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Topic: checking in....
Hi everyone...sorry to cause such a worry....been sooooooo busy, all is fine..Bill is ok so far, Thank God....just had another CAT scan, no change, so we get another in 2 months and continue doing what we are doing, which is nothing, just taking meds and keeping BP low. Ive been dealing with taking him to the hospital and dealing with the things I need to do with the Kids father's death. If anything good has come out of all this stress is hey I lost 10 lbs lol....But Im ok. kids are getting back to normal, I did have to take Rachael to a doctor to get some medicine she was getting really depressed but she is doing alright now, Ive been trying to keep her busy...Jimmy he just doesnt say much But I think he is ok. I did manage to get out about 2 weeks ago and went to alittle cookout with an old girlfriend, I really had a nice time and saw a few old highschool buddies who I havent seen in about 30 years...that was neat. Other then that I havent been doing anything but taking care of others and trying to maintain the household and property... but life continues and we will all be ok.
Reenie thank you for your concern and you go have a BLAST at the reunion...I WANT details!!!!!
Reenie thank you for your concern and you go have a BLAST at the reunion...I WANT details!!!!!
"To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream, not only plan, but also believe" ----"Anatole France"
"Joyously grasp the ties that bind you, for they lead straight to the heart"---"Wm."
Kimberly...
Topic: LAELA
I gotta tell you guys about Laela - my horse. Mike, do you remember all those years ago in those support group meetings - I would tell folks that it's my fantasy to ride but that I was afraid I'd kill any horse I tried to get on? Here I am, nearly 6 years later, living out my fantasy!!! It's amazing how we've bonded since I brought her home - no more boarding, no more egocentric trainers who care more about how they look in their breeches than how well the rider is doing - just me and Laela and we are having a BALL together. Horses perceive humans as part of their herd - and you are either subordinant, and they push you around and behave very badly; or you are superior - the herd leader as it were - and they respect you and listen to you and want to be with you wherever you go. That's how Laela sees me - it's so funny, I let her graze in the backyard sometimes while I'm in the pool (an inground with a surround fence) - she gets nervous that the fence separates us so she tries to get into the pool area with me! It's hysterical really, she's like a little kid, saying, "Mommy, don't go too far away!" And when I'm on her back - wow, we fly like the wind! For two years I paid a fortune to board her at two different training facilities with three different trainers and I never progressed beyond the trot - now I am cantering on her every day, and we are out on the trails together and she is just in my pocket, she loves me so much! And she is take-your-breath-away gorgeous - the big black horses the knights-in-shining-armour rode in their battles (a Friesian). Laela makes me happy, she makes me laugh - I tell all my troubles to Laela and sometimes I bury my head into her thick beautiful mane and cry, not often, but sometimes... let's do ourselves and each other a favor today - let's tell each other how we're living that feels good, remarkable, because we've got these bodies that can take us anywhere we want to go - when Laela and I are flying together, I feel like I can do anything... what about you!! Have a great day, guys. Maureen
Topic: RE: WLS Limbo
I see what you mean, Joanie. What I meant to say - or should have said - was that when I "slip up" by eating crap food that is not nutritious or healthy, I beat myself up - unfortunately, I "slip up" every day with that darned candy... my fight, my demons. I just don't feel good about myself when I'm not taking good care of myself - that's what I meant to say. On the flip side, I feel GREAT when I get that sugar-crap out of my system, I enjoy moving my body doing exercise that makes me feel powerful and strong - these behaviors make me feel GOOD about myself. And I struggle every day to have those kinds of days rather than the other... does this make sense? Anyone else feel this way, guys? Joanie, it's always wonderful to hear from you. Let us know how you're doing, ok? Has anyone heard from Kim? I'm worried about her husband... Maureen
Topic: RE: WLS Limbo
You said you felt sad every day and felt like a failure. It didn't sound good to me....
Topic: A WOW Factor Reunion
Yikes! A week from tomorrow I am flying to Michigan for my (gulp!) 30th reunion from my undergraduate alma marter, Central Michigan University. This is actually the 1st reunion for the group of people that graduated from the theatre department at any time during the 1970s. Yes, you read that right - the 1970s - flared bell-bottoms, fringe vests, peace, love, and polyester. One of my college roommates, whom I have not seen in 28 years, is picking me up at the airport! I grew up with these people. Literally. The guy I lost my virginity to will be there. One of my favorite professors, who is now in his late 70s, will be there. I will be performing in a musical revue with a bunch of these folks - none of us have seen each other in nearly 30 years! Needless to say, I'm double-dutying my situps and trying so, so, so hard to get a little weight off before I get on that plane! I just want to feel good about myself. I don't want to feel bloated and disappointed that I can't stay away from the crap. Think good thoughts for me, ok? Speaking of which, I'm thinking about Kim and hoping... praying... that everything is ok - Maureen
Topic: RE: WLS Limbo
Pam and Joanie, you guys are so caring and compassionate, thanks for this! But I really wasn't feeling depressed when I posted this! (Did everyone read this as my being depressed? Just curious...) Just thinking aloud about where I'm at with my WLS journey. Yes, I do get down when I don't take good care of myself, and I sure am more complacent about this than I was two years ago - but I'm a fighter and won't give up! As an update (and thanks to Connie for this), I went in yesterday for my blood profile work-up - will let you guys know what the results are and I really encouarge everyone to do this. I also have my 5 year appointment with my surgeon scheduled for mid-September and will talk through my issues with him at that time; I've gathered some CT-based folks who are at various stages of their post-surgery lives, and we will be meeting prior to the regularly schedule support group meeting to have a mini-session of our own - Pam and Mike, it would be so great if you could join us! Let me know - have a great day, guys. Maureen
Topic: RE: WLS Limbo
As I read your post, another thought occurred to me. You, of all people, have made the most drastic change in your appearence and your life as far as weight is concerned. Have you ever had help with dealing with the psychological aspects of such a change? I think the psychological aspects of having this surgery are grossly underplayed and need to be addressed. I think most of us would have benefitted from having a year of therapy post surgery. There will be NO TIME in our lives where we should feel we 'won the battle'. In my journey, no one ever told me that there will ever come a time when I don't have to worry or pay attention to my weight. If you are feeling sad most hours of most days, you are in a depression, which of course, will make a person complacent. Despite what you may believe, 'normal people' watch their weight too. A small percentage of people say they never think about it, but I guarantee you once they hit a certain age, the pounds will start to slowly be added. You are the person who has control of your priorities....and severe depression can cloud your vision. I know how you feel about therapy and medication at this point, but sometimes there are no other options. I hope you get the help you need and find a way to take special care of yourself.
Joanie
Joanie
Topic: RE: Update Sort of!!
HI Reenie
There is 3 sections of my Thoracic Spine area that are being eatin up by some kind
of infection. They do not know what is causing it at this point. Had MRI yesterday to
see how bad & what could be causing it. My blood work shows nothing. Only the Xrays &the Neuro-spine Doc thinks it might be a form of osteopenia, but, not sure
till the MRI comes back to him. Now the neurologist wants the chest xray to rule
out a blockage or tumor, but, those things would not cause the decaying bones.
So I still have no answers & still have back pain & still have bones decaying in my
center spine if not stopped can cause me to be paralyzed. Way too many Docs & no
is telling me squat.
That is what is up with me at this point.
There is 3 sections of my Thoracic Spine area that are being eatin up by some kind
of infection. They do not know what is causing it at this point. Had MRI yesterday to
see how bad & what could be causing it. My blood work shows nothing. Only the Xrays &the Neuro-spine Doc thinks it might be a form of osteopenia, but, not sure
till the MRI comes back to him. Now the neurologist wants the chest xray to rule
out a blockage or tumor, but, those things would not cause the decaying bones.
So I still have no answers & still have back pain & still have bones decaying in my
center spine if not stopped can cause me to be paralyzed. Way too many Docs & no
is telling me squat.
That is what is up with me at this point.
Marilyn C (Bearlady)
Topic: RE: Words from the West Side
Connie,
I was referred a gastroenterologist doc first....but I quickly scheduled an appointment to see my surgeon. The gastro doc couldn't get her head around my "new" plumbing and thought it unusual that I still had an intolerance for food. She stated that 5 after years I should be eating like a "normal" person. I ran to the door and never looked back.
My surgeon did want me back on my protein shakes - he was surprised when I told him I drank 2 to 3 every day. He stated that type of compliance was unusual 5 years out. He did stress that it was very important to keep up the supplements.
I went off the Mobic "cold turkey". That first month was killer...I survived on Arthritis strength Tylenol during the day then Flexiril and Darvocet once I got home from work. I religiously took a Glucosimine/ Chondroiton/ MSM supplement recommended by my rheumatologist. After a couple of months I was able to slowly cut out the flexiril and all but one Darvocet.
I'd really encourage you to call your surgeon's office and talk with them before you let anyone else stick a scope into your pouch.
Keep me posted.
Va
I was referred a gastroenterologist doc first....but I quickly scheduled an appointment to see my surgeon. The gastro doc couldn't get her head around my "new" plumbing and thought it unusual that I still had an intolerance for food. She stated that 5 after years I should be eating like a "normal" person. I ran to the door and never looked back.
My surgeon did want me back on my protein shakes - he was surprised when I told him I drank 2 to 3 every day. He stated that type of compliance was unusual 5 years out. He did stress that it was very important to keep up the supplements.
I went off the Mobic "cold turkey". That first month was killer...I survived on Arthritis strength Tylenol during the day then Flexiril and Darvocet once I got home from work. I religiously took a Glucosimine/ Chondroiton/ MSM supplement recommended by my rheumatologist. After a couple of months I was able to slowly cut out the flexiril and all but one Darvocet.
I'd really encourage you to call your surgeon's office and talk with them before you let anyone else stick a scope into your pouch.
Keep me posted.
Va
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