Old Habits Creeping In (long, sorry)

*squeeze*MahShell.

Hey girliegirl, I am proud on you for noticing things that might be hard to cop to.

For me, the point would NOT be that it was "one piece of bread" but that it was an *old familiar behavior that I was blowing off and making justifications/rationalizations for*

Right? Justification/rationalization/masturbation, same same. 

For me, mindless noshing IS a behavior I do NOT care to  flirt with, romance, or nourish.  I set myself up for success by having A DAY a month where I have a MEAL that is an anything goes MEAL.  I tend to have it NOT AT HOME so that the foods that I dont need to let become a part of my every day life arent foods that I am used to eating at home.

Does that make sense?  Maybe some things are "never" things, maybe some things are "sometimes" things,  you  get to make that call, and me?  I base that call on my BEHAVIOR, not if its "only" and "I havent for so long"  you know? 

http://books.google.com/books?id=Nl2bfrlGW4AC&lpg=PR1&ots=Fr kuEEWBTi&dq=%22thin%20commandments%22&pg=PR4#v=onepage&q&f=f alse

is where I learned my "boxing in" and "boxing out" structure, at the risk of being redundant.

*muwah*

I know some folks come back and they are MIR A KUL CURED!!!11!!  from their before patterns and that really rocks, but for some of us, its a new skill we need to practice.  And sometimes, we need continuing credits :}

be sweet to you, not indulgent - but GOOD!

 

Damn I love it when you post.

Here's the thing - skinny people think the same damn way. The difference is they don't have the head **** going on. How come I can walk away from alcohol after one drink (actually I don't drink at all, but work with me here)? Because I don't have the head **** going on that alcoholics have.

By head **** I mean that inner voice that talks you into stuff you know you ought not to do.
*It's my birthday.* *One piece of candy won't hurt* *one M&M doesn't even count as a food*

You know what I mean. With drinking I don't have that inner voice. I just don't drink because it doesn't really appeal to me. I drank plenty in college just to make sure. :-) I don't have the emotional attachment.

I wonder if some of it is how close you are to goal. Are you possibly sabbotaging yourself?

Allow yourself to have this victory. Let go of the old crap. It's okay to be afraid, but don't let the fear win.

Get some tunnel-vision, hunker down and find out how awesome it feels to get to goal.

*hugs* I know how you feel and it isn't easy.

 Now I'm crying...you guys get it! 

I'm at a loss for words, so just let me say: Thank you from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU!

Chin up lilla camper.  We live,  we learn. Erasing 40 *for me* years of inappropriate habituation with food was not going to happen in 6 months, 8 months, goal, size X, or whatever. 

Keep your heart teachable and your beginners mind and just be a good friend to you.  Watch how you react to things and set yourself for success *when you can.*

Sometimes we just need to  roll with the punches, some days are **** and then they mostly get better, but for some of us?  Bootcamp until goal is one thing - about calorie and nutrient macros n setch, but learning to rehabituate?  that is NOT about calories or one piece of something or how much exercise you can do to "work it off", or how much you flog yourself.

For me, the most *challenging* and WONDERFUL thing for me has been my promise to  myself that when I freak out - I do not start a binge/restrict/over exercise cycle - this was for my health, this was for my sanity. Learn all I can, change what I can,  let some **** go. 

Just another day in paradise, baby. :}

 thank you Brandilynn!

I'm also going to look for that book!
:)

Of course WE get it!!

Dry those eyes...or yet crying is theraputic...

My therapist practices tele-psychology via Skype out of Florida. The sessions are exactly like sessions I've had with other therapists, just online. Living in Europe at the moment, my choices of fluent English speaking therapists sensititve to cultural specificities of an American client are surprisingly limited! She's great for me. Even if I moved back to the States, I'd keep using her. She also happens to specialize in eating disorders, and has written a book on the subject. Feel free to send me a PM if you'd like her info.

Best of luck!
Somayeh

This is me. To the T.
Except I'm at 8 months. 13 lbs from goal. And now I start picking up those old habits and scaring myself again. I don't have words of wisdom, other than I know what that feels like.
Robyn