All I can do is cry today

I haven't told many people, but I am real big down in the pubis area, and they said with surgery, and plastic surgery, I will be normal size again.  Everything I try on doesn't fit cause of this.  I just tried on a new swimsuit cause old one was too big in shoulders and stomach, but the new one didn't fit due to pubis area.  I wish I would have just not had the surgery and died.  Sorry, but that is the way I feel.  I have even lost more friends due to this.

Dee, here's a huge HUG to ya...I wish you didn't feel this way.  Please, look at the big picture, you're getting there! Dede

Peaches, I am preop but from reading your post it sounds like you need to talk with someone.  From reading other posts it sounds like you could be having some depression issues post op and you are only 6-7 weeks out it looks like and many people on here at that point I have noticed have dealt with these feelings.  It seems most look back and remember feeling this way at this point but do actually feel great later on about having the surgery.  Things will work out, but if you really feel this sad right now you should talk with someone. *big hugs*

Dee, You know you don't mean that you wish you had died...Please give things time. I had surgery almost 7 years ago and did not have any plastics. I live in Florida and to this day feel that I can not wear shorts because I am ashamed of the way my legs look, BUT I have gained so much more then wearing shorts! I can cross my legs, ride the rides at Disney, sit comfortably on a plane etc. Surgery does not make us perfect, just healthier and once I figured that out in my head I was much happier. I know it is hard when you feel so low but cheer up! I am sure if you think about it dieing would not be better then the issues you are having. Big Hug To  You!! I hope you feel better soon.

Peaches I am sending you a big hug accross the state line to you. As I have written to you before you are one of my role models. I have been following your story since before your surgery. I am so sorry you are feeling down today. Please don't give up.

Peaches, Just remember there are people on this board who are reading our posts who will never have surgery and will die from the complications from obesity.  You have been given a gift of life, use it to its full advantage, I know its hard to see things on your body you don't want to see, but we all have our own deamons in the mirror.  Good health and life are worth it. Head up girl!! Hugs Heidi

Awww Peaches.....hang in there hon.  It WILL get better!  You just got started girl and good things await you.  I just know it! *Big hug to you and a shoulder to lean on whenever you need it. *  Cheryl

Peaches...can you wear a swim skirt or swim shorts with it until you have the follow up surgeries? It's very upsetting to me that due to my lipdema I am extremly unproportional. I am like a 14 on top but a 24/26 on the bottom. ...but my arms and hernia interfere with a lot of my clothing choices too. Like today I have on a 22/24 sweater shrug because my arms wouldn't fit into a 14/16 or 18/20...next week when I go home to Ohio I'll be wearing all my bigger 22/24 sweaters to accomadate my arms...can't go sleeveless when there's a chance of snow!!!!

Dee, here is a big (((hug))) for you. Please, please do not get discouraged yet. You are going to go through so many changes to the shape of your body as you continue losing the weight, it is impossible to see where you will actually land shapewise. I do not know what type of insurance you have, but you may want to start documenting, i.e. pictures, any hygeine problems that you may experience due to extra skin as you go along. This could be rashes, sores, infections, etc. Nothing is too small. These pictures will come in handy for your doctor to have in trying to get any future plastic surgery that is medically necessary approved by your insurance. These will help in showing that it is not cosmetic, but medically needed.  As far as friends are concerned, you will probably start to see changes in these friendships as they were formed while you were heavy, and some relationships may not be what you thought they were. Lord knows that I have cast aside a few "friends" that did not like the new me which was a more assertive, confident me. I had quite a few relationships change with certain people because they were used to the old "walk all over" me personality I use to have. A true friend will stay by your side and encourage you and celebrate the changes you will be going through. Just continue posting to OH and get the support you need. Many of us have different experiences with our weight loss and can help you. :-)

Peaches,  Well your secret is mine too, the only person who knows is my hubby (of course). It's not an area I would have ever thought of gaining weight in, but it is really sad and I have to wonder if it loses weight too. I am still preop, but I know you don't really mean what you said. You're just frustrated right now.  I'm sure it's normal. We can't expect it all to happen at once unfortunately. It's a long process of different stages, just one more of the issues people who think it's the "easy way out" don't take into consideration. We have to go through a lot.  Are you on any antidepressants to help with bad feelings?  Please hang in there, it will get better.  I'm here if you want a shoulder! I will keep you in my prayers and are sending a great big HUG!!!!   God bless your journey,   Becky