I've been MIA...a little bummed and depressed I think..

temporarynicole
on 4/3/10 5:39 am
First let me state that these things Im going to share are how MY body reacts to things and are NO reflection on my surgeon whatsoever. My body has always had a way of not following the rules and bucking the system (for example ovarian cancer at only 19).

I've been MIA because Thursday I was sitting in the car after taking my daughter in to school and look down to find I had blood EVERYWHERE. I didn't hurt. Just looked down and became confused as I was literally JUST SITTING THERE. I freaked out. Called surgeon bawling on the phone and got an appt. I had my SIL drive me up there - and it was just seeping out of my drain hole fairly regular. Just seeping non-stop. They cleaned it up and ultrasounded me to find that the clot that had been under there since surgery - had finally liquified and was ready to come out - this is a GOOD AND NORMAL thing. But still scary as hell.
She had to stick a Q-Tip through the drain hole (didn't hurt but WIGGED me out good). And when she pulled it out - it started GUSHING out all over my hip and crotch. But we got the majority of it out which is GOOD.

Then that evening I got home and my constipation snuck up on me. I had a bowl movement on Monday and really didn't think much of compaction happening that quickly but....it did. I spent all of Thursday afternoon/evening trying desperatly to evacuate. I could feel the firm blockage through my vaginal wall and still couldn't get it out. I tried suppositories and enemas and a gloved finger. There was no helpng it. My body was constantly trying to push even when I didn't want to. I spent the entire night trying to sleep feeling like this. I finally called surgeon Friday morning who told me the only way to get it done is to go into a clinic. So I did.

I went to the ER and waited 3 hours to finally go back. They gave me pain meds and used a lubricating jelly with lidocaine (takes the EDGE off) and went to town. I sobbed pretty much hysterically through the ordeal. Im going great today.

Regardless - these things can and do happen and I should havek nown my body would react this way. But I ignored it. It's my fault. And Im feeling very down and depressed the last 2 days and this morning. I just feel like things are never ending and that the pain and humiliation are just raw on me right now. I know that I will get past this and be very happy soon. But right now - Im actualy somewhat regretful. Wishing and wondering WHY I just HAD to have plastics. Because my butt now hurts too bad to sit on . I feel violated and just....it's rather indescribable really.

Anyway - that's where I am at the moment. Everything looks good still - Im on antibiotics for a little redness around the drain holes but other than that healing very well!
Surgery Date 1-29-09
Surgery Weight
317
Lowest Weight 175
Current Weight 195
Surgeon Goal
180
Personal Goal
165

Total lost since surgery 142 pounds!!
Cindyc59
on 4/3/10 5:59 am
I am so sorry to hear you are feeling under the weather.  I know that had to scare the wits out of you with the blood every where. I have not been thu this YET  but mine is coming up soon. I hope things start to smooth out really quickly (no pun intended) If you need to vent you are welcome to pm and I will be glad to chat.
(deactivated member)
on 4/3/10 6:38 am - West Central FL☼RIDA , FL
You poor thing, so sorry you are going this.

I'm glad the blood clot did liquefy because if it didn't you know it could be bad.  I'm sure it was very scary tho to see blood all over...I'd freak out too!!!

To help you not get constipated again start taking 1 scoop of Metamucil type fiber every day...It really helped me!

Hang in there kiddo.....After other surgeries I've had moments were I thought "why did I do this" but in the end I'm always very glad I did.
Keep posting, we understand and sympathize.

Take care of yourself and listen to your body!

brinn71
on 4/3/10 6:58 am - HI
I would have freaked out too if this happened to me, how scary for you.

I hope you feel better soon!

Take care!

Ole
klopez
on 4/3/10 8:40 am
 I had an anchor cut LBL a lil over 2 weeks ago and can relate to some of your same issues. I presently have 2 out of 5 drains left (1 came out on it's own after making a large hole and much anguish). Plus the 1 drain that did come out was still putting out over 60 cc per day so I'm still praying I don't form a seroma in that cavity. I should be able to pull the other 2 by Monday. Thank heavens bc I feel that the drains were one of the worst things to deal with (location, burning, tugging, oozing. I hated them but knew how necessary they were. Also, as much as I tried to prevent it, I did have some painful constipation the first week even though I was using Metamucil, stool softeners and not using the pain killers. It was awful. Then, I read on OH that several members recommended Smooth Move tea. Can I say, this stuff works great! It's not great tasting but I force myself to drink a small cup at night and by morning, it's working (pain-free). While my recovery is now much better, some days are better than others. I.m taking it one day at a time. But, every time I look in the mirror, I know it's been worth it. Hang in there!
Iam_with_the_Band
on 4/3/10 9:22 am
Hijack Klopez!  I do love my Smooth Move Tea! 

12/09 and 6/11, 9 skin removal procedures with Dr. Sauceda in Monterrey Mexico
Revised to the Sleeve after losing 271 lbs with the LapBand. 

Iam_with_the_Band
on 4/3/10 9:27 am
I'm sorry you're having a hard time.  Our bodies all deal differently with our surgeries.  I hope things turn around for you and you don't have anymore trouble with constipation.  Things will get better for you. Even without problems post op, I think we all deal with some depression.  I know I started on Wellbutrin due to my depression.  Our bodies have been through a lot.  Give yourself a break and do something you'll enjoy.  Even if it's just a manicure or pedicure!  Be good to yourself!

12/09 and 6/11, 9 skin removal procedures with Dr. Sauceda in Monterrey Mexico
Revised to the Sleeve after losing 271 lbs with the LapBand. 

ANEWMii
on 4/3/10 9:46 am - Phoenix, AZ
I'm so sorry to hear what you've been going through. The blood everywhere would have freaked me out too. I happy that it was easily resolved and you are OK. As far as the constipation and impaction. I completely understand!! I too am in poop hell sista!  Constipation/gas has been torture for me since my surgery Tuesday. I haven't had any trips to the er but I spent 40mins with a glove in the bathroom yesterday. It was horrible, disgusting, painful and embarrassing. And the only person with me was my poor husband. I can't imagine how it must of been for you to be going through this in front of strangers! I can totally sympathize with the sore butt. I been using Preparation H wipes and cream to help with the soreness, you may want to try them. They seem to help. The thing is that I have been regularly talking stool softeners since surgery. I added laxatives, fruit and prune juice and none of it seems to be helping much. I have had those moments where I have wondered what have I gotten myself into.  But I know in the end I will be happy I went through with it. It's just tough while it's happening. I will pray that everything from here out with your recovery is smooth sailing. Just wanted to let you know you know you are not alone. I'm here if you need to vent.

Sandi

Sandi
I'm a whole new Mii! From 273+lbs to 145lbs. and a whole new life!!!
Lost through diet and exercise ( Praise God and thanks Wii Fit! )
Body by God and Dr. Mazaheri!!!!
1st PS 3/30/10 - LBL/Brachio done by the wonderful Dr. Mazaheri
2nd PS 6/1/10 - BL/Thoracoplasty/Full TL of course with Dr. Mazaheri

Thank you God! I will always be grateful for the change you have made in me! All glory is Yours!


temporarynicole
on 4/3/10 10:59 am
To top things off - my normally well-behaved daughter has decided to be a total turd the last few days. She is constantly arguing with me - ignoring me COMPLETELY, or the most recent - locked the bathroom and closed it so now we can't get the door open!
Im almost in tears over her crap along with mine. Im counting down the minutes to bed  time....
Surgery Date 1-29-09
Surgery Weight
317
Lowest Weight 175
Current Weight 195
Surgeon Goal
180
Personal Goal
165

Total lost since surgery 142 pounds!!
WildeWoman1
on 4/3/10 12:06 pm
HOLY MOLY!! No wonder you're depressed!! That's a lot of crap to deal with  . . .so to speak . . .

Go to bed. Things will look better in the morning!!

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