Attention Crabbypantsers! Let's B*tch!!

crabby pants: being in an irritable, grumpy mood, as in, "Jeez, who's wearing the crabby pants today?" and "Hey, cheer up and take off the crabby pants!"

It's just one of those "I'm fed the f**k up!" days. I need to vent and I invite you to join me. Since B*TCHFest is usually Wednesdays, I'll just invite those of you in need to put on your crabby pants and let it all out.

Okay. I'm fed the f**k up with sending out resume after resume (i"snail mail" and online) and never hearing anything back. Would it kill anyone to acknowledge that they received my info? A form letter or auto reply email will do fine. Just let me know that it GOT there.

I'm tired of not having a god damned job after 18 DAMNED MONTHS. I put 25 years of my life - a quarter century, HALF of my whole life - into a career that I THOUGHT I was pretty damned good at, yet I find myself applying to Petco and Home Depot and Starbucks because it's $$$ and because they provide benefits. Not that there is anything wrong with those jobs, god knows, but that's not what I have put my heart, soul and time into for so long.

And at the end of July, my dear hubby will be kicked to the curb by his employer, too. And then, folks, we're totally f**ked. No income, no insurance. Tell me again, media ******** how the "recession is over"???

Thanks Bette! I really need this today!

DH has been out of work going on 3 months (I know its nothing compared to 18!) He has applied for everything under the sun and no one will call him back...Yep that too includes McDonalds, Pizza Hut, and every friggin retail store within a 50 mile radius.

Now, today I have the pleasure of calling the mortgage company and tell them...Yeah, I thought I could pay this month, but I cant. I know I set up something for the 24th, but I need gas to get to work, a yearbook for DD, food for the family...etc.

Oh, and hey...looks like I wont be able to pay next month either.

I dont know what to do.

Oh, and can I add that ive had to DOUBLE my citlaopram cause I feel like a big fat weight loss failure. AND I quit smoking 3 months ago and I want a friggin SMOKE. I think maybe DH is smoking again.

Maybe I should be grateful because my husband and I have jobs but I'm a fatass!  There I said it!  I am tried of it today!  I fell yesterday on water on a tile floor at work.  Landed on my knee and it is swollen like it has a baseball on top of it.  I have it wrapped and elevated-off today because of Primary Election!  My youngest is getting married May 29th-11 days!  I need my knee to get over it and get well!

Ok so I don't feel so bad!!! The bathroom is in demolition mode, my daughter has prom this weekend, graudation on the 4th, my son gets married on June 19, then my daughters graduation party on the 26th...lots of family and friends in town.  And ya, don't forget the other son gets married in September. But at least I have a job...thanks for putting things in perspective for me!

I hate being gassey and uncomfortable and not being able to eat !!!! I want some food!!!! (going to drink my protein shake like a good girl lol)
I live in a nice neighborhood older but nice .The house beside us is a rental but you would never know to look at it ....until.... these last yahoos moved in.The moved in w/ a tiny little fuzzy dog and then immediately got a large puppy then right after got a HUGE dog .The huge one barked all the time and my hubby had to go over at all hours and untangle him as he was of course tied up outside.For awhile they had the little dog in a wire enclosure in the front yard no top on it , the middle sized puppy living under an overturned COUCH in the front yard and then the big dog out back.Then moved the big puppy to back and it accidently got wrapped around the huge dog and hung it and we tracked her down and called her and my hubby and the neighbor man had to carry the 125 lb dog up the hill and bury it cause she had to go back to waffle hse and finish her shift! I'm serious ! Then we feed and water the little fuzzy thing out front and cover it when it rains it has no bed the only cover is what we went over and put on it.Then they get rid of it and not a week later bring home 7 large puppies and put them in the little wire enclosure.  Get the F out !!!! There are 2 left and yesterday it was a monsoon and so I went over and put an umbrella over the enclosure to cover the little things.I called the landlord and he said she can have outside animals but if we thought they were being abused to call the animal control so I guess that is what I will do next time.This is not the kind of neighborhood we live in.Not to sound uppity but couches in the front yard all torn up and dogs everywhere and not being taken care of at that.She actually got mad when the other neighbors watered the dogs once and she found out about it.
I think some people should stay away from animals  .This chick may be one of those people. It is so frustrating because I know we will have to continue to do for these dogs or see them die .:(   i love animals so guess what we will do....

 I love this!  Even crabby and *****y your all funny.

Let me give you a little background on me.  

I was a mortgage underwriter for 20 years... 2008 the bottom fell out of that business so I lost my career, lost my house, lost my car. etc...... so move forward to 2010 and I'm a CNA going to school for respiratory therapy.  I live in a trailer, thanks Mom, and I am enjoying my new banded life.  

I know it's not easy but reinventing myself when I lost my career was a savior. I decided since I couldn't do what I was used to I would do what I had passion for. I love helping people.  I love being there for the patients and families. I now work for hospice and love every minute of it.  I'm struggling financially still but I know I'm doing a job that is satisfying to my soul. 

I hope you all find what you need and I pray for all of you who are out of work or going to be out of work. 

nkara...

You are a saint to do Hospice work. Thank you

I EFFIN SUCK!!!!!!! I GOT LAB BAND AND WAS EAGER TO GET MY LIFE BACK. WELLLL HAVE I DONT THAT? HELL NO! FROM DEC TO FEB I LOST A WHOLE 5 POUNDS! I THINK THATS WHEN I STARTED TO FAIL. I started eating bad foods and eventually got some pork stuck. In March I had to get unfilled which I gained 5 lbs from. I had to wait a whole month for a refill and of course he didn't put me back to were I was so here I have been since the end of April with no restriction eating whatever I want!!!! I have not followed any of my band rules since FEB!!!! I'm the worst band patient out there! What did i do this for if I'm only going to screw it up! I've been avoiding OH because I EFFIN SUCK!!!!! Then I go to Jamaica for a week and gained another 8 lbs! I drank the whole time I was there! I was so swollen I stretched my sandals out! I'm so disappointed in myself! YEAH AND instead of telling you guys that I'm back and need some advise on how to get back on track I'm sitting here throwing a damn pity party telling you everything I've done wrong rather than telling you what I am going to do right from now on! SEEEE I SUCK!!!!! Oh yeah and THEN I have an apt for a fill on Thursday and I got FACE my DOC. What the hell am I going to say to him???

 *****ing at myself today:

Dear Kari yes you had surgery last Tuesday and an unfill.  This was not an excuse to eat like a cow.  You can not blame 12 lbs on fluid retention a week after surgery and you MUST go back to eating right.  Being unable to fit in to your pants is totally unacceptable.  Dumb ass!!  

Oh and I'm completely sick of being sore already.  Everything from my ribs to my pelvic bone feels bruised and I want to feel 100% already.

one last ***** DERMABOND!!  This stuff is such a pain in the rear!!  I'd have rather had stitches!  Its starting to peel off and irritating my skin like crazy and it ITCHES!!!!

Kari