How twisted am I?   The first thought that came to my mind was,  "Gee, if I only weighed more, I could eat more!"   Not good!

My husband thinks he is having some side effects of his Lipitor and has decided to go off it.   This has caused him to rededicate himself to low-carb, which should be an encouragement to both of us.    I'm still struggling with carb-binges, but at least I'm aware and fighting.   It seems like the worst cravings are when I am angry.   Somewhere along the way, I learned to substitute "hunger" for "anger" as a more acceptable alternative.   Of course, eating does not subside the anger, so binges are the result.    Amazing that I am just figuring that out!!!    Now, if I can just figure out how to unlearn it!

One day at a time, for all of us.   Peace and health to all!

Joy

i'm in I'll try it. it will be difficult for me with the amount of times and things that i need to eat but hey its only one day (at a time)

This sounds very familiar...my swollen, bloated, fluid clogged mother and her pretzels and cheez-its.  My 'why can't I lose weight, I don't eat' mother. I believe a lot of senior citizens are not eating balanced diets, even though they have the means to do it.  My mother is 85 years old.  I try to picture myself at that age....should it happen.  If I get to be that age, I will probably eat what I want too.  She refused to go for her mammogram this year.  Her reason?  She's 85.  She figures she has to die of something.  It does make me wonder.  I don't know if I would want to be bothered with doctors, tests, hospitals and medicine when I am 85.  I think their mindset is much different than ours in every way.  I just don't know.

i'm filled with dispair today.
i gained a pound.
people say its only a pound but its one of many and its the fear of another and another and another until i'm to 199 which is only just a pound from 200 then its all just meld together until i'm back to 300.
this is what is going through my head.
i stepped away from the laxative aisle. I've learned my lesson bout that.
but how do i compat this nightmare that doesn't end?
how do i make the scale go down?
i'm eating right i'm eating healthy
i'm not having aproblem not eating sweets or the no no stuff. i'm not eating that
i'm eatin protein, i'm eating fresh fruits and vegis and i'm eating correct amounts.
i started walking at night. i'm only doing 15 minutes but i'm working up to more.
OH yes thats what I'm suppose to consintrate on but when I step on the scale and its just one moure pound going upwards not downwards i get worried.
i get scared.
i get filled with dispair.
i'm not asking to lose another 100 only 10 and truthfully i'd be thrilled with 5 hell i'd jump up and down for 3 as long as they went down not up.,
so its probalby water weight.
it could be a potty break away.
it might be the scale is off wack.
i did weight myself in the afternoon not first thing in the morning. i usually stay away after the morning becuase it is so different in the afternoon.
maybe a sledhammer to the scale might correct what is bothering it?
i am off for my 15 minute walk.
Now I will say I am proud of getting bacvk out there and walking.
I'm glad that I've started that again and I'm able to do that 15 minutes walking at a good strong pace. arms swinging moving fast. I don't have any episodes so far. that makes me happy too.
if i continue doing what i am doing i keep being told that i will start to lose. but when? no one can give me a date.
ahhh thats life.
off to walk.

Wow, why do you think the dentist couldn't get your mouth numbed?? I've never heard of this. So sorry you had such a strong emotional reaction - and am glad you're feeling better. Be well, dear Joy. Maureen