It never ceases to amaze me how little I can eat!
I do not understand it either but i was given a convent school education so maybe it is all the starving children in Africa I'm trying to take care o,f although why they feel less hungry because I'm stuffing my fat little face i don't know. I say your post today and it reminded me of a post i posted last night on the slow losers board. I cooked something so incredibly Delicious last night, so amazing that i put off eating it until i was sure i did not have one little iota in my sleeve. so i put a little on a plate, more than usual? Sure but it was so delicious and when i couldn't eat but half...wait for it...I started to cry. Big hot, fat ******g tears. No i know I'm a ******g nightmare but crying because you can't fit in more food? Yeah, one of those moments. Please don't anyone suggest i see a psychologist, or I'll virtually punch you..
I bet everybody has those moments occasionally. I had a tough day a couple of weeks ago - kids acting up, husband grumpy, bad day at work, yada yada yada. I wanted a hamburger, fries and a big coke so badly that I started tearing up. Instead, I got a junior frozen yogurt (sugar free) and went for a run later that night. In a previous life I probably would have sucked down a bag of oreos.
I am only 6 days out and on full liquids, but I COMPLETELY understand this. It is a definite head trip. I keep wasting things. Not on purpose, but I am so used to being able to eat 1 or 2..ok lets face it a box of jello cups and now when I get one, I waste over half of it! (yes, I know..I need to measure EVERYTHING, but I am trying to get in the habit!) I keep watching food commercials and thinking how I would love to just chow down on whatever it is...and then I stop to think that I am so satisfied, I don't want one bite of ANYTHING. Even a popsicle. I can't eat a whole popsicle! It's crazy!
VSG on 01/19/12
I just want to thank all of you for this amazing post! This is the best post I have seen since joining! You really spoke to my thoughts and feelings exactly!!!! Sometimes I am pissed off that I can't eat more than 2 bites and I think "**** what did I do to myself"? It helps to hear I am not the only one who thinks this way! and BTW, I AM in therapy!!!!