Chew it up and spit it out
(deactivated member)
on 7/20/12 12:26 am
on 7/20/12 12:26 am
I had eating disorders when I was in my 20s that started out from doing this very thing. I would chew food to feel like I was eating it and then spit it out. When I wanted the joy of swallowing the food, I graduated to bulimia. Took me years of counseling to stop doing. Bad habit. Don't start it.
I am so glad you were able to get the help you needed to stop. Many never escape the disordered eating even with therapy. Of all the clients I have ever worked with, the ones who suffered with eating disorders have been the hardest for me to work with emotionally... more so than those with a history of trauma or childhood abuse, or those with anger issues, and even those with psychotic disorders. Eating disorders are extremely hard to overcome, are frequently not helped by medication, and it is almost always a slow and painful process where both the client's mental health and physical health are in jeopardy.
Lora
Lora
14 years out; 190 pounds lost, 165 pound loss maintained
You don't drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there.
(deactivated member)
on 7/20/12 10:49 pm
on 7/20/12 10:49 pm
I'm glad too, Lora! At the time my mom forced me into therapy and I resented her for it but am so glad she was there for me and got me the help I needed. I wasnt able to stop on my own. I was miserable and felt like I had a demon inside me telling me to throw up or spit it out every time I ate. It was an unstoppable force of guilt and self hatred. I've overcome that now but I was worried when I saw the original poster's comment since I started out the same way. It's a very slippery slope.