Why Did You Bother?

I love you MM..... You have your fingers on the pulse of the problem.

I never did get the whole guilt thing.

 I never will.

Ever.

Thank you.

Good for you MM.   Yes I lost weight, yes I gained it back.   I've been dx'd with fibromyalgia and graves disease since my surgery.

The medications they've tried, changed, tried again have caused weight gain.  I gave up the med that helps me the most because of my fear of gaining all my weight back.  So I spend day after day in constant pain, some days being able to walk, and some days not being able to walk.

The graves disease is being treated to LOWER my thyroid production, thus my metabolism.   If ever there was hell on earth, it's having an overactive thyroid AND a fat ass at the same time.

The whole thing is depressing as hell, as my 5 day hospital stay was 72,000.  Ins co would only pay 10,000.

MLH, I applaud you for having the strength of will and desire to maintain your lower weight.   I applaud all of those that have succeeded to whatever degree they wanted to.

Me, I'd celebrate a day and night without constant pain and fatigue.  I'd celebrate not having to walk with my cane.  I'd celebrate not having to park in handicapped parking because of my continuing issues with COPD. 

Have a great day, someone, please!

Tink

 How much guilt must you carry around -- ZERO --  please.

*sigh*

Very well said!!!

this is a deeply personal journey for each of us and i think we all have individual definitions of failure and success. me, i dont measure success strictly by numbers whether that be weight or clothing. yes, there is a range within which i feel comfortable staying but it is not the measure of my happiness.

i also refuse to categorize foods as "good" or "bad". food is food and its external to me, its my relationship with it that i measure, not the food itself. i absolutely understand those *****gain and those *****vise because i ackowledge that potential in myself. there but for the grace of God go i. i empathize with those *****gain and admire the ones *****vise because they continue to fight the good fight.

you are absolutely a success with losing and maintaining weight, but i read alot of self-anger and judgment in your post. to me it sounds like you are a harsh critic of yourself, and in turn others. you are doing what works for you and i would never take that away from you. i wish you joy and peace on your surgiversary.

PS: and you reminded me that to day is my 2 yr anniversary! OMG, i totally forgot until i read this!

My journey is personal to me, and I am a harsh critic of myself, find me one post where I ever called anyone a name or judged what they did or how they did it, good luck with that because I only judge myself.  Religious people believe you are judged by god, I believe that I rule my own life and I judge my own actions, and believe me I fuck up constantly and try to amend my actions.  I am not perfect, nor have I ever pretended to be,  I come here so I can stay successful by not forgetting, my always keeping my feet on the ground by never forgetting where and how I got where I was and never letting myself go back.  My own personal war with my demons.  I mock no one ever, I block people before I say anything bad to them because we all have enough b/s in our lives we hardly have to read it here too.

Your my new hero!!!!!!!

 If you mock no one - why start a thread about WHY other people **** up?