Its that cowboy dude's fault with his food porn

Ok, let's look at this-

Even your mess up was an improvement-you went and bought a pack, not a box.

Now, more big girl talk here-You ARE going to screw up some.  Do you really believe that surgery and spending a few zillion dollars is going to overcome a lifetime of poor eating habits in one magic poof?  Well, actually, I did, and boy was I in for a shocker.  But, proper habits and proper use of your WLS tool will make the overcoming of those habits an achievable goal-just not overnight.

Screw the exlax-that's a dysfunctional thought so don't even go there.  Actually, toss the whole beating yourself up for it-if you could stick to a diet, you wouldn't need surgery, would you?

Now here's a thought-maybe you are nervous about the surgery, weight loss goal, life in general and turned to your old buddy Hostess-just accept what you did and resolve to do better-no beating up required.

Really, we are too hard on ourselves-and sometimes I think we (or at least I) do it so I can feel defeated and not have to try any longer.  But then I can't accept defeat so I try again...LOL...it's a vicious cycle.

Skip the laundry and work out a little longer tomorrow-it will be better for you.

You are right.  I know you are.  This morning I am drinking water and have my zone bar ready to eat at 9:00.    If I keep beating myself up then I will stay in this destructive pattern.  I'm exactly like you, I can't accept defeat so I try again.   I weighed and I didn't gain anything yet from my overeating.  I'm gonna chug the water today and hopefully flush out any excess water weight and then tomorrow morning, weigh, see how the chips fall and go from there.  this board is such a life saver to me.  thank you everyone for your comments.  You really helped me pull myself out of a bad funk.

More advice, though you didn't ask for it....

Quit weighing every day-what you ate yesterday is still in your intestines, not in your fat cells.  Any weight you did gain would just be water.

We do need goals I am all about the goal cause we need to know where we are headed.  But wanting our bodies to work in a formula-.08 pounds a day for X number of days-it just leads to frustration.

Back up a step, focus on now, and make each choice the best choice you can at that moment.  Accept your choice, move on, repeat.

I ate those big Dill Pickles also during my last few days of freedom.  Weird thing is either they have been in the fridge too long (only about 4 months and the expiration date says 2009) or else my taste buds have changed.  I tried to eat one the other day, took one bite, and it was just BLEH.  I have since bought a different brand of pickles and I eat them occasionally with a meal.

Ok in defence of Cowboy and his graphic food porn....He never mentioned Hostess cupcakes....It was ding dongs that control him......I'm a twinkie woman myself.... Ok so you had a weak moment. It's a new day and just start it over....You can do this...You are a strong woman...not only strong but good golly you are a busy one too! That should help keep your mind free. I don't know how you do it and have a family too.....For once I'm glad I am alone!  You are only 2 weeks away!!!!!!! Then it's all good! Two weeks to the new you! Hang on!!! Sherry

Hey okiechick, I am in Bethany all the time!  I work just outside of Bethany and go to school at SNU.  You are right, today is a new day and I am going to do this.  If you drive by SNU tonight say a prayer for me to resist the pizza they always bring to class.  Tonight is class night for me.

My food porn was always Sonic or Ci-Ci's Pizza.  I still eat at Sonic now, just normally get a grilled chicken wrap (no lettuce) and pick the chicken and tomatoes out and eat them.  I ate for the first time in about 6 months at Ci-Ci's the other day.  I got about 5 slices of the exact same type of pizza, scraped all the toppings off, and ate just the toppings (with a little light ranch dressing on the side).  The manager has known me by name for YEARS and he was cool with me eating them like that.

Hi Amy - I think you need to focus on the whole picture, rather than one mess-up. Keep in mind that we all make mistakes (even post-op!!!), the point is to leave that day behind and move forward with your healthy new way of eating. It is countless the number of times I slipped and fell during my pre-op, yet, I was determined and I made it through. This things happen to everyone and I can assure you it will happen again (may not be cupcakes, but it will) - be prepared for it, know it and see it as for what it is, a one-time little slip and don't let it control your state of mind. You are doing a great job, but you are human as everyone else is and you we will not be perfect. This does get easier post-op, as you probably figured - when it comes to sweets, I can only handle one bite, more than that is nauseating, I cannot eat things made with white flour, the clamp up in my stomach and doesn't feel good - so as you can see, you get a lot more help from your stomach post-op. You are almost there, keep focusing on what you need to do to get there.  - Anna

Did you know he is also a pirate????????? Yep, he is so honery!!!!!!! AmyBeth

   I hear you!!!!  I need to lose 30 pounds in 30 days.  So I know pretty well what it means to have alot riding on losing the weight ...fast.  I have been struggeling too!!!  Hang in there!!  You can always let me know when you are weak....we ca talk each other through it!!  Good luck, opefully this will all be over soon...or atleast easier!! Morgan