THANK YOU!

 I wrote a big old negative post last night venting all my emotions about being in a stall, not being able to eat like I used to and just over all wishing I had never had this surgery.

After the post I laid in bed and cried until I finally feel asleep.  I wish I could say I feel better this morning, but I don't.  

However, I did wake up to find that I have 16 responses to my poor pitiful me post and I want to thank everyone for them.  They really did help and have put me back on the right path, at least. 

I will up my protein, put away the scale, reset my expectations, enjoy the foods I can eat, call my doctor and make a therapy appointment and just remind myself all day that I CHOOSE TO DO THIS!! 

I hate the think I might be depressed, that is something I have never been.  I am the life of the party person, the funny one, the one who is always up and going.  I don't even know where to start with dealing with depression.....if it is even that.  Sometimes I think it is OK to just feel about about something, like losing food, and take time to morn it's loss.  

Anyway, thanks everyone, I just wanted to say that to everyone, there were SOOO many posts I could not do it individually.

It's completely normal to feel a great sadness over the loss of your best friend (food), and that does not necessarily mean that you suffer from clinical depression.  You have something to be sad about.  You lost a friend and a lifestyle that you enjoyed, and mourning that loss is probably unavoidable and healing from that loss will take time. Just by posting, and coming to terms with this loss, you are already starting to heal, and this sadness will soon pass.

Just about the same time I decided that I needed an extra help. Antidepressants. Yeap. Hate the idea of them, but that what helped me through a lot of feelings like the ones you are having. 

Eventually I was able to get off them. Once my body adapted more or less to the diet, exercise, and other issues.