I am very sorry.

Marianne, They can do miracles today and you will be our Christmas miracle, forget cards, we want you back in good health, thats all I want for Christmas, to see you posting that you are well and your health improving. Hugs Heidi

Marrieanne (love the name so pretty and girlie LOL) anyway I just wanted you to know I am praying for you. sorry i hijacked the post heidi but I didnt figure you would care and I'm praying for you also

I am sure it will be alright!  This board seems to freak every once in a while. Feel better soon.  What about asking your doctor for liquid Loratab.  That is what I had after RNY and it worked like a charm.

 Oh im hurt hurt hurt how shall I ever forgive you  Let me think about it Ok yous forgiven  LOL Just kidding But seriously now  Is it just me or we all human (well you are the queen of boots i'll have to think about that one LOL) anyone who says that they have a moment every now and then when outta the blue we say something  or do something total well i dont know for instant selfish, mean, hateful, prideful, and the list could go on forever well they would be fibbing we all go through those times. Im not saying thats what you didI read your post about the troubles you have and can see your point and I wanted to let you know that I was one that dropped out of the list for money reasons. me and sweetdreams were going to do it togeather she lives with me and my DH she my goddaughter well call me nieave but i totally never dreamed it would grow to ove 200 people man theres alot of love going on for so many to want to do that. But like I explained to the main lady doing the list all 3 of us are on diability and when we pay bills we have a total together of about maybe 100 to 150 left for which we buy food and gas and personal items with I was gonna use the money I got when I rewrote a load to get the cards but it just got so big I would have to leave someone  in my church out and I just couldnt do it I could not get a small gift or card for someone in my church and not someone else I could never hurt someone that way. I do apolizie I never dreamed anyone would care if I was in the list or not to tell the truth. But like you said there is always someone worse I have a broken down still owe on trailor some don't even have a apartment I have my bills paid each month some are being stalked by bill colletor I have an awesome supportive family that makes sure we have food and clothes some have no one. So dont beat yourself up anyone who loves shoes so much cant be all that bad. To me theres just nothing to forgive your human and in the bible it says    Luke 6:27 But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Im sorry this is so long and you feel we hate you I would never hate anyone specially not my heidi who I got to meet in person

Sweet Heidi, it's nice of you to write this, but I read your posts and you really weren't  grouchy.  You were just passionate.  On a bad you express yourself better than most people do on a good day.  I hope you feel better real soon After this getting your teeth fixed will be a piece of cake.  I hope you do it soon.  You deserve that too.  Loris

Heidi,  I for one am so glad that yesterday is over!  For being such a wonderful support group that I know we are... I notice that every once in a while we go nuts.  Yesterday must have been the day for it.  The good far outweighs the bad here.  And forgiveness is what its all about.  You are a good person and we love ya.  Hope you feel better today.  Hugs,  Kim

hi heidi,  i was just reading this and i don't know what you said to upset some of us, (i probably didn't read it) but i just read your profile.  WOW.  It really moved me.  the music was touching too.  i just want to tell you that YOUR GEORGEOUS.  you look like a  teenager (with your son, right).  i like your hair better dark though.  i havent had surgery yet, but looking at your profile, i can't wait!!!!   God Bless

Hi my friend.  I guess I need to catch up on the board here.  I have not read your post yet, but will find it.  I just wanted to let you know that I love you no matter what.  We sometimes say things in the heat of the moment that we don't mean. don't fret! Bambi

I think you are a very kind, sensitive, loving, caring person. You were just looking out for everyone. I was the kid that was always picked last (even less than last, because the team that got stuck with me was so upset) I don't have much memory about cards, but it's probably safe for me to assume that I didn't get many! Personally, I send no cards to anyone, for any holiday except birthdays and mother/father's day. I'm just not organized enough. I'm terrible with thank you notes--always sending them too late--but I'm getting much better at that since I need to set an example for and teach my kids. I have a habit of buying people birthday cards, then forgetting to mail them. It all just gives me too much stress.  So, my policy is that I just don't send cards because I'll feel bad if I try to do it but don't send to everyone, or-worse, if I buy them and then forget to send them. What I do instead, is try to be kind to my friend and family during non-holiday times. I try to send cards or notes for no reason or holiday, during a non-stressful (aka non-holiday) time. I also buy little gifts for people and give them all year, because I can't deal with the buying/wrapping/ seeing everyone/overspending/exchanging gifts and colds time of year. If I see something all year, I just buy it and give it right away. I say --here's your (insert holiday) present now. I do have holiday presents for my kids and husband. This takes a lot of pressure off of me and no one ever seems to be bothered by it. So, sorry, no holiday cards from me this year, but you may get a card in July!

YOU, have nothing to be sorry for... And when you feel better just think about the hot babe you are going to be... hang it there