Can't smoke, can't eat....

You mean I actually have to deal with and face my emotions??? Today is day 12 no cigarettes (2 days no patch) I have my pre-surgery eating under control again. And it's TOM. Yesterday spent the day @ Children's with all 3 kids (NICU reunion for the twins and appts...they are both developmentally delayed). Today, I have spent the day cleaning the house. One of my daughters was supposed to be taking a nap and I go in there and she is butt necked with poop all over her, her crib and the wall. My 4 y/o ds walks in and says, " Mom, I think she got stinky on the wall!! That is dis-cusp-ting!!" So after all day of cleaning, I give her a bath and clean up her masterpiece. LOL All these emotions I am feeling that I am used to smoking and eating away are a bit overwhelming. I usually am not a crier, but today I was bawling to dh that I am going to scar ds for sending him to his room. LOL
I know that all of this is worth it in the end. I am getting a little frustrated. My advocate said we should have heard back from BCBS with an answer this week. But nothing.

I had a moment like this not too long ago. I haven't smoked in 4 years but I was still thinking, I can't smoke, I can't eat and I can't drink . WTF can I do? My DH saved the day because his answer was, "RUN!" He's right. I can't do all of those things but because of that, today I can run.

Keep your head in the game. It gets easier.

I know I said hell, I cant eat sugar, carbs, caffeine, carbonation, cigarettes, good thing I wasn't a drinker...

Jenny

Just a note for the poop thing, put your child in one piece jammies backwards and they can't get them off! or if they are still young the under shirts that go around  the diaper and do up at the front, I put them on backwards as well then the child might be able to take off clothes but not the diaper.   :)
Rhonda

Rhonda where were you 20 years ago when my boys were smearing ka ka all over the walls? LOL. great idea! And I am feeling the pain too, I have no coping mechanisms that aren't maladaptive. Smoking is a pain in the ass anyway, you can't do it around the kids, it's expensive, it stinks and oh yeah it kills you! Eating got us screwed and that leaves drugs, gambling, shopping and sex. Well, there are so many maladaptive habits to choose from! All kidding aside, this is an excellent time to start with a good therapist, it put you on track to getting your head on straight so you will do better after surgery and make it less likely that you will turn to one of the vices I mentioned and transfer addictions.