Hello sweetheart, here are two different b-b-q recipes for pulled pork; I think the viegar-based one is the one you'll find in restaurants - let me know if this works for you (my son Devin LOVES pulled pork!!) Hugs, M.

Vinegar based barbecue sauce recipe (in jar)

• 1 Cup white vinegar
• 1 Cup cider vinegar
• 1/2 Cup packed brown sugar
• 1 Teaspoon cayenne pepper
• 1 Tablespoon red pepper flakes
• 1 Teaspoons salt
• 1 Teaspoon black pepper

Mix together and let stand overnight. You can also put split fresh chilies in this recipe for really spicy sauce and you can add more sugar if you prefer it sweeter.

Tomato based barbecue sauce recipe (in bowl)

• 1 Cup ketchup
• 1 Cup chicken stock
• 1⁄4 Cup apple cider vinegar
• 1 Onion, chopped
• 3 Cloves crushed and minced garlic
• 2 Tablespoons brown sugar
• 2 Tablespoons molasses
• 2 Tablespoon dry ground mustard
• 1 Teaspoon cayenne or one fresh cayenne chili cut into ringlets with seeds

Mix together in a sauce pan and heat to simmer. Simmer 20 minutes and let cool.

Hany in there!! is all I can say at this point, as well!! You have so much to deal with
I sure understand why it is soooo stressful. I agree with Reenie enjoy each other a little
each day to help heal & get that rest together.
Hugs & Prayers to you both!!

OK all you fabulous cooks I have a question.....
How the heck and what do you use to make that good light colored BBQ for like pulled pork sandwiches? Not the kind like out of a bottle,not the dark kind, I do that , Ide like the light colored one like they have in BBQ resturants...I cant seem to get it going and I want it!!! All recipes will be appreciated....

Wheat thins have become my M&M's Reenie!!!!!
argggg
just because something is ok does not mean I should have it.
I need to break away from the Wheat things.
I stayed away from them for a week then i had a day where i wasn' tfeeling well and was low on my snacks. i didn't plan good so i bought a box of them to have in the car. that led to having finish that box within 3 days. Not good!
it led to buying another box. that box i did better with it lasted 5 days. still not good. when i bought it i had filled little plastic bags with the exact amount per portion so i knew how much i was eating and could fit it into my calories and eating plan. but i still got carried away.
no more wheat things no more wheat thins.
but thats not what has me awake at 3am on wednesday morning.
what has me awake is a dinner i went to last night with my friend lauren and my friend Rosie.
I had chicken parm. it was garlicly and tasted great. i limited myself to only 8 pieces of ziti the sauce was so very good. i had 2 to 3 oz of the breaded chicken. i could't eat anymore my pouch was full. i had a very small salad before the chicken came.
i do not feel sick but i do not feel good. the sauce must have had sugar in it cause my blood sugar is off wack the ziti was a no no but i only had 8 of them! geese thats not even a 1/4 of a cup! thats a taste! the chicken was more breaded than anything else. i would have been better off with the fried mattarella appetizer! it would have been cheapter and wouln'dt have messed up the blood sugar or given me a tummy ache too!
Plus i'm feeling slightly down aobout my friend Rosie. she is moving far away to Florida. she's had some rough times for many years and can't take being here in CT anymore. her grandchildren and two of her adult children are here i'd have a hard time leaving those but she wants to start a new life.
in  a nut shell - bad divorce. ex remarried younger woman ex had baby in his late 50's she met someone else remarried he passed away by his own hand 2 years after they married. along with many other things happening in between.
we had a falling out a couple of years ago. when i heard she was moving i got in touch to say goodbye.
i miss what the good part of our freindship had been but thats all in the past. i feel bad that we coud't have been friends this past 2 years but let me say it was not becasue i pushed the freind ship away. long story no need to go into all that.
i can not say that during this past 2 years i've missed the freindship its just now that she is moving away that i feel bad. its the changes that have and are happening to all of us.
she's never going to find what she is looking for until she stops and looks within. but we were frends almost like sisters sometimes better than sisters and thats what i feel badly about cause that was in the past.
we did have a good time talking about our old adventures that was nice.
made me realize that i am not in my 30's like i sometimes think i am but i am in my late 50's and have past adventures!
she moves on friday next week i'm stopping in to say goodbye on that thursday and do not know if i'll see my old freidn again but i wish her well. i wish she finds what she is looking for.
ahhhh i think i can sleep now and maybe dream about new future  adventures to come!

Pammi I always enjoy reading your notes....its funny you mentioned the lightning I am the same way...lightning Im in the house and telling everyone else to get in too...and what do I do next...talk on the phone or computer, its going to get me one day lol ....hey and YEAH for the gym...once you get motivated and with a routine youll enjoy it, its just getting motivated... I always hated going but once I did I felt so good after working out, I just had to get my butt in the car and go, then I was good. You can do it..and your goal sound realistic...GO FOR IT Im routing for you! MEEEEOWWW :)