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Change
Change: the process of becoming different (a definition borrowed from Wikipedia, the apparent source of all truth these days). Most of us here are somewhere in that process of change……working toward a healthier existence, achieving a significantly smaller physique, perhaps even experiencing an emotional metamorphosis, and, for some, implementing the redirection of one’s life. Even if it is for the better, change is not easy. Neither is it free of setbacks or opposition from others. As often as not it seems that at any point in time giving up on change would be far easier than moving forward with it. Yet change can also rekindle your spirit and help you to overcome hurt and disappointment from the past. So we find ourselves fearing the horrible uncertainty about how things might turn out, but burning with the hope that change could lead us to happier, healthier, more fulfilling lives.
To my way of thinking, courage is the bridge between fear and hope. Substantive changes are underway in my life and there are some days when the totality of everything I need to do seems daunting and I find myself so deeply mired in self-doubt that only the summoning of some semblance of courage can push me ahead. I have found enough courage before to follow through with weight loss surgery and, later, to address what I thought were intractable mental health problems. I was recently reminded that I do actually possess enough courage to make my life better, whatever challenges I may face along the way. That timely and insightful reminder brings me to my purpose in making this post, which is to pass along the reminder that we all possess enough courage within ourselves to change our lives for the better and no amount of crushing self-doubt need stand in the way.
RP

We all get down on ourselves, but girlfriend - you take the prize! You've gained 20 pounds? That sucks. But you've kept over 115 OFF - THAT'S AWESOME! NEVER, EVER lose sight of how far you have come!
Does a regain of 20 pounds make you a failure? Hell no - according to WLS statistics, that makes you NORMAL. Remember how exciting it was, once the fat started to disappear, when you actually FELT "normal"??? I know I do!
I've gained back almost 20 from my lowest weight myself. And yes, it sucks, and yes, my smallest sizes are tighter than I'd like them to be, thus giving me more of a muffin top than I'd care to sport. But I've managed to keep 150# off, and I REFUSE to ignore that. I know I have my tool, and I know it's up to me to respect and USE my tool if I want to shave more weight off (which, of course, I DO!). I KNOW I CAN DO IT - AND I KNOW YOU CAN, TOO.
My point here is, you've had more than your fair share of stress. You have a history of using food to deal with stress, so it's really no surprise that it has played something of a role yet again. Sucks, but - it is what it is. You know I've dealt with plenty myself, and if I've learned one thing, it's that I, too, am a stress eater.
That's why support is so vital to our success. To keep us mindful, to keep us encouraged, to be understood when we struggle.
I love you, Marsha. Be a little kinder to yourself, or I may have to march out to Hutch and kick you in the ass.


Imperfect does not = unsuccessful
- baby food spoons
- toddler forks
- toddler bowls and plates
- Chocolate Protein Powder from GNC (28 grams protein per serving) [open, 1/2 full]
- Unjury unflavored protein powder [open, 3/4 full]
- Variety of Unjury protein powder packets
Thanks!
CW: 130ish HW: 264 SW:254 Hgt: 5'2
Goals-Dr:159-MET Mine:140-MET!!! Final Goal: 135-MET!!!!!
W4:-22 W8:-11 W12:-10.5 W16:-12 W20:-11.5 W24:-9.5 W28:-8 W32:-7.5 W36:-8 W40:-7.5 W44:-5 W48: -4.5 1Yr/W52: -7
Surgery: June 17, 2008..Lapband
Starting weight was 249lbs. I lost a total of 136lbs. Have maintained since hitting goal six months after LB surgery. (Lost over 50lbs prior on ins. co. required medically supervised diet).
Would be nice to get to know you all.
Treat yourself with kindness
This week: 246.6
Lost 2.4 pounds this week. I'm good with that. I find now that I'm falling back into bad habits (a cookie here or there.. or I'm loving frozen yogurt lately and I realize that I should be eating better things. However, I will admit that even if I do 'cheat' it's SO much less than I used to eat, so that makes me feel a bit better. 1 cookie won't absolutely kill me it's way better than the dozen I would have eaten before!)
~Jen
491 lap rny 1-12-11
384 last week
380 this week
Today marks the 1/2 way point to my goal and that's awesome! I am approaching my graduating weight and that is exciting. Can't wait to be talking 200's by fall:)