I am very sorry.

Hey Girlfriend, I'm sorry this surgery is tough on you. It does get better, trust me. As for yesterday, ahhhhh stuff. I wasn't mad, I just took into consideration what you had just gone though. I love you girlfriend! MOM

Hi Mom, It doesnt matter what I went through I had no right to hurt peoples feelings, yup I have my way of doing things but god knows its not the right way, so why subject the board to it.  I really do feel bad, I love the people here and knowing I hurt them really does hurt me. Love you  Hugs Heidi

I Know what you're saying. But we all love you and it WILL be ok girlfriend. It was just the atmospheric conditions making everyone crazy yesterday. Love you

MOM

Sometimes I think people are grumpy because they are humgry.

Heidi, We love ya. I enjoy reading your posts. I hope you get out of pain real soon. I would never be that brave to go thru that. Take care of yourself. How is your son doing? Claudia

HI Claudia, My son is coming up to see me today, I couldnt let him see me with the drains in my face I didnt want to upset him.  I am puff but look more normal today although my poor neck is pretty tight and sore.  I got a bunch of sweet messages from my son while I was in surgery, I was so thrilled when I woke up and listened to my cell phone, he really is the love of my life. Hugs Heidi

Heidi, I am glad you are seeing him today. That might make you feel better. Take care and take it easy. Claudia

Heidi, I'm so sorry about your pain.  I read one of your previous posts about the strangling issue when you were younger.  This must be so painful for you right now.  My guts may be falling out, but I can still eat just fine and I don't feel like I'm being choked to death...  I hope you feel better soon, and complain away... that's what this site is for! Speaking for myself, I didn't sign up for the xmas card thing or get involved in the posts.  I just figured the membership in OH must be 100,000 plus and it was going to get out of hand. Marianne

Marianne, My swelling is gonna go away you have to suffer daily, you definately have my sympathy I cant even begin to imagine where you get your strength from.  I hope you can get the surgery you need to get all this corrected, it just sounds like spaghetti in there that they have to unravel.  I wish I could do something to help you, I hate to see people suffer. Hugs Heidi

I'd like to think of it more like untangeling christmas lights.  Sometimes you just have to throw the strand away.   Uh-oh.. can't do that, can I? Marianne  :)