Great Job!! Keep it up!!

I am very happy for you Reenie!
I was thinking about this the other day.
Skinny people who have been normal sized with regular watching what they eat or dieting do not understand us who have lost such a large amount of weight. If they do not know that we've had the surgery they are even more odd about it. Like we have issues.
Ok so yea we have issues but I think please keep in mind that this is my thoughts only...well i really think that we have it harder than others mentally about this whole weight and gaining thing.
we did the surgeyr we lost alot of weight. for a time we were the smallest we'd ever been. then all of a sudden we start to gain.
Ok so it isn't what we were before but man it feels like it could be!
my biggest fear is to get on the scale some day and have it really read the 300 i was before. that is yes it is my biggest fear.
so when i put on 10 or 15 pounds i'm thinking more like i've put on 100.
when i can't fit into my size 8"s and 10"s i'm feeling like the 26's & 28's are coming back to my closet.
absolute terror.
i've been fighting the laxative demons. No I've not used them I will NOT use them. I don't care if they tell me I have to I will not use them ever again.
when I say I'm fighting the laxative demons they are knocking at the door saying we can help you get rid of that weight. I KNOW they can NOT help me what they will do to me is make me sick. very sick. And I'm feeling great!
so how do i fight this never ending battle with weight???
i watch what I eat.
I excersize.
i tell myself that i'm doing great (which I am)
i tell myself that it doesn't matter what size i wear or what the scale tells me.
i tell myself that i'm ONLY 20 pounds over weight.
i tell myself that i'll kick this and get back to the 150's again.
i tell myself that those size 8's will be on me again.
sometimes i think i'm lieing to myself.
i will never give up. my strength of not giving up was what got me to at least a normal weight.
i do fit in with the crowd now thats nice to not stick out or be the biggest.
and for a 56 year old lady i dress nicely. look cute. cute at my age is good.
sorry this went on and on and on.
when what i wanted to say is congratulations on getting to the 150's!
do you remember when at the beginning we all use to tell each other when we'd hit a milestone to save room on the bench for me???
well Reenie! save room on the bench for me cause I'm gonna be in that 150's again one day!

Yeah Reenie...thats great!!! YOU can do it....keep doing what your doing and all will be ok ...as for my world Im in idle...no changes, going to doctors today with husband. But glad all is well with you and that 150 is just a short step away!!!

Good morning, friends. My goal this week was to get back in the 150s - and my scale said 159 this a.m.! I hope I can keep moving downward and not see the 160s again - I also have not had M&M's for 2 days, a HUGE victory for me. Really had to talk myself off the ledge this a.m. but did not give in.  Wow, this is hard. Why? Why so hard to just take care of myself??? Anyhoo, just wanted to share - and am hoping all is well in your worlds. Maureen

So how are you doing? I am determined to get back in the 150s - it's been quite a while now that I've fluctuated between 160-165, and when I saw that 165, I grew terrified. Remembering about 20 years ago when I had lost a lot of weight and a very traumatic emotional event sent me diving back into the food and I went from 150 to 200 almost overnight. I will not let that happen again. Let's do this - let's really focus our energy on the fact that it's late spring, the weather is gorgeous (finally) and the priority must be physical movement. Every day. Doing something for a little half-hour that is enjoyable physical activity - we don't even have to call it exercise! Just moving in a manner that provides pleasure while breaking a good and healthy sweat!! So please post an update - how are you? Love, Maureen