rough week...

I have had a rough week! I feel like I am not adjusting to my sleeve like I should be. Today was really rough, I threw up 2 times and I have real nausia for the first time. I got on the scale today again and it went up another pound. I am going through feelings of doubt, like I don't know what I did to myself.  I just feel really down today. I've been crying and feeling very anxious all day. Those feelings usually would have led me to a day of indulging in food, ordering chinese or pizza, but those things are not my friends anymore. Food is not there to comfort me anymore and that makes me sad. I have to deal with all my problems head on now and that is alot! It's all falling on me today like a ton of bricks!  

I know how you feel and I am going though a similar situation. I am so frustrated and even questioning myself if this was the right choice. I lost 30pounds in 3 weeks but this is not the way I want to loose them. I am dehydrated, no energy, and can't do anything. I have been thinking abut food too which was my confort food and I can't even have it. I have spoken to many people that have gone though the same situation and they have overcome it so I am hopefully it will pass soon enough.

Keep up and try to go back to liquids if you are not holding of the food and throwing up, that means the pouch is irritated and needs a break.

Take care and let me know how you feel!!!!
Diana

 Thank you Diana! I hope its a faze that passes like you said, and I hope I can learn to work with my sleeve a little better soon so I can see better results. I hope you find some relief as well. I will let you know if things get better. Thanks again!  

I am so sorry, hang in there. I am pre-op, having surgery monday and I understand what you mean about your friends. Mine are all gone too and I had a melt down today. Crying and very emotional, sheesh. But I think I got it all out and feel better. Talked to my hubby, and what I was feeling was dead on. He is not really onboard about this surgery. He supports me 100% but he is worried about surgery and afterwards. I told him he does not understand how I feel and he acknowledged that he doesn't. He's terrific and will be there for me I know. Good you came to the board to vent. It's the right place I am here obsessively!
Hang in there maybe call your doctor on monday and ask for some help and advice. I am sure there may be some sleevers out there who can help too.
How long has it been since you got your sleeve? Maybe you need to back up a step on your food. I know I am not experienced as yet, just trying to help. I feel your pain. Hang in there, it will get better.

I'm sorry your going through this. I have had nausea everyday since my surgery I take Zofran during the day and phenagren night time this has really helped. I haven't been able to get much protein in less than 5-10 grams a day. The doctor has been ok with that as long as I get my water in. That changes this week. Although I've moved to mushy I still am having issues with proteins my body isn't ready I guess because I get ill afterwards. I will likely have a PICC line to get my protein. Bottom-line you will get through this and you will have some bumps along the way. I am still very happy about my decision and already feel the difference in my joints. I've lost 3 10lb bags if sugar. That helps me get through it. Another thing as you introduce foods keep a journal what was your friend before surgery may not be your friend after surgery. At least that is what I found. Strangely enough I can eat part of an egg on 1 day and it make mw sick the 2nd day lol.

It gets better.

I hear you, I had a bit of freak out this AM too about my 4lb weight gain, I am three weeks post op. I was sleeved on 9/12...today I am missing out on two dinner/drinking parties at restaurants because I cant even drink a 1/4 cup of water without feeling like I just rolled out of a buffet. Nobody knows that I have been sleeved , so life is a *****allenging for me too. I threw up once so far and it was because I drank immediatly after eating 1/8 cup of cottage cheese....eeeewww.  I lay in bed at night wondering what the heck I have done sometimes, but to be honest I feel better than I ever did before I was sleeved - so that makes me hopeful. I was told by post-opers 6 months out and more that all of this is normal and our bodies are trying to adjust to the change - when I watch you tube videos of other sleevers - it makes me realize the best is yet to come. We can do it!!!I hope you start to feel better soon, my Dr. says crying and be anxious is all part of the grieving process of letting go of our weight and changing our realtionship with food. I hope it helps to know there is someone else out here that knows what it is you are feeling too. Thank you for sharing your journey!

I heard from a lot of people that the first month was the worst in terms of feeling frustrated and depressed and questioning the decision. I can't say it was that way for me, but I will say that it is time to keep focused and try not to let the changes overwhelm. I know that every day for that first month I felt a bit better. 

I was like this too during my first stall/ body adjustment period. It's depressing and hard but keep doing what your doing and it will pass and things get better!! Keep up the good work!!

 Thank you so much to all for your support! Like many of you, I decided to keep my surgery a secret and am only sharing with my immediate family and few friends. So dinner parties and such are all off the calendar for me for now too. I dare not sit at a dinner table with a hater/non-supporter asking me why I am only having a $3 soup or mashed potatoes off the menu, or worse have one of them think that I have spiralled out of control and become anorexic. I am also self employed so I am constantly alone with my thoughts which makes me more anxious sometimes! lol!
    
   It is wonderfull to know that what I am going through is normal. Knowing that other sleevers are going through it is definitely a relief! Today I woke up a little more positive, for breakfast I had a soft boiled egg, cofee, 1 slice of toast, and cottage cheese.... ATE only half the egg, 1/4 toast, ended up scraping cheeses off toast and I will be either heating up my coffe or making it iced later! I felt a little less guilty about leaving so much food on the plate and I know that I have to get better at visually looking at a plate with little food on it! I really have to get the swing of this diet a lil better...LOT better! Bread is not going to work for me, (plus I read my diet wrong I actually cannot have it for another week) but it makes me nausious! I am concentrating on water and taking care of my constipation(Dr. told me I can take any laxitives ). I'm sure it will be a better day! ;0)