I'm feeling incredibly guilty and disappointed in  myself right now.  I blogged about it thinking it might make me feel a little better, but it didn't.  I feel like ****  Not so much physically, but emotionally.  I'm not sure what I'm looking for here.  I don't expect a  pat on the back and an "it's ok", when I deserve a smack upside the head and a "shame on you"...  I'm not even 6 weeks out yet and I already messed up. 

My family came into town this weekend for our State Fair.  I tried to pack some healthier options although I knew I 'd nibble a little.  Instead I completely ignored the low fat cheese sticks in my bag and nibbled on just about everything around.  I didn't actually "binge" but I tried it all.  I ate a mini donut, a chocolate chip cookie, half a thing of cheese curds, an entire thing of cream cheese fried pickles, part of a blooming onion...and there might even be something I'm forgetting.  

Instead of making the best of a bad situation and turning things around the rest of the weekend I didn't.  I snacked on an entire package of cinammon fried pecans.  I ate several bites from each of my three nephews and husbands ice cream cones when we took them to get ice cream today.  I neglected my water all weekend.  I forgot my vitamins most of the time.  I did horrible and can't help but feel ashamed of my behavior.  I just couldn't say no. 

My body is swimming in carbs right now and after spending the last 5 weeks trying to rid the cravings, I'm back to square one.  I weighed in this morning and am only down a half a pound.  I tried to go back and track everything I remember.  I didn't go over 1100 calories any off the days but did come close to that all three of the days.  And at my weekly weigh in this morning, I had only lost half a pound.  I'm almost 6 weeks out and have lost only 31 pounds. 

Despite all the crap I shoveled into my body, I only got a little sick twice.  And it was only an upset tummy for about half an hour.  The first time after eating a mini donut and cookie within ten minutes of each other.  The other when I ate off my nephews ice cream.  But no real dumping like others get.  *sigh*

I'm so disappointed in myself and can't help but think that I am destined to be one of those statistics who fail at WLS.  I don't want to think like this but I just feel so "normal", like I never had surgery at all.  Why the hell did I do this to myself????!!!!??!?!?!

One weekend of lapsing does not a failure make. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, quit beating yourself up and do better. You can do this! Will you have other occasions to fail? Sure. Will you slip up again? Possibly. But what is most important is how you bounce back. You can either continue to beat yourself up and call yourself a failure OR you can consider this a learning experience and come up with a plan to keep it from happening again. The choice is yours.

 I'm not going to lie, you did eat horrible.  BUT!!!  If you had not just had surgery you would have turned those 1100 calories a day into about 4500 calories, so at least there is a small silver lining.

Ok, you screwed up.  It happens.  I am really surprised that you did not dump with all that fried and sugary foods, but now you know you are not a dumper.  This is going to make avoiding those foods a bit harder for you then dumpers.  

In the past, pre surgery, when you slipped up and had a bad weekend you would usually give up if you were anything like most overweight Americans trying to lose extra pounds.  We attempt to diet, fail and then give up.  But this time YOU ARE NOT ON A DIET.  This is not the last time this will happen to you.  Starting this minute, so back to basic.  That is going to be the new habit you have to form.  

I am going to steal this from Kelly, did you do this surgery to eat perfect everyday for the rest of your life or did you do it so that you could learn how to better control your own eating habits.  Learn, recover and move on.  No harm done....make your eating plan now for the next few days and stick to it.  Give up the guilt, it won't change what is already done. Learn and move on.

 I DID not go to the fair this year.  Decided to go twice next year. Just the roasted corn alone would do me in its so good.  And all the deep fried candy bars and cheese curds....  

Do what the girls said..wipe yourself off and look forward..not backwards.  

I did the same thing you did at 6 weeks then I came on here and posted about it (mine was Beefaroni and chocolate). I felt just like you do, too. But the next day I got back on the horse and got back on my plan and I haven't done it again. You've already gotten great advice; I just wanted to let you know that you're not the only one to do it early out and it doesn't spell doom for you.

Please don't beat yourself up. This is not like before; with your tool and the good habits you've developed -- along with support from people on this forum -- it will be easier to get back into control.

I have visions of me crashing like that. I get scared but I am never hungry! I hope this stays this way for awhile. I wish you the best and you can get pass this, it's just a stumble.....

Forgive yourself and get back on plan. Forget the guilt- it does no good whatsoever. Learn from this.

I like the way you started your post.  I can only say to you what I would want others to say to me.

First...you were in a situation which made it very difficult for you - not an every day situation.  My question is do you keep your pantry filled with trigger foods; if so, you will have to rethink that.  I felt guilty for the longest time because I do not allow those kinds of foods in the house.  I am older, so I know it is much easier than if I had children around.  I told my family if they wanted something sweet, etc., they would have to buy it when they were out and keep it at work or whatever.  I reconciled this with myself one day by recognizing if alcohol were an issue, my family would not dream of bringing alcohol into the house.  You need to get that stuff out of the house while you are forming good eating habits. 

Second...today is a new day.  What happened yesterday is over.  Make up your mind to start clean today and not do it again.  We have all done this...more than some of us care to admit.  My surgeon stressed especially  making the most of the first 6 months when easy weight loss is at a premium.  Also as the days go by and you consistently eat whole, healthy foods you will find little by little that your prefer those types of foods.

Third...in a way you did binge.  Once you started it was a tasting free for all.  Trust me, I speak from experience that is why I am not throwing stones.  You will have to figure out if you can eat some things in moderation or if you will be one who cannot because they trigger your old habits.  I cannot eat all hings in moderation.  First I am very carb sensitive and second one bites turns into two, three, four.....  I am perfectly fine with that and actually relish having that kind of control for the first time in my life probably.  That is not to say I have not blown it.  I gained 6 pounds earlier this year because I got off track.  Once I stepped onto the scale and got that visual, that was it for me. This is your prime losing phase, and it is important to capitalize on every single moment.

Dust yourself off and forgive yourself.  Today is the first day of the rest of this journey!

I hope everything gets better for you .I had my RNY on July 25th  i'm 6 weeks out and sometimes i'm so miserable .i still have days i throw up .i'm still eating soups the dr said i could have solid foods but they are not going down good at all .I have lost 71 pounds so far and still have 91 more to go .Please be careful i wish you the best . Robin

It happens.  Just log it and use this experience as a reminder of how easy it is to fall back into old habits.   But, what really concerns me is that you were able to eat fried foods and high sugar foods so soon after surgery.  THAT is a big flag to you that if you can tolerate it this soon after surgery that it's going to be easy for you to eat it from now on.....your stomach isn't going to tell you 'no' by dumping on it. 

I dumped on a couple bites of Dannon Lite at the same point you're at now....just as an example of how different we all are after surgery.  I had that instant feedback to help keep me from eating stuff that I shouldn't.