OMG!!! I AM REALLY DOING THIS?!?!?!?!?

I am really, really, really, scared.  LOL  It just hit me that in less than a month I am going to have a big portion of my stomach remove.  A BIG PORTION MY STOMACH REMOVE! 

I know irrational fears.  I have research this surgery to DEATH i know the risk, i know the benefit, I know what i have to do to make it work for me but i am still scared.

I think mostly if the fear of the unknown.  What is going to happen? how am I going to feel after? I am going to have to change my entire relationship with food.  Shoot! I am hispanic, our lives revolves around food.  If a baby is born, we eat.  If you sad, we eat, if you happy, we eat., if somone dies, we eat.  Shoot, my grandmother was known to give me a plate food as I walk into her house and my mother always told me to clean my plate, "there are starving children in Africa that would love to eat your food right now". 

I have butterflies in my stomach now just thinking about it.  For those that have the surgery, how do you deal with those irrational fears?  How do you shut up the "fat girl" telling you that you are CRAZY for doing this?

I know exactly how you feel. Before my surgery I had never been admitted to a hospital except for having my son. So I was VERY nervous! But once I was there and done it was totally different!! The nice part is you have nurses on call for you 24 hours a day! There's nothing better than that!! You will be around people who are caring for you. I was only afraid right after because I threw up from the anasthesia but they pumped me full of meds and I was TOTALLY fine after that. Barely took my medicine after that. Not everyone's journey is the same, but whatever journey you are on, know there are people to support you. At home, in the hospital and on here!!

I hope this helps! I was VERY unsure before I did it. Then I just got into the planning mode and everything fell into place!!

Good luck!!

 Same thoughts running  through my head - made the decision once - got the LapBand and now since it didn't work - going to have the sleeve.  I'm trying to look at this as a necessary medical procedure - something that must be done in order for me to live a healthy, hopefully longer, more fun filled life.  Still makes me nervous but gives me a better way to look at it.

Good luck.

It is okay to scared. I think for me it was the anesthesia part vs. the surgery part.

As for the fat girl she is still here and my therapist helps me with her . She isn't always there but she lurks and tries to get you to want things you shouldn't when I was pre-op and on liquids.

Luckily now I am 23 days out and she is in a coma at the moment, but when she does wake up I will beat her into submission. I made a choice for my health not to let my fat girl get the best of me as she has had so much of my life for so long and I have a lot I want to do.

So now I have a second chance to do right by this body. 

We are here if you need a shoulder:)

I'm in the same boat I'm scheduled for 6/27 and since I've decided on the surgery my blood pressure has been high and the meds are not even working. I've never had high blood pressure b4 and my blood pressure has not been normal since I started this whole process... So even though i have a surgery date... It might be moved back again if i cant get the blood pressure stable ...But u have to hang in there

Thank you for your imagry of the "fat girl inside". I am totally scared too. Never been admitted and scheduled my date yesterday. Instead of scheduling months out, I choose Memorial Day.

I worry about my fatty since I have been overweight always and morbidly obese since high school. I don't know what I will look like thin and if I can kill the fatty (as I now call her. Not a term of endearment, rather an insult).

BEAT HER INTO SUBMISSION

Angel, I understand how you feel.  I am planning to have VSG as well and have the same anxiety.  My folks are West Indians and we enjoy cooking a feast when we visit.  I would definately stick with the plan to reach goal.  Then I would feel more control having a taste of those meals.  As long as you exercise control, I don't see why your family's cooking would be off limit forever.  I also think you will we so estatic about your weightloss that food will no longer be the focus of good times with your family.  Good luck.
-jwini

 I was scared to death too, but now I am sooooo thankful for my sleeve!  16 days out and feeling awesome!  My only regret is not doing it sooner!

@ angel1974 I'm also having my sleeve done on June 4th . I'm also so scared but my excitement is much bigger i'm sure will be fine.Cant wait to hear how it all goes for you.

OMG, you just took the words right out of my mind.  I feel the same way and my surgery is tomorrow morning.  I feel excited and nervous at the same time.  But I just keep in mind the out come is the payoff.  To be able to ride rollercosters, to play in the park with my daughter, to be around and live longer, not living to eat, just being able to do all of thoes things and more, hell just thinking about my new wardrobe is enough to send me through the roof.  I two closets now, my fat clothes and my cute clothes that I got too damn big for.  I can't wait to get rid of both of those clothes of clothes because that will mean that I am even sleeker than ever.  Just picture the pay off, I know I am. :)