The Journey - 10/31
First of all, I guess I need to apologize.
Apparently some people have taken my "Journey" as a guideline for their own. I never meant to do that, and would never suggest that anyone follow my "menu" or exercise plan (or lack of it)!
My Journey is to keep ME on track, and to make me face where I jumped the track. I don't have the backing of a special group of strugglers, so I am doing this to make MYSELF accountable. I am very bad at it, so seeing it in writing helps me.
I am a Carb Addict. I struggle with the monster daily. I am a failure.
I will continue to post My Journey unless OH tells me to stop. I will no longer post exactly what I eat, lest I influence people to follow my bad menu.
Okay.
Yesterday I had a pretty good day with my struggle, although I did not get in as much exercise as I would like. The first half of the day was spent in running errands with my daughter and the babies. This will probably be the last weekend for that for a while, as next weekend is the OH conference, and the new baby will be here no later than Nov. 11.
I find I am NOT tempted by Halloween candy. Most of it is milk chocolate, and I no longer even like the taste of milk chocolate. I much prefer dark chocolate, the darker the better, and only eat one or two small squares of it. I've had a bar of 83% cacao in my fridge for 3 days, and 90% of it is still there.
I did give in and bought a round of cheese bread at the Lebanese bakery, but when I got it home, I ended up peeling the cheese off the top and tossing the bread. (No, I didn't make a special trip to a bakery, the bakery is inside the store and right next to where I was purchasing hummus and tzatziki.) I bought it because it smelled so good, and I am weak.
I wish I was strong enough to try a gluten-free diet. I don't think the Carb Monster would let me.
That's my story and I'm sticking to it.
Apparently some people have taken my "Journey" as a guideline for their own. I never meant to do that, and would never suggest that anyone follow my "menu" or exercise plan (or lack of it)!
My Journey is to keep ME on track, and to make me face where I jumped the track. I don't have the backing of a special group of strugglers, so I am doing this to make MYSELF accountable. I am very bad at it, so seeing it in writing helps me.
I am a Carb Addict. I struggle with the monster daily. I am a failure.
I will continue to post My Journey unless OH tells me to stop. I will no longer post exactly what I eat, lest I influence people to follow my bad menu.
Okay.
Yesterday I had a pretty good day with my struggle, although I did not get in as much exercise as I would like. The first half of the day was spent in running errands with my daughter and the babies. This will probably be the last weekend for that for a while, as next weekend is the OH conference, and the new baby will be here no later than Nov. 11.
I find I am NOT tempted by Halloween candy. Most of it is milk chocolate, and I no longer even like the taste of milk chocolate. I much prefer dark chocolate, the darker the better, and only eat one or two small squares of it. I've had a bar of 83% cacao in my fridge for 3 days, and 90% of it is still there.
I did give in and bought a round of cheese bread at the Lebanese bakery, but when I got it home, I ended up peeling the cheese off the top and tossing the bread. (No, I didn't make a special trip to a bakery, the bakery is inside the store and right next to where I was purchasing hummus and tzatziki.) I bought it because it smelled so good, and I am weak.
I wish I was strong enough to try a gluten-free diet. I don't think the Carb Monster would let me.
That's my story and I'm sticking to it.
Lynne
Lynne,
I promised myself I would hang up my clerical collar forever, but since it is Sunday, I'll give myself a pass..
You are NOT a failure!! Please don't say that. You have a carb addict like so many of us and you recognize that.
You do what you need to do and I'm proud of you for trying every day.
Now, back to my hole to hide from the carb monter!
Becky
forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could be any different
I'll address your post although I'm not sure what you need to apologize for.
1) stop the negative crap about yourself. If you don't believe in yourself others won't see the real you either. No failure crap, OK?
2) everyday I struggle with choices, you are not alone.
3) can you plan today to make the best choices you can, just for today.
4) gives us a little more time on the regain group. We need to work on the dynamics of those not posting and will probably have a few spaces available soon.
5) you can only continue to fight the carb monster OR not and where does that leave you (generic you, to include all of us)
1) stop the negative crap about yourself. If you don't believe in yourself others won't see the real you either. No failure crap, OK?
2) everyday I struggle with choices, you are not alone.
3) can you plan today to make the best choices you can, just for today.
4) gives us a little more time on the regain group. We need to work on the dynamics of those not posting and will probably have a few spaces available soon.
5) you can only continue to fight the carb monster OR not and where does that leave you (generic you, to include all of us)
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