Will have to read them. I finally got my blood work done yesterday. Will wait for the results. I'm nervous about it. I fasted and everything so hopefully I'll have accurate results. I DID forget to ask her about the vitamin d. I will in 2 months when i have my full physical and check up. of course if my levels are bad she said she would call me. Well I  have heavier meds. Percocet and was STILL in pain last night on precocet. It worked great while i was awake but when i hit the bet oh man oh man... i didn't sleep a wink last night...well maybe half an hour. I was up at 2 up at 3 up at 4 and up at 5. it was awful. But i do feel a little better today. Still hurts to swallow but not as bad. Still cant turn my head left and right very much but it was a liiiittttle better than before. and the aching isnt as bad. So my fingers are crossed. Keep me in your prayers. I'm gonna read that tonight. its quiet in here. you're right. Everyone is preparing for the holidays, its hard to find time to go on the computer when you are doing so much to get ready for christmas or whatever you celebrate. about what you said about how you are feeling, how we lost track or got off track...know whats been helping me? reading all the newbies that are preparing and JUST had surgery. I read about this one guy who was on liquids and protein for a month and dropped 50 pounds. I was like OH YEAH! thats right... then i read 3 months out... then 6 months out and i was constantly like.... shoot ! i forgot about that! you start to notice all the things you did wrong. well...i guess we already know what we did wrong....but we forget what we did RIGHT. because its been so long. I find reading those newbie posts very helpful and gives me that extra...reminder... ((hugs!))

Do you realize we're less than 3 months away from our 5 year anniversary? Wow. Amazing. I've been hopping around to different boards, just trying to get some help with dealing with my food issues, and trying to understand why I've lost the "steam" of my program - not exercising anymore, every day is a day of hanging on by my fingernails with food compulsions, just really feeling like I've lost the battle but still in the war, do you know what I mean? There's no peace in the mind living like this. I'm finding on other boards that many, many people are feeling precisely this way as well.  This doesn't really help me in any way except to know that I'm not alone. I just wish I understood what has gone wrong. I suppose it relates mostly to feeling so hungry all of the time, just so damned hungry that I want to eat all of the time, I just want to be eating something! And life, man, is life hard - right? What was it that Darwin said??? "It is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change."  I haven't dealt real well with all the changes, especially the growing older part, the daughter leaving me part, the son not needing me anymore part, the marriage feeling more like a sibling relationship than a lovers relationship part... life. And now there's the added daily pressure of waiting for the bomb to drop that one or both of us has lost our jobs - happening all around us at both our places of employment. But I bet I'm saying stuff here that just about all of you can relate to, right? Just thinking. Thinking, thinking, thinking. And right now I'm thinking about chocolate. God, how I want chocolate. Good day, all. This board is so quiet - change... guess I better go with the flow... M.

Me too...she's probably going nuts getting her house and all ready for the holidays.......

Oh thank you Reenie...yeah he is a good one...Im still on cloud nine I cant weight to get it on my finger!!! He is a sweety!!!!


edited to add LOL I just noticed how I typed "wait" think theres a connection to my frame of mind?

Thanks :)  Oh I totally agree on the "rest" part of the drug. It knocks me out like benadryl orr that formula 44 stuff.  Soooo hard to work and take it. But i have no choice there. I HAVE to work. I have one day that i can take and may take it tomorrow. It still didn't take away the pain. Lets see....i've had 4 now and pain is still there. What sucks is that im soooo tired but it hurts to lay down. its torture!  I was cleaning like a mad woman on saturday... all day and night. i totally overdid it. But i'm about positive it was mopping the kitchen floor which i did obsessively. I felt something pull gently but it wasnt real painful. Just sore. Then the next day came and i was HURTING its gotten worse and its mostly the muscles in the side of my neck. I think its neck strain from what ive read especially with having a problem swallowing... or rather swallowing and feeling pain. its so sore its like my neck hurts just holding up my head. never had it this bad before. don't like it. Nope. Not one bit. im eating sun chips now because my tummy is mad because i only had soup in it with all the medicine. i had warm compresses on it the other night and OUCH! the pain increased like ten fold. My husband told me not to put heat on it because it swells the muscles if i pulled something. He's right. I looked it up online and it said the same. anyways....im praying it gets better. i have soooo much to do!