off. it is what led me to become so stupid before.
so i continue to remind myself that i need to eat wisely and i do. every single day i fight the obsession with the scale. its not the food anymore that is my obsession!
now isn't that a riot???
if you think about it food was what use to rule my life. its what i thought abut every single second of the day. what i would eat when i would eat it how much i would eat and i never wanted to stop eating! sweets treats salty stuff you name it i thought aobutit. i'd go into a store to pick up milk and buy a box of cookies too then eat those on the way home from the store!
now i know what i have to eat its not the obsession anymore. i dont thnk about what i'm eating anymore. i just eat what i'm suppose to when i'msuppose to and i feel good. i dont' think about cookies anymore and I NEVER thought i'd ever stop craving cookies!
now its that scale. my obsession has tansfered from food to the scale.
maybe i'm just the obsession type of personality? i really do believe that.
well there are worse obsessions right???
maybe thats my new normal.

That's much better than gaining!!  Keep doing what you're doing and the scales will go down.

Good Morning Judy,

Your doing very good! Keep up the good work.

YOu know I use to worry about being alone cause I'd not stay with my diet then I realized it didt'n matter if someoen was with me or not it was still up to me to stick with it. sure sometimes it is harder cause its nice to feel like we have someone there to not so much keep an eye on us but to be company so we do not start thinking about food.
we just neep to keep ourselves busy.
like when you had your sisters babies!
maybe thats why i have all my little ones! hahaha
whatever works for us we just need to use!
keep on trucking Judy we can do it.

Thanks Pammy, I am trying  real hard. I like your menu. I'm getting some good ideas from you.
Today I had:
Fat free yogurt and some celery sticks

1 slice Can. Bacon and string cheese

1 Turkey sausage pattie, and 2 eggs with spinash, onions and 1 tbsp.shredded low fat cheddar cheese and celery sticks

15 almonds

Salad w/ lettuce and walnuts and cottage cheese

Sugar free Fudge cycle

Tomorrow I'm going to try to do better on my food choices.  Today, I am just too lazy to fix much cooked foods.

My husband , Charles , has chicken houses. He has 42000 chi****ns.  He sells them every 8 weeks and tonight he will be out all night getting the chickens ready to be picked up. He had to cut the feed off at 10 tonight , then he will have to raise the feeders up later and then cut the water off and raise the drinkers up in the ceiling so the catcher can get in to catch them. He has all kinds of equipment he has to move. They will start catching the chickens in the morning at 8. So, I'm home alone. I pray I can stay on the diet !! 

My sister went to church tonight and I kept her "babies" , we had so much fun.

Talk to you later,  Good night,  Judy

Hows it going Judy? I know your working hard on the south beach diet. You can do it! Its hard but remember how hard it was when we were all trying to get the ok for our surgeriys? This old south beach diet is gonna be so easy! Cause now your stronger! You have the knowledge to do it! You also still have your pouch! Your pouch will work for you!
You also remember how good you felt at the smaller weight. Thats a big plus cause you want to be back there and I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!!!!
Come on everyone lets all do this just like Judy!
this morning for breakfast I had 2 egg whites (39 cal) 1 slice of lo fat cheese (50cal) 1 slice of whole wheat bread (50 cal) 1 teaspoon of ground flax seeds (17 cal and sooo good for you) `156 total calories and all filled up!
snack is a atkins bar 200 cal
another snack is a banana 90 cal
lunch is 1 slice whole wheat (50 cal) with 1.5 teaspoons of peanut butter (150 cal) 20 seedless grapes (35 cal)
snack cottage cheese with rasins (120 cal)
snack atkins 200 cal
dinner chicken green beans
walk 30 minutes crunches 60, 3 type of leg lifts 40 weights for arms
calories are from fitday.com
i'm eating alot remember from my LBS but i'm within the calorie limit that fitday has given me to lose weight slowly each week based on what i want to lose the time limit i've given myself and the excersize that i do.
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