HOLY S@&T!!! STALL BROKEN AFTER 5 MONTHS!!!!!!!

Well the tag line says it all!!!

MY SCALE FINALLY MOVED!! 1# but it MOVED!!!!

I finally realized what I was doing wrong and how much I was fooling myself 

thanks to Elina responding these words to me in a previous Whiney post..

" With all respect, you can't  tell me you are only eating 450-650 calories a day and not losing weight" 

(para phrasing) at the time I read it I was like..I AM!!! I AM!!!

but I came to realize just last week that yes,  IDIOT you are being super on point Monday -Friday

( sometimes Monday-Thursday)

but your weekends are going to ****!!

And not just 1 meal on the weekend..almost all meals....

then I looked at my weekend # and added them to the 440-650 during the week

and you know what???

The AVERAGE for the whole week as a singular was running 1200-1400 a Day!!!!!

WHAT AN IDIOT I AM!! 

I honestly thought I was doing the right thing until the stupor broke!!!

I did put myself into maintence by my own STUPIDITY...

HAVE I SAID....IM STUPID, ENOUGH!!!

this forum for me is about my truth, I always said I'd post truthfully

and have a running stream of conscience here..

and to tell the truth, I thought of not posting this...I'm SOOO EMBARRASSED!!!

but when you know better you do better...and I HAVE to be honest with you..

because it makes me HONEST....I went back to my old head in the sand ways and didn't even realize it!!

I'm glad I caught it so soon, not recognizing the weekend eating as the trouble that was in my way..

on an other note...

Saw my Dr and NUT for my 1 year..

Dr. Say I should be done now I'm at 95% EWL I have 2.5 lbs to go to get to 100%....

guess where I'm going...HELL YEA!!! 100% and BEYOND!!!! 

Although I'm very, very happy here at 140..

My ticker says 130, going to try for it!! May not like it...

I'm boney now, but I gotta see it first!!

also my body fat % is at 25%

the NUT says I'm in the acceptable range and just skimming at the "athletic" range...

ME!! ATHLETIC RANGE..NEVER IN MY WILDEST DREAMS,

would I think of me and athletic in the same breath!!!

HAPPY WEEKEND MY O.H PEEPS!!!

and thanks again Elina your concern and strait shooting

really made me open my eyes and see...really SEE what I was doing...

you, Frisco, Devon, Nikke, Keith and SOOO many others have helped me, more than you'll ever 

realize!!!

I am so glad you "heard" the part about "with all due respect" because I really mean that.  I am not in any way judging you and I DO NOT THINK THAT YOU ARE STUPID.  It's really important to me that you hear me on this.  You are human and we tend to want to put our head in the sand and not "see".  I am here everyday because I realize fully how true this is for ME.  Calling you out in a gentle way is my way of caring about you and hoping that you get to choose where this journey takes you.  I am actually incredibly proud and honored to have played even a tiny part in your journey because you are a screaming success story.  Even this, the fact that you are willing to take responsibility and see the truth now, is so much more than most people are willing to do.  I am always here for you, always, even if I move on from here, I will gladly give you my email and you can always find me.  People like you, and you in particular, make it possible for me to maintain and keep "remembering" my truth.  Remembering is what makes vigilance possible and that is the only thing that leads to real maintenance for me.  So you see, we are really in this together because I need you and you need me and it's going to keep being this way for the rest of our lives.  Hugs my friend.  I know that you have this now. 

I heard and felt the respect the second I read it..

here more than anywhere else in my life is the place where I don't feel judged..

we are vey much "in it together"

from reading your posts this past year, I find you to be a gentle heart and 

truly concerned for the people here,

sometimes you say things bluntly, because they need to be said

and that's OK..I feel if you want someone to coddle you,

maybe you shouldn't post here, because here you will get the truth..

I am so scared sometimes that I will fail...maybe not now, maybe not 5 yrs from now..

but eventually and epically! 

so I'm trying to stay present and aware, a lifetime of mindless eating is a hard habit to break.

{{{ HUGS}}}} right back at ya!!

Yay Grace!  I find I learn everyday.  I have taken Devon's take down to heart- because it is the same- I am very close and will conquer those last three lbs.  We'll see then if I need to do go down more.  I will earnestly try to maintain my weight.  I say try because I also see the vets posts and take them to heart.  I would like to promise  never to have a regain but know it is not practical.  I can promise to come here and be honest.  That's all we have for ourselves.

Nancy

PS- Never be afraid or ashamed to tell your truths here.  

WE CAN DO IT NANCY!!

these last lbs ain't got nothin on us!!!

i find this forum to be so enlightening..if you just listen and are truthful with yourself!

as a matter of fact at my first consult my Dr recommended this site

saying, they can answer more questions better than I can, read it often!

he's a great man!

Wooohoooo, Grace!   I'm coming to the same realization myself, not that I've been taking holidays from eating right on the weekends but that I've let maintaining become the norm when I actually WANT to lose more weight.  I didn't like stepping on the scale at the doctor's office today and seeing a 2 lb. gain from 6 months ago.  Seriously?  In 6 months these last 7-8 lbs. should have been my B*&TCH!  

Let's both get back on track and get to where we want to be - love ya! 

I remember posting in Dec. the last time I had a weight loss..

only 11 more pounds woo-HOO and all that, and stating if it takes me to my year to get it off ,

I'm OK with that it's fine, often over the course of these 5 months

I thought I brought bad ju-ju on myself by thinking so ****y..

My problem ( well one of them!!) 

is that I was in the house all winter, it's still cold here..

and boredom for me is a bad..bad thing

another was getting back into my life, the kids want to go out for 

breakfast, dinner something and although I ordered well most of the times

Its not my food..if I didn't want eggs yet again, I'd order the pancakes thinking, 

I'm good M-F, this is fine...it's all such a head trip! 

See, it's exactly stuff like this that gives me hope--where I see others facing hard truths instead of denying them. You are awesome--you GO for these last few pounds!

I love posts like this because we often "forget" and it can be so easy to bury our head and think M-F counts more then Sat/Sun...it does but ONLY if we are trying to maintain!!

Ms Shell

YES!! 

Im so self aware right now at this very moment..

I'm hoping to God that I don't lose it!!