Damn, damn and double damn....I am not ok and I need to face it....*long*

Courtney,

Nothing to offer that has not already been eloquently said.  Just hugs.

Thank you!

Courtney -- I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you and praying for strength and wisdom for you as you face these struggles.  You are surrounded here by friends who support you and want to help you succeed -- and who have confidence that you will.

Take care!

I wish I could put into words how much these posts have helped me, just to know someone out there is thinking about me in a positive way, it's kind of mind blowing really to know that so many awesome people are here to help me and support me. It means more to me then you guys will ever know.

I hit bottom a few months ago, without even realizing it, even when I was in therapy. I'm finally on meds (first time in my life). I know some of what you are going through. My childhood was craptastic ((HUGS))

Just know that we "get it" and I love you and support you. Do what you need to do for yourself. xoxo

Love ya! Just seeing your pretty face on the thread makes my day better, and I mean that! Knowing that there are people out there who understand after all these years of feeling like a freak who was totally alone, it's freeing in a weird way.

I get that. Totally. Sometimes it's nice to feel... understood. I don't think we ever fully heal from our childhoods, it's a constant process. I know I make small steps forward and then a few backwards and forwards, but the overall movement is forward... that's all we can do. Love ya, girl. You aren't alone. Not by a #$@$% longshot.

*hugs*

I have a unicorn farting rainbows picture ready to post. Just let me know when you are ready for it (always makes me laugh when you post that pic).

Unlike you, I did the things you are only thinking about doing before I got married. Got it all out of my system. No regrets.

Just know that, for me, living with those poor choices still threatens to take me to my knees with the pain of embarrassment for my poor actions and choices. I wouldn't wish that on anyone.

I hope you find your peace again.

HAHA, I am ALWAYS ready for that post, it literally makes me crack up every.single.time I see it, no matter what kind of mood I am in. I really think I need to have a t-shirt made with that picture on it! LOL Thank you for being there for me, and bringing a smile to my face.

First of all, BIG HUGS!! I am so sorry that you are reliving these horrid things that happened to you in the past. You are so strong to even put this in to words. You know what the demons are and know how to put them to rest if you have done it in the past. Be strong and don't give in to it. It will just make matters worse. Everyday that you have victory will make you stronger. Look in the mirror and talk to that little girl and woman inside you and tell them how worthy you really are. Say it out loud!!

Not like yours, but I too had a really rough childhood that make me doubt my self worth. It is a daily struggle that I deal with.

My heart goes out to you and my prayers are with you!