Recently I was reminded by an articule that egg whites are good for you. hummmm Where does this info go when I originally read it???

Anyways in the morning I usually have a wheat slice, egg, and cheese for breakfast. But it doesn't last or hold me the 2 hours I need it to. I did not want to do 2 eggs thats too much calorie or cholesteral wise. I was trying to hold my fruit for one of my snacks. Often I'd eat my snack earlier than I'd planned just to keep the LBS at bay but then I'd have to add another snack later in the day.

Trying to tme  all this stuff is such a pain in the buttinski.

Then I read an articule in Health Magazine. I love that little book! I'll stand at the check out and pick it up just to flip through. I always end up finding something in there that gets me to buy it.

They suggested if your breakfast wasn't holding you to add one egg white to your regular egg.

I'm amazed at how it works! It only adds an additional 17 calories and it holds me for 2 & 1/2 hours! I'm working on getting to 3 hours! I was happy with those results.

Visiting with my mom was a challenge. I love mom but she makes me so nervous. For alot of reasons. I worry that I'm going to be with her if she takes a fall or gets sick or hurt. I'm terrified that I won't know what to do. Then she stresses me because she is constantly talking. Everyting that goes into that brain comes out of that mouth. She's always been a talker I'm like her that way! but now its stressful because she is very negative. Its the age thing i understand that but it doens't help when your an anxious person to begin with and add the LBS which is triggered by anxiety plusssss for some reason anxiety is worse with LBS. Oh Lord why me??? PLEASE understand that I am not serious about the OH Lord why me. I am not having the poor me syndrome. But truthfully the anxiety is part of this. its not fun. 

Add in with the constant talking that any word or sound that I shoul dmake is questioned. What did you say? Huh? What? so you need to repeat everything. She has a hearing aide. She does understand what is said and I found if you just wait after she says what that she just is processing what you've said and will say O I heard you. So by the end of th week I'd saved up some of my words. Whew let me tell you my voice was horse from repeating and speaking louder! Keep in mind that I live alone and have peace and quiet except for the little animals. All that noise can be distracting and create its own anxiety!

Mom is small well under 5 feet closer to 4 now that she's does the shrinking thing. she's cute too. I'll have to post a picture of her. People are drawn to her cause shes' got this cute little old lady thing going. and she can work it too!

i did pretty good all wee****il the last day. We went shopping about a half hour away from where they live. its a nice outlet in ME Kittery. I love it. I had my snacks with me and lunch was planned. Mom does not understand about the LBS so its easier just to not say anything then to try to explain it all to her. What amazes me is how I get anxious now with places I've been to a million times! I hate that I really do! But I'm coping and doing my breathing excersizes and eating my snacks so I was doing pretty good. I was very tired. Not sleeping as good as in my own bed. Lots of different noises bed is harder and not the usual schedule.

So it was 6pm and time to head home. both of us were tired but she's still chattering away! You'd think she'd take a nap or something! hahaha I was ready for bed! Now I've traveled this road a ton of times and went the right way. I do not have a clue as to what I missed. We are tooling along the highway mom chattering away me making the proper listening sounds but thinking how I couldn't want to get home. You see if you do not make the proper listening sounds she will jump down your throat that you're not listening!!! hahaha
Soooooo about half an hour goes by when by that time we should have already pulled into their driveway when we both at the same time see the "welcome to massacusetts" sign!!!! I'd been going totally in the WRONG direction!!!

LBS starts pumping anxiety starts pumping Mom starts her own little 89 year old anxiety crying mega hyper talking hand wringing WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO. I'm doing my breathing keeping control of that while I dig for a lara bar that helps get the LBS under control.

I needed her to get it under control too no way do I need an LBS and a mom having her own meltdown so I said to her you need to be quiet and let me drive the car. Of course she did not hear me. so I then yelled it. she stopped for a minute but kept talking and being upset. I lost it. I said BE QUIET AND LET ME DRIVE.

I expalined to her that i was tuirning the car around and we'd be home soon that we were on the same road we always take to head back to CT. hummmm maybe secretly i wanted to go home? hahahahaha

we made it home we relaxed and laughted about it later. i also appologized for some comment I might have made about duct tape.\

I know I am very lucky to have my 89 year old mother relatively emotionally and phsyically healthy. I love her very much and dread what I know is coming someday. I hope its a very long ways away. And I hope that I have many more times like this past week. I just wish that I did not have this LBS but if its the cards that I've been dealt hey it could be alot worse its something that I'm working at controlling and I'm very happy that with what I've learned I was able to handle a minor episode.