Wow wow wow amazing day yesterday!
I have a lot of justification and evidence for my frustration with my sisters, but I realized that it just isn't worth continuing- I was paying too much of a price maintaining my position. And I don't know yet if they will be open to catching up; I suspect not, but I will certainly be open to it if it does occur.
But it frees me up, this forgiveness stuff, and it empowers me, this force called love. I'm loving being with myself more, which is a very good thing.
All of this is deeply connected to my weight issues and eating for comfort from early childhood. I think I'm on the right track with dealing with that. Though I still have the habits to cope with and shift. That is going to require some long term, like the rest of my life, action from me.
Which is why I'm going for the coaching. Katie asked me what my goals are. The most important one: I want to expand my ability to live in grace and wonder.
"What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls the butterfly." Richard Bach
"Support fosters your growth. If you are getting enough of the right support, you will experience a major transformation in yourself. You will discover a sense of empowerment and peace you have never before experienced. You will come to believe you can overcome your challenges and find some joy in this world." Katie Jay
I have discovered forgiving is a process- doesn't happen once and everything is then peachy. It takes work, but does clear the inner space.
The other thing is that family history is so closely intertwined with old tapes and patterns and habits, and I want to free up those stuck patterns I have about eating and food and survival.
That is what motivates me- I don't, don't, don't want to regain!!!
"What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls the butterfly." Richard Bach
"Support fosters your growth. If you are getting enough of the right support, you will experience a major transformation in yourself. You will discover a sense of empowerment and peace you have never before experienced. You will come to believe you can overcome your challenges and find some joy in this world." Katie Jay
I think it is awesome you have found that deep healing. God promises us "peace beyond all understanding." It is experiencing Heaven on Earth and what we all are striving toward.
You have been blessed Anne...you are a blessing Anne!!
I don't know as I'm striving for peace so much as I am growth, which looks like staying thin and alive for me right now.
I've decided that what I'm living into from now into my future is inspired ease with my relationships, starting with me.
"What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls the butterfly." Richard Bach
"Support fosters your growth. If you are getting enough of the right support, you will experience a major transformation in yourself. You will discover a sense of empowerment and peace you have never before experienced. You will come to believe you can overcome your challenges and find some joy in this world." Katie Jay
Mary D.
Pre op: 260 lbs, 5'3"
Goal reached 14 months later: 130 lbs
Regain over next 3.5 years to a high of: 166 lbs
Current weight: 135.8 lbs and heading back to 130 lbs!!
I'm glad you know her!
"What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls the butterfly." Richard Bach
"Support fosters your growth. If you are getting enough of the right support, you will experience a major transformation in yourself. You will discover a sense of empowerment and peace you have never before experienced. You will come to believe you can overcome your challenges and find some joy in this world." Katie Jay


RNY 2/5/07 no regain having implemented lifestyle changes....