Forgive me OH, for I have eaten.......

Goldfish and a couple mouthfulls of items I know I should never have let touch my pouty little lips.  I work in the hospital friday, saturday and sunday nights.  Well I packed a huge bag of food and protein and home made lemonade SF of course.  I brought milk and Splenda and even my little blender.  Well, its Nurses week and Hospital week.  Snacks everywhere.  One unit had chocolate donuts.  I only bit one and threw the rest away.  Infraction 1.  Another unit had 2 HUGE cans of Danish cookies.  I went by there 2x and had a single cookie. Infraction 2.  Then today I stopped to get gas and was a lil hungry, so I got a small bag of gold fish.  Infraction 3.  I feel very bad, but keep trying to validate my infractions because I only ate a tiny bit.  I am trying to get back on track today.  I plan to have a protein shake later and try to get a bit more water in.  I am still losing, but a lil dissappointed in myself.  Although work is a bit stressful, I know better.  Oh well, I will survive.  Oh and its my TOM.  1st real one since surgery.  Oh, How I wish i could have had a hysterectomy when I had my RNY,.

You haven't had infarction's, you have had learning experiences.  If you aren't happy with those things you have a choice next time to do things differently.  It really isn't a big deal in the grand scheme of things.  By tomorrow you should have forgotten all about it.  Just use it as a guide to how you want to deal with things in the future and move on.

Thanks Tazz, after i posted I was not sure if I wanted to experience some of the comments I might get.  you know the tough love that is extra tough when you are extra emotional due to TOM.  Thank you for being encouraging.  I truly appreciate it.

I think that most oldtimers are nowhere near perfect ..... not everyday.... so they administer tough love in a variety of ways.

If you seek excuses for going off track, if you want to find absolution for being "bad" and if you show every sign of heading that way everyday, you'll get a whole different type of tough love than if you do pretty darn good and go off track, know you went off tracks, and plan to learn from your behavior.

I think this of course leads to a perception of favoritism..... but if I've seen how a person ahs posted,a nd know that they are pretty darn good at following their plan, and I read their contrition and plan to get right back on plan.... I see no reason to flog them. But the exact same post from someone who is always looking for permission to break their surgeon's rules by shopping around for another surgeon's plan that fits their desires.... who breaks rules and justifies it all the time..... they'll likely get another response.

No need to flog YOU.

Though I applaud you for posting when feeling that extra sensitivity.... because I feel extra sensitive today.... I can't post when I'm too fragile, I know when I can't take the tough love..... today is so one of those days.

Live, Learn, Grow....that's all we can do!

Sounds like a rough day...

Lora

We all have slip ups. I ate some of my daughters peanut butter see's egg yesterday. Now I just need to be stronger. We are learning. When you think about it think about how far you have come. This time it was a few bites. Maybe next time you can pass these things on by, where as before you might have had a donut or two and a handful of cookies.

hey, at least you're being honest - no one is perfect, i personally like the learning experience comment - we have to do this one day at a time.  isn't great to have a place to go and seek help, advice and support!!
hang in there

You are HUMAN, you are not a robot. Don't be to hard on yourself, you knew your limitations and you didn't eat the whole donut, thats a plus. As for the goldfish, they aren't that bad for you. Don't be down on yourself, you are being the best you you can be.

Three Hail Mary's and no more goldfish!!!

Actually, I doubt you did much damage with the goldfish, but a few Hail Mary's never hurt anyone!!!

I totally understand your feelings. I ate a whole cupcake yesterday and 3 chocolate covered strawberries - oh how I wish I dumped!  But today's another day...I went for my walk this afternoon and did some weight training. I say it's just real life....as long as I'm not making a habit of these "poor decisions" I'll do just fine! Keep the focus!