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Topic: RE: My name is Joy and I'm a food-aholic...
HI Joy & Your Picture is wonderful to see.
You are for sure not alone in this battle. I was on the same roller coaster ride you are
talking about. I had gained a lot of weight back & with being unemployed & so much
going on in my world over the past year, just did not care what I ate or How much I ate. Well after being back on anti-depressants I have lost 25 lbs of that regain since
February. So it can be done. After a few days of the low-carb & no sugar it gts a lot
easier to stay away form it. If you get the first day done, you can do the rest. Hang in
There!! I am glad you are back & posting.
You are for sure not alone in this battle. I was on the same roller coaster ride you are
talking about. I had gained a lot of weight back & with being unemployed & so much
going on in my world over the past year, just did not care what I ate or How much I ate. Well after being back on anti-depressants I have lost 25 lbs of that regain since
February. So it can be done. After a few days of the low-carb & no sugar it gts a lot
easier to stay away form it. If you get the first day done, you can do the rest. Hang in
There!! I am glad you are back & posting.
Marilyn C (Bearlady)
Topic: update
Im sorry I keep posting but it helps me so bear with me...yesterday was a much better day, Bill was alert and looking 100% better then the day before, color was good and he was talking with me. They are still trying to get his BP at a low level and stable...they are weaning him off of he IVs and trying to get him on oral meds only. The doctor says everything is going in the right direction thank God...I do believe the prayers are being answered. He had another little incident with the kidneys but doctor said not to worry he is doing ok now again...but I still worry. One thing that is excellent news...the tear isnt quit as bad as they first thought...it didnt quite reach the caratoid artery which is vey good news, I can breath again. His pressure as of late last night when I called before bed was alittle elevated but they were going to give him more IV meds , I think they were trying to wean him too fast off it so they are adding some more back but nurse didnt seem overly concerned. Im calling them at 10 am after the morning rounds to see how he is and will be there allday when Im allowed...but so far Im feeling some relief. Thank you all for the prayers I do really in my heart think that they are helping him...Im not overly religous but I do believe. I havent been to church in about 20 years but today I am going to say a special thank you...and thank you all for your prayers I do really appreciate them more then you know.
"To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream, not only plan, but also believe" ----"Anatole France"
"Joyously grasp the ties that bind you, for they lead straight to the heart"---"Wm."
Kimberly...
Topic: RE: Checking in
I'm really proud of you, Joy. It takes a strong person to come on here and lay it all on the table like you have and you've been a great inspiration to me.
Last Thanksgiving, we were at The Man's brother's in-laws for dinner. The Man looks forward to Thanksgiving dinner starting the day after Thanksgiving. My back was really giving me a lot of trouble and I didn't feel like socializing, but it meant alot to TM to be with his large extended family so there we were. One of the relatives is a professional chef at a very high end restaurant in Chicago and he and his family had flown in. There were friends and relatives from age 4 to 90. The chef had been smoking turkeys on the grill all day and dinner was just about ready. I'm not sure what happened next, but TM's sister-in-law, who I adore, became furious at her father's girlfriend, stormed into the kitchen, told me to get out of the way and shoved me. I know she wasn't angry with me, but I have never tolerated having hands layed on me in anger for any reason. I didn't want to make a scene, but knew I couldn't stay and pretend I wasn't angry so I went to TM, who was positively intoxicated and giddy from turkey fumes and quietly told him that I wanted to go home. Without asking why, TM took his keys out of his pocket and took my hand. We said our goodbyes to the family and I told them I was not feeling well. We walked out to the car and TM never asked me why we were leaving, he just gave me unconditional support. I started to explain and apologize, but TM stopped me, told me that he completely trusted and supported me and if we were leaving, I must have had a good reason. Honestly, I felt stupid and selfish for depriving TM of something that he was so looking forward to.
So here we are, May 3rd at 2:18 in the morning and I have a Butterball 16 1/2 pound turkey thawing in the sink. I have all the ingredients for a full blown Thanksgiving dinner. I need to finally reward TM for his undying support and trust, but the best part is that this turkey will help me get back on track. What better protein than a lean and juicy turkey breast? I'm cooking this for The Man, but this is going to help me so much
Keep going, Joy. You're a source of inspiration to me.
Warm hugs,
C.
Last Thanksgiving, we were at The Man's brother's in-laws for dinner. The Man looks forward to Thanksgiving dinner starting the day after Thanksgiving. My back was really giving me a lot of trouble and I didn't feel like socializing, but it meant alot to TM to be with his large extended family so there we were. One of the relatives is a professional chef at a very high end restaurant in Chicago and he and his family had flown in. There were friends and relatives from age 4 to 90. The chef had been smoking turkeys on the grill all day and dinner was just about ready. I'm not sure what happened next, but TM's sister-in-law, who I adore, became furious at her father's girlfriend, stormed into the kitchen, told me to get out of the way and shoved me. I know she wasn't angry with me, but I have never tolerated having hands layed on me in anger for any reason. I didn't want to make a scene, but knew I couldn't stay and pretend I wasn't angry so I went to TM, who was positively intoxicated and giddy from turkey fumes and quietly told him that I wanted to go home. Without asking why, TM took his keys out of his pocket and took my hand. We said our goodbyes to the family and I told them I was not feeling well. We walked out to the car and TM never asked me why we were leaving, he just gave me unconditional support. I started to explain and apologize, but TM stopped me, told me that he completely trusted and supported me and if we were leaving, I must have had a good reason. Honestly, I felt stupid and selfish for depriving TM of something that he was so looking forward to.
So here we are, May 3rd at 2:18 in the morning and I have a Butterball 16 1/2 pound turkey thawing in the sink. I have all the ingredients for a full blown Thanksgiving dinner. I need to finally reward TM for his undying support and trust, but the best part is that this turkey will help me get back on track. What better protein than a lean and juicy turkey breast? I'm cooking this for The Man, but this is going to help me so much
Keep going, Joy. You're a source of inspiration to me.
Warm hugs,
C.
Topic: Checking in
I have not been perfect in my eating, but then perfection is one of my enemies.
During the last 3 days, I have completely avoided the crackers, and bread and carby snacks between meals.
I have turned to cheese and protein for snacks (and not even that much of that!)
The only sweet thing I have eaten was a pear.
I have eaten reasonably healthy meals without overstuffing.
Results:
- Finally, as of today, the constant carb cravings are noticably dropping off.
- I have not had a single dumping / coma-type episode after eating
I am feeling hope that I may yet regain some element of control.
Now, by calorie count is still too high, and my caffeine intake is still too high, but one baby step at a time, I am reclaiming my life from this addiction.
p.s. I rewarded myself by coloring my hair. (A friend had just "complemented" me on how "good" it looks since I "let it go gray"!)
If I never lose an ounce, it is worth the "sacrifice" to have freedom and feel so much better!
I hope you are doing well, my friends...
Joy
During the last 3 days, I have completely avoided the crackers, and bread and carby snacks between meals.
I have turned to cheese and protein for snacks (and not even that much of that!)
The only sweet thing I have eaten was a pear.
I have eaten reasonably healthy meals without overstuffing.
Results:
- Finally, as of today, the constant carb cravings are noticably dropping off.
- I have not had a single dumping / coma-type episode after eating
I am feeling hope that I may yet regain some element of control.
Now, by calorie count is still too high, and my caffeine intake is still too high, but one baby step at a time, I am reclaiming my life from this addiction.
p.s. I rewarded myself by coloring my hair. (A friend had just "complemented" me on how "good" it looks since I "let it go gray"!)
If I never lose an ounce, it is worth the "sacrifice" to have freedom and feel so much better!
I hope you are doing well, my friends...
Joy
Topic: RE: update
Thank you for posting. You are still on my prayer list. No one expects you to be smiling and strong all the time. In fact that would not even be healthy. Go ahead and feel your feelings. It is OK to feel afraid, helpless, angry, exhausted, discouraged, and whatever else you may be experiencing at the time. His outcome does not depend on your show of strength right now.
God is good and loves you both very much. We may not see his work, or understand it, or even believe it, but that does not change the fact that he is working. It is at times like this that we have to cling to those that surround us. Draw strength wherever we can.
Huggs to you from Arkansas!
Joy
God is good and loves you both very much. We may not see his work, or understand it, or even believe it, but that does not change the fact that he is working. It is at times like this that we have to cling to those that surround us. Draw strength wherever we can.
Huggs to you from Arkansas!
Joy
Topic: update
Husband is still stable in ICU...they wont operate..afraid it wil all be mush in there and nothing to suture without rippng it so if they do eventually operate it will be later when he has scar tissure or if it moves even closer to his heart...ummm he's in and out...right now Im waitng on a call from the doctor they took a CAT scan last night Im waiting on the results..Im praying no news is good news...did have a problem with his kidneys starting to shut down alittle yesterday but they got his BP tooo low and raised it a tad so his kidneys are doing fine now thank GOD..but they do want to keep it low so the tear doesnt spread or get bigger or cause added pressure on it...I just dont know...for now he is stable but looks sooo tired and worn out ...please keep prayers coming. As for me Im hanging in there...one minute fine the next not so good..but Im ok..thank you all.
"To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream, not only plan, but also believe" ----"Anatole France"
"Joyously grasp the ties that bind you, for they lead straight to the heart"---"Wm."
Kimberly...
Topic: RE: Oprah Yesterday?
I didn't see the show so I may be talking out of turn, but I've always thought that Oprah just doesn't get it. From the time she went on Optifast and drug a wagon full of fat behind her on stage, through her rants about weight loss surgery patients taking the "easy way out" to her proclamation that she gained weight because she "blew out" her thyroid, I've never felt that she had come to grips with her own relationship with food. Maybe I just have a serious case of sour grapes, but I always thought that her preaching that you just had to have willpower was little naive. She has a limo picking her up to go exercise and a cook preparing her meals and a personal trainer kicking her butt every day so her life is a little different from the rest of us who are struggling with weight issues on our own and without a hired posse. I probably shouldn't talk withou****ching the show, but I've never felt that she has been terribly supportive of people with weight issues, in spite of her own very public climb up and down the scale.
Topic: RE: Oprah Yesterday?
I didn't see it, but he is so right. I wish the WLS docs focused on our heads as much as our physical digestive systems. I am just beginning to accept that I have an eating disorder, not an anatomy or physiology disorder, and to discover some of the reasons and triggers.
This is not to say I regret the surgery--I just needed both!
This is not to say I regret the surgery--I just needed both!
Topic: RE: My name is Joy and I'm a food-aholic...
My Accountability Plan:
Ultimately, to lose weight, I need to go on a very low carb diet. Honestly, I'm not ready to do that yet. I am not even overly obsessed with the scales or how my clothes feel (tight, if you wonder!) I'm not ready to deal with the obvious fact that when I squat down, my knees don't want to lift me.
What I AM fighting to own and deal with NOW are two self-destructive behaviors and the resulting symptoms:
1) Overeating at meals. More is NOT better. I need to re-develop awareness of "enough" and STOP before I set off the blood sugr roller coaster that results in 1-2 hours of coma-like sleep following meals.
2) Constant grazing on crackers or other easy carbs when I awake from the coma (probably triggered because my blood sugar is extremely low from the dumping action.
The dumping coma is eroding my quality of life, and at times, like when I have to drive after eating, is actually threatening it, and anyone who is in my path.
So, no sugar, only protein between meal snacks, and reasonable meals for me today.
Thanks for the support, my friends!
Joy
Ultimately, to lose weight, I need to go on a very low carb diet. Honestly, I'm not ready to do that yet. I am not even overly obsessed with the scales or how my clothes feel (tight, if you wonder!) I'm not ready to deal with the obvious fact that when I squat down, my knees don't want to lift me.
What I AM fighting to own and deal with NOW are two self-destructive behaviors and the resulting symptoms:
1) Overeating at meals. More is NOT better. I need to re-develop awareness of "enough" and STOP before I set off the blood sugr roller coaster that results in 1-2 hours of coma-like sleep following meals.
2) Constant grazing on crackers or other easy carbs when I awake from the coma (probably triggered because my blood sugar is extremely low from the dumping action.
The dumping coma is eroding my quality of life, and at times, like when I have to drive after eating, is actually threatening it, and anyone who is in my path.
So, no sugar, only protein between meal snacks, and reasonable meals for me today.
Thanks for the support, my friends!
Joy
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