I know it has been quite a while since I have actually posted, but I kind of feel like I don't have much to contribute anymore. I am actually about 20 pounds below my goal weight and I kind of feel like I am rubbing it in to others who are still trying to reach their own goals. That is really the last thing that I want to do. I am just wondering if there are others who are in the same position as me. As soon as I get done posting this I am going to put a recent picture of myself on my account. I think I have not put one on in so long because I am scared of what people are going to say. I have been told by many people how sick I look and on the verge of being anerxic. I am 5'10 and have actually gained about 5 pounds to 143. I feel good, I don't feel sick- but I still see the places where I could still stand to lose weight or tone up. I was at 135 and this weight gain has really been hard for me because I am afraid that it is just going to start me down the wrong road (to gaining it all back). But I don't want to look sick so I have been kind of stuffing whatever in my face just to make people shut up. I feel no matter if I am fat or skinny I am not ever going to be enough for anyone. I am really sorry if this post has upset anyone, please believe me that I am not trying to rub my success (or whatever you want to call it) in anyone's face. Anyone in the same boat it would be great to hear from you- or anyone for that matter. Thanks, Christine

josh is still hanging on family say his body is swelling with fluid and is on dialysis for two daynow doctor hoping kidney will begain to work on it own he is on a ventilator and need surgery to repair artery ila

You're going to be ok. Take a deep breath and enjoy this time... ( not the throwing up) LOL!!!! Try not to stress as it is not good for you. If you cant eat, may I suggest going back to drinking some protien shakes, cause if you dont eat the baby IS going to get his nurishment from YOUR body, and that is not good for you.. I am PRAYING for you & BEAN!!! Tanya 358/194/185

Shel, Everything you're feeling is NORMAL new mom stuff. First pregnancies conjur up every little question when we feel any little twinge or feeling in there. As long as your hcg is doubling on a daily basis, that's great! Means pregnancy is going well. That's why you're sick...the hcg is doubling daily... I was so sick with Anna, everyday for 7 1/2 mos...she came 6 weeks early! Get those fluids in...and your protein, too. Gotta do it, I know that you don't feel like eating, but that baby has to grow, honey...force it. I was considered a "high risk" cause I was in my mid 30's and needed to take psych meds for my panic disorder...so, I went in a lot and had a lot of blood work done, etc. The OB's know what they're doing...as do the nurse practs. They're really good, too. Try not to worry...your body is growing a baby! Everything will be ok. I had discharge too, they told me that it's sometimes the baby/fetus attaching to the uterous... Later on, you'll know if you're getting dehydrated when you don't feel the baby move as much. So, you'll have to keep the water going, going, going. It happened to me and I went in and got hooked up and the baby was fine, I was just dehydrated and she needed more amniotic fluid to float around in! I drank a whole bunch of water while I was up there and she started swimming around and the monitor took off! I guess she was thirsty too! Hang in there... Paula

just got the new josh had his surgery doctor was able to seal the spinal cord he remain very critical will keep you posted Ila