So far so good...sorta

Not perfect, but I just couldn't stand myself if I were too perfect! I started out with a shake, mid-morning about 3/4 of a small apple, lunch was f/f cottage cheese topped with pepperocinis (never have done this before, but was craving pickles), I'm now drinking a sample of tea Nectar and am steaming some asparagus to have on hand in case I get real munchy. Got my Ferrlecit injection, just jabbed myself with B12. Now here comes the squirelly part, which amuses me and I know at least one of you can relate. So I go to my AA meeting, do some Walmart returns, get to the gym, am halfway dressed and discover I forgot my shoes. So I had to come home and there wasn't enough time, or so I tell myself, to work out before seeing the Doc. However, being determined, I vow to go to the gym straight after the Docs. I get to the Doc's; he's on the second floor. I have stairs to the left of me and an elevator to the right. So I push the button and up I go. Down I went, too. Now how ludicrous is that to sweat my guts out and take the lift up one floor! I did park far away though. I had to stop at the store to get some ground beef for Gordo's special request for Shepherd's pie. I'm on my way to the checkers and there's a huge display of Valentine's candy 75% off. That is glutton hell for me. Could have passed it up at full price! So I actually stand there comatose, staring at it for at least a full three minutes or more minutes..don't know, I kinda blacked out. Then I decide, actually make the decision, to buy a bag of peanut M & Ms, because that's almost health food, don't you know. Get to the car, open the package and eat a handful, AFTER checking the caloric content (not like yesterday's cookies) 200 calories. I get to the gym, do my regular workout, then add 50 crunches for the elevator and half an hour, 200 calories, on the bike for a full hour total. I guess I could have just not eaten the M&Ms and taken the stairs. But I'll never be perfect. So I have to balance things out. I DID actually go back to the gym whereas most people would bail. I did park further away although there was a spot right in front of the door. I DID make a conscious decision to eat the peanuts and IMMEDIATELY compensate for them. And man, oh man, those peanuts were good. I didn't chew them; I sucked those babies for all they were worth! No shepherd's pie for me tonight, though. Vicki

You are funny Vicki. I am doing a little better today. I actually got my protein but ate 3 peices of valentine candy. Part of me says eat it up and it will be gone!!! I have vowed to get to the gym 3 times next week. I am putting it off because my house NEEDS help and I will feel even more crazy if I do not address it first. I have bruises because it is so messy I bump into things in the dark. I am going to actually cook a good nutricious dinner on Thursday. I do not cook much these days. My kids are older and involved in so much and hubby travels. I may even wash my car since it is going to be 70 degrees out. But realistically I won't get to it until Friday. I do feel better when I take my vitamins and protein so why do I skip it? Who knows. Just bad old behavior. Self destructive ways. Wishing us both success in the am. Get some sleep. Laurie