Surgery tomorrow and I am walking away from it

Having the RNY, why my profile doesnt post this I can not figure out, I changed it in my account to show and everything.

I will have to look into polycystic ovarian syndrome, first I heard of it. Cancer runs STRONG on my moms side of the family, so I am a little unnerved. (herself had lung and kidney)
I can not imagine hearing that I am diagnosed with it, AFTER I have the RNY and have to battle trying to get nutrtion in with chemo and with RNY. I have NOT heard back from the doc on the new tests and was supposed to by now, but he did not report to the nurse and has been out of the office for a few days now.

I have had massive amounts of protein for weeks on end. I was supposed to have the surgery mid april, and due to being put off I put in even MORE time with the protein. Its not so much the shake thing, its the calorie intake. My body is suffering from lack of it. Will that truly change?

My advocate is waiting to hear from me by 3 pm for cancellation. She said on their end, I have till the end of the year with the money/classes/time i spent for it to be good. The only problem I would have is having the ins co say yes again, but i have to tell you i have a great one, and it took 4 days for approval twice, for the band and the rny. They believe in this surgery like crazy and do not require the 6 month diet. It was the easiest attempt I have had, I been down this path twice before with other companies and it was devastating. I would not intend to let the surgery go beyond the end of the year.

I am so torn, but still doing the liuqid diet today in case. I am usually someone who is a direct, go getter who sticks to things. This has tested me to no end on EVERY aspect.

My opinion is that you need to make up your own mind.  You will live with the consequences - good or bad.  It is good to hear what others say - to help inform yourself - but then you have to make up your own mind.  I would personally not go through with a major decision if I was on the fence about it - I would put it off until I felt stronger in one direction or another.

I can share with you that for me, hunger post-op is definately different that hunger pre-op.  Pre-op I cried the whole two weeks during my pre-op - from hunger, from nerves probably too, but mostly from hunger and fear about what I had decided that I had to do.  Even through that experience my mind was made up about what I had to do.

Weight loss surgery is a personal choice and nobody can decide for you. As I read your posts today what I hear ringing through is quite a bit of last minute fright, which is understandable, but it almost sounds as if you are looking for justification to not go through with it?
I went through last minute jitters too. At one point I was ready to call it off myself. As the surgical date got closer it felt a bit like jumping out of a perfectly good airplane to me. I mean let's face it, I had a perfectly normal digestive system and I was voluntarily going through a surgery that would alter & remove my stomach irreversibly! I even considered postponing and seeing a therapist to sort things out. But then I just sat down and thought back to all the Doctors visits over the past years for obesity related illness, all the trips in the ambulance to the ER, all the medications, the headaches, loss of vision, loss of mobility, loss of jobs, loss of self pride, and the most recent concerns.. my diagnosis of impending diabetes.
I know I love life and I know that my quality of life, in all aspects, has been diminished by my obesity. I also happen to have a little gift from heaven, a >2 year old baby girl named Emily that I would like to be around for and that means I need at least 20 more years right?
So for me, it was simple. I had to calm down, think about all the bad things I had been through and all the things I had lost due to being obese, and then I remembered how hard I fought to get to this point of being approved for surgery. I took a deep breath and I chose to change my life and stop the grip that food had over me.
The aches and pains and nausea and other symptoms all can be fixed with vitamins & diet adjustments. The obesity cannot. I trust you will do what is right for you. Whether it is to continue tomorrow or to look at doing it another day, it is your choice whether to break this chain. Whether it be now or sometime later, or if at all.

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and I hope it's truly a better day for you... Craig

PS: I have never regretted my decision to follow through with my VSG. I have lost significant weight and I already feel more life force and more energy than I have in many, many years!

My policy is usually "When in doubt leave it out".  This is a big, life changing decision and you should go into it 100% that you can do this.  I am glad you are listening to your gut.  There is no pressure to do it now.  I am sure you will be able to do it later if you so choose.  Hopefully you are able to get healtier and feel more sure about your decision.
You can also use this time to research which surgery may be best for you.  Once you do your research you may find another procedure better for you.

I understand your concerns and can't advise you one way or the other. [edited to remove personal information]

That is amazing you went through all that, thank you for the post. I thank everyone, it means more than you know you guys

With everything considered - glad you are not going through it all.  Better be sure than sorry.
Look into the VSG.  It is a restrictive only procedure, so in case anything happens - you will be able to take any meds, with no malabsorbtion.  That may be critical in your situation.
That surgery - IMO - may allow you the most "normal" life post op. As long as it is done correctly.

Good luck. 

I am not including this to be bashed or start a problem about the negative things about WLS. I am just putting this link to maybe get some input on the reasons that are listed. If you do not want to know or hear about this subject PLEASE DO NOT GO THERE.

Thank you for understanding.

http://suewidemark.netfirms.com/wlswarning.htm

Okay, well took a look at your link. The only thing I will say, double check their information. Google their information, look at the reports they are using as "facts" (in other words find these articles and read them yourself). Then take a look at some REAL medical journal information. I won't say the whole thing is BS but there is enough misleading information in there to send off flairs and red lights like crazy.