I need help its long sorry

Past few hours I have had what feels like a hungry headache. I will eat sf jello or broth and the headache will go away for a bit but then comes back again.  The smell of real food is driving me insane.  Seeing people eating real food drives me insane. I am starting to be depressed. I am also becoming lightheaded to. Funny thing is I am drinking enough water, I am eating enough jello and I am taking my vitimins. My favorite part of the day is bedtime and nap time because that way the headache can leave me alone for a bit. Sad part is I am on this stupid  clear liquid diet until further notice and its been almost a week and friday can not come any sooner for me to have my one week post op check up to see if he can move me to the next stage. Through out the day I have these thoughts like I can't do it anymore. I don't  know what to do. I am getting cranky. I am becoming misreable. I am starting to think this is the worst mistake in my life. I know people will say what I am feeling is normal but its starting to become more and more in my head.  I breakdown at least 2 times a day because of this. I wish I would have sat down a little longer and REALLY thought about this because to be honest I really don't think I am up for this. I made a 10 second decision and picked up the phone and made the appointment. I cant stop flipping out. I am like one mad, depressed person. For the whole week I havent been happy. Sure I laugh a few times to fool people but deep inside I am tired of hiding it. I dont wanna tell anyone I am depressed because then I will be put on medications and that is not what I want. I am seriously giving up and don't care anymore, I am really thinking into a revision. I search the web daily about it. If i don't get a revision or whatever its called I don't know what I am to do. I dont wanna stay depressed.

Remember it's just temporary. You will start feeling better once you get some food into you. the liquid diet doesn't last forever. Try getting some clear protein and drinking it to see if it doesn't make you feel a bit better. If you aren't cleared for it I'd call the office tomorrow and tell them how you're feeling maybe they can clear you to at least full liquids and you can get a protein shake in?

i felt similar to you at that stage so i understand. dont give up b4 it gets better and it will. take tylenol to help with headaches and sleep/ rest as much as you can. i know its hard but try to do other things that will distract u from food.

 

i'm sure i would be like that too if i was on a clear liquid diet that long too. so are you not getting any protein?

also remember, during the rapid weight loss period your hormones are all over the place. it's not uncommon to feel regret and depression after surgery.

i dont have mine till the 26 of april ... but i am sorry you are feeling this way just wanted to send a (((hug))). know some one cares :)

Hang in there! This too shall pass. Maybe you just need a good cry. I know I did. I felt a hundreds times better once I did. I just put on a sad movie and cried it all out.

Give it time. All the hormones are being dumped into your system so it kinda screws with our minds. Hang tight!

Hi Momma, thanks for posting...its good to reach out and you'll find lots of support here. You are having a tough time for sure, but based on the other comment, it sounds like the physical stuff will improve. You mentioned feeling depressed. Please find someone you can talk to about this, a friend, family member or a professional. Your feelings are neither right or wrong and if you need a hand, reach out :)

Firstly, no surgeon on this planet is going to do a revision after two weeks so just nip that in the bud. That is not gonna happen. Revisions are usually only done in extreme cases where people cannot stop losing and are at risk of dying. In addition to that even if you COULD have a revision, you still would probably be on a liquid diet for a while again because they've cut you up in all different ways and rearranged your insides. Revision is not the answer.

But the good thing is that this gets better!!! You will feel much better once you start progressing into full liquids and then puree or soft foods. You should take it easy for now though, you really don't have anything to sustain you. Your body needs to heal so take naps when you need to and drink whenever you're awake. It gets better! You did this for a good reason and its going to be for the best in the long run! Goodluck!!

As someone else already said, there is no surgeon anywhere who is going to reverse your RNY just because you are having a difficult early post-op period.  The surgery to reverse a RNY is much more complicated (and risky) than doing the surgery in the first place, most surgeons are not trained to do it, and your surgeon SHOULD have told you (and your paperwork should have stated) that RNY should be considered an irreversible procedure. I am sorry you didn't really take time to consider what you were about to do with having this surgery, but what's done is done. So... forget the daydreams of going back.  You are where you are and need to deal with it.  BUT... It WILL get better.

Have you talked to your surgeon about your headaches?  If so, what was the response?  If not, why not?!?  Sometimes surgeons will advance individuals faster than the normal post-op plan if there are issues.  ASK about it.

if watching other people eat is disturbing, then don't continue to subject yourself to it.  Do something else in another room while others are eating.  Same thing with the smell.  Perhaps you can go outside and have a short walk while the house smells like freshly prepared food.  I know this will sound harsh, but just complaining isn't going to change anything; you need to do what you can to help resolve the situation. Cll the doctor, take yourself out of the situations involving others eating, seek some counseling.

Just admitting to people that you are depressed after surgery does not automatically mean you will be put on antidepressants.  MANY people get temporarily depressed after surgery because of the physical effects of surgery/anesthesia, the lack of nutrition, and the psychological aspects of mourning food (or struggling with others in the house being and to eat, etc.)  Yes, it is isolating to be the only one in the house who cannot eat, but YOU are FURTHER isolating yourself by refusing to let anyone know that you are having a hard time! As a counselor, it sounds to me like there is a lot more going on behind your current mental state than just typical post-op frustration,a nd I fear that even once you are able to advance to whatever your next level of food is, it will not alleviate the psychological/emotional issues you are struggling with. I would really suggest finding a counselor to help you work through some of this.  Your surgeon's office may be able to suggest someone.

I know it is easy to just want to curl up in a ball and do nothing but cry, but that won't solve anything.  What you are going through now WILL eventually pass, but reversing your surgery is not an option, and there ARE things you can do to help make this initial period more bearable.

Lora

Please listen to Lora about getting help with some counseling.  She knows what she is talking about and has a wealth of knowledge so please don't dismiss what she has posted.  Best of luck, Jane