Recent Emotional Rut
Emotion wise I'm really stressed out lately... dad's in the hospital right now unexpectedly after a routine medical procedure left him with serious lung complications. Could have lost him...
Mom also has a lot of chronic health issues and I'm always on edge with her... spending more time with her lately because of my dad and it's increasing my stress levels.
Also, going to be closing on a home purchase this month and that's stressful as well, and I'm really starting to worry about it in my pocketbook, so money worries are on the forefront of my mind (good thing I eat a lot less now!).
And grad school starts at the end of the month and I haven't done very much at all to get ready for that.
Plus I have my period.
Sigh. I've been fairly cranky lately and a bit tearful because of all of the above, and the last three days I haven't been to the gym because of work and family stuff, so that's not helping matters. I plan on getting to the gym tomorrow morning before I visit my dad in the hospital which should give me a bit of a boost, but I'm just kind of in an emotional rut and really feeling the stress right now.
Despite all the chaos in your life, re-commit to the behaviors that have brought you to this point -- don't let your exercise slip. If you don't make time for it, you will make time for emotional eating instead. Make sure that you are taking time to relax and care for yourself. You can't care for others if you aren't caring for yourself.
Even in times of family issues and illness, it is NOT selfish to care for yourself before you care for others. Ask for help if it's possible, and say no if you need to. Make enough time to eat right, exercise, sleep, relax and have fun. Don't put the needs of others above your own.
I have let the gym slide though... but I it's only been 3 days, and I will pick back up with it tmrw.
I guess I just needed to vent a little and share "out loud" some of what's been going on with me lately.
I remember once when I was in high school someone told me "You're always so happy-- always a smile on your face! You never have anything going on in your life to bring you down!" and I can remember thinking 'What the F-- are they crazy? I have SO MUCH stuff going on in my life to bring me down! I just try not to let it!'
It's good sometimes to be able to let it all go a bit... let it flow out, you know? Kind of cathartic.
The gift now is that not only are AWARE of it...your TALKING about it.
That is awesome. yes you are going through a lot. Try and get out of your
head by doing something for you in this very moment... Be free of all that thinking.
When I project about everything that is going in with my life, i get filled with anxiety.
What do I turn to?? FOOD.... So for me, I try to think of lifestyle behavioral changes..
no i am not perfect by all means... but understanding the thinker is my worse enemy
i have to get out of my head sometimes. well, all the time especially at night. That is
why I hang here.
You are going through a lot. I am sorry to hear about your dad and also your mom.
UGHHH TOM that will intesify everything by a google! ( a one followed by 100 zero`s)
What can you do for you...in this very moment..... and not think about those things just
for a little bit today?
My prayers are with you!!!!
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I'm sorry about your Dad - and your Mom. Also all the stress this is adding to your mind right now.
I'm glad you're dealing with it in ways that don't involve food. I do think you'll feel better if you can find the time to start exercising again in some way.
Tough times don't last. Tough people do. Hang in there, you can do this.
Oh yeah - and a {{hug}}
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Thanks for the message-- yeah, I'm definitely trying to deal with the food the best that I can.
I didn't make it to the gym this morning like I'd wanted to... in fact, I didn't set an alarm clock and ended up sleeping over two hours later than I'd planned on. I guess I needed it the extra rest!
Thanks for the support and the hugs!
