Hi - had a rough time of it yesterday and caved; I'm going to follow Kim's lead and post what I ate so that I hold myself accountable; this is not easy for me to do because I have strong feelings of shame and remorse, but here goes: started with a handful of jelly beans (kitchen at work); that started off the binge, no other word for it; had at least 3 more handfuls of jelly beans, then had 3 handfuls of M&Ms (from the woman's office). Went home and had an english muffin with PB and then some homemade lentil and spinach soup. These are the things I ate that were NOT on my planned menu (which I also ate - what I planned for). So, lots of calories and bad feelings. In retrospect, I was very stressed at work with a huge project that there was a great deal of pressure on me for a successful outcome. It was successful, but took the whole day to get there. So my eating was absolutely a trigger response to what I was feeling. If I can just figure out how to do a different way of responding to negative feelings and anxiety, I'll have this beat! For today (and by the way, I've already talked myself down off the ledge in CRAVING the M&M's - could of had them when I got to work, but didn't - yeah me!):

B:  1 apple w/ 1T peanut butter (delicious!)     150C, 4P
S:  celery w/ 1T peanut butter   95C, 3P
L:  Lean Cuisine frozen meal   280C, 21P
S:  Zone bar   210C, 14P
D:  Protein shake w/ yogurt and fresh blueberries   300C, 30P

158.5/154/140

Love you guys! Thanks for your help and support, I'd be lost without you. M.

my hubby lived on hawaii for 11 years- we are always amazed how any food can be called aloha or hawaiian simply by adding pineapple!!!!!

sorry- just a personal chuckle!!!!

I somehow forgot to post Day 1 and 2, so I'll do all 3 (more or less ) for day 3 since I tend to eat the same things day in and day out

on the way to work - Protein shake ****d coffee --- instant decaf coffee, DaVinci Kahlua syrup, vanilla protein powder, equal, powdered coffee creamer mixed with 1 1/2 cups of cold water, 1/2 cup of crushed ice)

sometime between 9 and 10:30 a.m. - Kashi go lean cinnamon & honey oatmeal

lunch - Salad made with 3 to 4 cups of chopped romaine, 1/4 cup shredded mexican cheese, 2 tbl spoons bacon bits, pieces of artichoke heart (in brine), 2 tbl spoons black olives, 4 oz turkey or beef (2 days turkey, one day beef)

Mid afternoon snack (missed on Tues & wed) - 4 oz cup light yogurt with no sugar added sliced strawberries (approx one cup before thawing)

Dinner -
Monday - small amount of pot roast with some mashed potatoes & gravy
Tuesday - leftover chili
Wednesday - more pot roast
(pouch was NOT happy wtih Monday or Tuesday night's dinner .. and sent it back)

After dinner snack -
Monday night - 1 choc chip cookie
Tuesday night - 2 choc chip cookies
Wednesay night - 2 choc chip cookies
Ha ha ha .. bet you thought Wed night was going to be 3 cookies .. lol .. 
Cookies were/are home made .. baked Sunday to go in Mr Mo's lunches (new years resolution to send him off with lunch every day)

I had let having a glass or two of wine when we would go out to dinner slide to having wine open in the house to having a glass or two of wine when I would get home from work each day.   I've cut out the wine, though it is still in the house, and I will allow myself wine on the weekends (that may or may not start on Friday night and last until Sunday .. I haven't decided yet).  

I've also sworn off chocolate and have gone 3 days in the office without picking up any candy in the office.   It's not licked, but it's a good start!!!

 I really believe deep down that the wine is the root of my weight gain and my inability to get it off.  I'm trying not to jump on the scale every morning but of course I am !!!  I need to see some results so I don't get frustrated, though I do feel better already.


Excercise
I bought the Leslie Sansome 5 CD set of the Walking Slim program before Christmas and started on it Friday a.m. while I was waiting for Mr Mo to wake up.   Today was day 3 of getting out of bed at 4:45 a.m. to go downstairs and do my walking routine.  I've got my portable DVD player set up in the dining room and I just go downstairs flip on the light, grab my water bottle and off I go.   Eventually, I may need to find some other CDs to switch out with, but right now by the time I get bored the 35 minutes is over.   The beauty of working out at 5 a.m. ... I'm too asleep to get bored!!!

Ok, now I'm up to date.   Going forward since things tend to be the same every day, I probably won't be so detailed.

Hugs, Mo

There you are! Glad you put your photo back up, it will help my pre-Altzheimer's mental capacity. Hey, don't sweat it, Kim. I'm proud as hell of you for posting! And really, this isn't so bad - you should be a fly on the wall when I get into the candy. Today is a new day, just take good care of YOU! M.

Keep up the good work...positive attitude is the key....yesterday I did bad read BAD...Im counting it as my weekley cheat day...

yesterdays food argggg-

breakfast bagel with light cream cheese and coffee w/splenda

snack two packets of peaches and cream oatmeal with grapenuts sprinkled on it- though made with water

lunch about 6 hot wings and diet  cherry coke...dont know why i had the coke I never drink those things but it was good

snuck 2 pieces of whitmans chocolate the box was calling my name and another damn diet cherry coke why oh why- none today

dinner small plate of speggitti and two meatballs with a piece of cheese garlic bread and argggg another cherry coke, I got to get that stuff out of the house...never drank it before and am not about to begin now.

and ahhhhh....hmmmm....1....Reese peanutbutter Xmas tree candy

alot of water and all my vitamins and no exercise....that was yesterday...today Im going to get on track. Actually reading back to what I type it wasnt THAT bad LOL...just out of character for me  today is a new day!