My daughter got back fron Israel fine, she loved it and can't wait to go back.  This summer she is teaching at a theater arts camp in california.  She will be there for 9 weeks.  They were recruiting kids that go to the Actor's Studio and that's where she found out about it....they wanted kids with a strong theater background.  Sometimes its hard to let her go, but this is what kids are supposed to do....find their way in the world.  I'm proud of her.

Take care,
Joanie

I am still breathing I think. After my doc backed off part of my surgery after a year I gained weight. I am not back where I was before but I am very unhappy. I was just diagnosed with Narcolepsy and about 3 months ago my sister-in-law that had this same surgery passed away from years of complications with the surgery. She was one of the first to have this procedure when it was still pretty much a iffy thing. I am working but it is hard because of the way I feel about myself. My husband tells me all the time I am beautiful but I know he is psycho. So whatever happened to Rob? My surgery was the last day of the month too and he was the caboose. I remember reading all the problems he had and all the time he spent in the hospital. Well good luck to everyone. I am going to see my surgeon next Friday and he already knows I am very unhappy with him, so I guess I will see what happens. Wish me luck and pray I don't wring his neck lol.

I know you well enough to know that you've done copious research to best inform your decision making process about all of this - so pardon the question: have you looked into homepathic medicine therapy, chiopracty, have you at least considered augmenting your therapies with this route? I just learned recently that I have degenerative arthritis in both knees - but knees can be replaced, as far as I know, spinal chords can't be.  But there must be something that can be done to relieve you of your pain. Take a breather, sob all you need to - then get back into the fight. I'm so sorry ... Maureen

i need spring i want spring i gotta have spring.
its been a long winter. i first got sick in october and i'm finally at the point where i dont carry my phone with me all around the house in case i get sick and feel the need to call 911. Now don't get me wrong I never got to the point where i had to but i didn't feel great and i live alone so of course when i'd not feel good right away the thought goes through my head that, in the words of that fancy tv personality...."it could be the big one"
i have a very active imagination.
went to the natureopathic doc today. i like her. we talked about where i was when i went to her a few months back and were i am now. wow there really is a big difference. i no longer have to go each month now i dont' see her again until May and will have blood work done 2 weeks berfore the visit to see how my levels are now that i've been doing the things she had me do. i'm curious to see where the vitiamin D is my self.
after my visit with her i stopped at walmart. god i love that place. i picked up a new window shade for my bedroom the old one fell off 2 weeks ago and i've not been able to chang emy clothes in there all this time! tonight i fixed it. ahhhhh finally.
while i was in walmart i picked up the tuna fish that i love. in colchester i feel like they are robbing me cause i paid $2.50 for a can of tuna! but you see i love this tuna! it is awesome in a gold can bumble bee white packed in water but its a realllly good bumble bee kinda like what it use to be before they took the dolphin out. BUt walmart has the same exact thing for $1.50!!!! still an outrageouse amount of money for a can of tuna. One can of tuna is two meals for me. I put it on a 1/2 of a wheat slice then put a slice of low fat cheese on it pop it in the micro for 15 seconds and BING its done. yummy. its fillinhg and good for me. so i bought 4 cans of that. I also got a big jar of peanut butter Jiffy. My favorote. cost me 3.50 in colchester the same jar is 5 bucks. i'm beginning to think i need to get my lists in order and shop in wlamart more often!
i visited the candy aisle.
I use to eat tons of candy 5 years ago. i could buy a big back of reenies favorites and eat the whole thing in an afternoon. then i'd have a couple of baby ruth or butterfinger big king size bars. is it any wonder i was heavy? i don'tn eat candy anymore. not at all.if i have a craving for sweets especially since the low blood thing i have an orange or a banana or a atkins bar.
i checked out makeup. picked up a new mascara.
just a bunch of ramblinjgs tonight. its bed time but i'm not totally tired yet.
i want spring to come soon. i need sunlight very badly. i feel cold in side i want the sun so much. i promise right now not to complain when it is 90 degrees and my house is an oven. I promise to get up and thank god for it being hot and sunny.

I lurk but I really don't have much to say.  Five years.  I am approximately 10 lbs heavier than my lowest weight.  I watch my weight but don't beat myself up over it.  I am what I am.  I have held steady for quite some time now.

I'm busy and I'm tired.  Other than that I'm fine.

Joanie