Feel like I am back to binge eating....scared

I am only on post-op week 3 and I am supposed to be on soft foods stage but I just got such a strong craving for meat that I tried and succeeded in eating 2 string cheese sticks and 2 slices of deli turkey. That's not all. I got out the roasted deli chicken and ate about 6 bites of it too. It was like I couldn't stop and it's like I haven't even had the surgery.
I am terrified and I have been scared all along that I would do this to myself. I have followed every single step that the doctor told me to do up until now. But this is not on my plan. I am allowed 3 meals per day of 3 oz. of protein only plus 64 oz of water. No snacks whatsoever. After surviving almost 2 full weeks on clear liquids (had to start prior to surgery) then doing okay on the protein shakes, I just feel starved for food.
So, why and how can I tolerate solid foods already????  What is wrong with me??  I am not going to be able to live with myself if I screw this up and I feel like I am. This is ripping my heart out. What should I do at this point. Has anybody else in this entire group ever screwed up this bad? Please help me with some input.

String cheese and deli meat are soft foods.  You can tolerate them already for the same reason many patients can tolerate soft foods at three weeks post op.  If you weren't expected to tolerate them, your surgeon wouldn't be advising you to eat soft foods yet.

That said, if binge eating was a problem for you before surgery, what have you done/are you doing to prevent it from being a problem after surgery?  WLS doesn't fix psychological issues like binge eating.  You have to do the work to fix that yourself.

I haven't done anything about it.  That seems to be what I must address.  Glad to know that the items are soft foods though. Overall today my protein intake has been limited so I don't know if that had anything to do with what just happened. Plus I have increased my exercise up to walking daily 20-30 minutes. I feel and see positive changes but like I said, this scared me. Thanks for your input.

Measure, measure, measure!  Get a food scale and a whole bunch of measuring cups if you don't have them already.  (WalMart has cheap sets of measuring cups for 88 cents.)  Since you might not be able to tell if you're full, measuring will help you know that you're eating the right amount. Measure your food, put it in the bowl or on the plate, and put the rest of the food AWAY.  

You'll be fine.  One slip up won't destroy you.

And a therapist might be able to help you with the psychological aspects.

Thanks alot! Measuring cups and scale-that's what I need to pick up today. Great idea!
I hope that this slip up won't affect things. Thank you for you input, it means alot to me that everyone is offering so much valuable information and so much support!

Kat - as far as the binge eating and obsessions are concerned, perhaps you could seek out a therapist to help you in that area.  If not, I'm sure a support group would also be helpful.   You are not alone in having these problems, and most of us need help to get a handle on it after surgery.  In my opinion,  the surgery was the easy part of this process.  Understanding and addressing the obsessions, etc. is where the real work comes in.  

Thank you so much. I definitely need to go to my first support group meeting and make this a priority. I'm am thankful to know that I am not alone with this issue. And it's not so much being a binge eater as it is, as you term it, having an obsession with food. I definitely need the tools and training and education far above just my WLS tool alone. Thanks for your help!

 Couple of things. You may not be able to tell if you are full. Nerves are cut. That's why we measure and portion our food.
I get you are questioning what is going on. This first year can be a magical time but there is also a lot to learn and get through.
For right now i would plan tomorrow exactly what you are going to eat that is on your doctor's plan. Just one day
Those one days have a way of building up.
Take care,
debra

Debra thank you so very much. Just one day. That's a good way to help me be strong in this along with getting additional help from the support group and a therapist. That's a great suggestion on planning just for today and following exactly what is on my plan. That is my goal for today.
I also had no clue that nerves are cut and that this is the reasoning behind portioning our food. That hadn't been explained to me. It takes off alot of burden to know this because I thought, oh my gosh, I can't even feel that fullness factor.
Just one day. My new motto.
Thanks so very much for your help Debra!

Hi Kat, I have not had my surgery yet, it is tent. scheduled for Sept. I am in my 6mos insurance approval stage... my surgeon encourages us to try to lose 10% of our body weight, for me that is 28 lbs.  While doing this , I am having to face all those food demons.... I am only in month 3, but so far, if I plan out ALL of my food for the day, it is easy.... no diversions, I don't get stressed and look for food to comfort me, which is what I have always done!  My meals and snacks are already on my schedule.... I have a stressful computer job, yesterday I wanted some chocolate SOOOO bad... but I talked myself thru it... I just refused to get out of my chair and walk to the vending machine.... by the time I got home last night, I was so proud that I had resisted that.... and I will have many more battles with myself... but daily planning is what has worked for me so far..... I am on 1500 calories a day and I track it on  www.myfitnesspal.com  , it is a great site... and plus, you survived the full liquid for 2 weeks, that scares me to death !!  You can do this, just remember, ONE DAY AT A TIME.....