Sabotaging Myself??? Why!!!

Sabotaging Myself???

 

Why!!! I remember before the holiday**** I was so focused, so determined to meet my goal for my birthday. I came really close I mean within 1 lb of reaching my goal and then poof all bets were off. Without a word or an action on my part I secretly have sabotaged my hard work and brought myself back up 10lbs. I tell you the food demons that are inside you before surgery are there permanently in your psyche waiting for you to show signs of weakness. That is right they never leave and it is our pledge to fight them for the rest of our days. Yes I am telling you I have gained close to 10 lbs this holiday season and it is nobodies fault but my own. I have completely stopped exercising and began eating everything under the sun not to mention I am being really honest here but I for the first time ever eat and drank at the same time. I am so ashamed of myself and feel it is necessary to admit this to regain the reigns of sanity and get back into focus. I thank you for allowing me the place to vent and refocus.

 

 

Back in Control,

 

BroomHilda

Dont beat yourself up .... look how far you have come..... at least it was 10 and not 100 ....its ok that you fell off the bike now get back up and start peddling again lol i bet you will lose 30 lbs in return for that 10lb gain soo.... dont forget you are human and we ALL make mistakes

I could have written this post myself except putting 20 lbs in place of 10 lbs. I did get to goal - for about an hour and since then have sabotaged myself (well until Dec 27th).

I know EXACTLY how you are feeling -- the food demons inside waiting for you to show signs of weakness. BAM! You are right on and it's EXACTLY what my counsellor described to me when I saw him before Christmas. That "inner self" is just waiting for a crack in our veneer to say "AHA!" and suck us back into the old behaviours. And you're bang on again -- we have to be vigilant and know we are going to have to fight them FOREVER. Unfortunately they live inside us - they are part of us.

You are so not alone. I know you're back on track now - as I am - so good for both of us! Let's keep those demons at bay!

ETA: One more thing my counsellor told me that I thought was pretty darned enlightening. We can spend a lot of time trying to figure out why but really it doesn't matter why. What matters is changing it.

 

I gained 4 lbs over the holidays and have been trying to get back on track. I have 2.8 # to get back to where I was, then 44 more to goal.

I am going to go back to basics - tons of water, very little carbs (they have been my downfall), increase protein. No more wine, no more desserts, no more crackers....

I am thinking about doing the 5 day pouch diet to get me jump-started.

Remember - we are all human and we all got where we were for a reason. With the band, we have a great tool that will make it so much easier for us to get to where we need to be if we only follow the rules (sounds like I am trying to convince myself LOL). So let's all get back to basics!

Krista C - you have long been my inspiration and to see that you have gained and that you admit to it and are not letting it defeat you is inspiration to me again! Thanks for posting!

Thank you Judy and good for you for getting back on track as well! We can do this!

Krista,

Thank you so muh for your post it really meant the world to me to see that even the exercising guru has inner demons. (Just Kidding). Sometimes I feel so alone and like I have noone *****ally understands these torments. So thanks for listening. So I say out with the old and in with the new. New Year, New Me, New Digits New everything. I just went to the salon and chopped off all my hair into a sexy bob that I never had the guts to wear 170lbs ago. I figured what a great way to motivate myself to get into gear and loose this last 40 lbs.


Take Care,

Jessica

Oh my goodness...you've done FABULOUS!!!!  10 lbs will be a cinch for you to lose...just get back on track TODAY!!! 

Hilda

I have to say that reading your post is like looking in the mirror.It is only a theory of mine, but for those of us who started at a very high weight, and lost a great deal of it , quickly-there comes a point where brain and body meet an impass and say "ENOUCH" for now.Again, my theory-be kind to yourself and let things balance out .I have knocked off the Holiday Pounds, and am focusing on maintaining .I may ask for another fill soon (I have only had one and it was a year ago)

I applaund your losses and your honesty for posting on thie board.

I am with ya! I am so close to onederland and for some reason have not been doing as good as I should (I should have stepped it up to make it)......I only gained alomst 2 pounds but the point is it's the thoughts and compulsion to eat and why are they there when I am so close to being something I haven't been in years?

Maybe fear, maybe testing myself....anyway it needs to go away and I need to get back on track.....

I know we can do it, and just remember you are not alone

I'm right there with you too with the 10 lbs .. . I've lost 5 . .. and yesterday was a BAD day for me again . . . so today is back to "one step at a time" and back on board again . . .  at least that is the beauty of this wonderful tool . . . it forgives us and lets us start again!  Don't beat yourself up ... you know you can do this . . . and today is that day to prove it!

Chris