Random Thoughts

I don't use my real name on here or my full photos on here, because from the beginning I wanted to remain anonymous so I could share some of the more private things in my life. I wanted that freedom of anonymity. As time went on I began to meet some OH people IRL and now I do feel more aware of what I share on here, and don't feel I can be as open as I'd like to be.

I've always been a bit more reserved online because I've been interacting in various online groups since 1994, and I've had things I've said online come back to bite me. For example one time I was venting about my MIL, only to have her find what I wrote about her and call me on it.

Another time I used my full name on a group, only to have some random person decide they didn't like me and look up every detail they could find out about me online and post it in a twisted way to make fun of me. Some people think that I am a strong person but really I'm a big cream puff and I don't like people to make fun of me.. it hurts horribly.

In fact there was a person on OH recently who went and said some not so nice things about me and I blocked them. Now people are sending me PMs that this person is still saying mean things about me weeks later. It makes me really glad that they don't know everything about me so they can say MORE rude things about me... they have to settle for twisting what little I have said that they can warp.

I don't worry so much about posting my weight on here because anyone that looks at me can tell I'm fat.. it's not like it's a big secret. But other stuff, yeah I'd prefer to keep it private. Maybe I'm more reserved because I'm more sensitive or because I've been burned a few times online.

I'm not at all shy but I do avoid situations that open myself up to be hurt. What ever the case may be, I do feel much more open here than any place else, and I am grateful for all of the wonderful folks on OH. Love you guys... and love you Kelby.. if you were here right now I'd give you a big hug sweetie.

Yeah.. too bad I live in the center of now where.. actually I'm about 65 miles west of the geographical center of North America... There's your geography lesson for the day! lol

Kelby, I always have to read your posts just to see what is jingling around in your mind today.  You so make me smile! Anyway...I agree!  I could never talk to people IRL like I do to my OH peeps.  Nobody completely understands like you all do. I also never, ever told anyone my real weight and here it is on for all to see!  My sister did ask my weight today and I reluctantly told her. Made me think, yes, I was 304lbs but today I am 225, I will never be 304 again so I shouldn't be ashamed of that number anymore. Hopefully I will not be 225 for long and will never see that number again either!  I am also a pretty quiet person in real life until I get to know ya but on here... I am a chatty Catty:)  Love ya all!!

 I'm glad people are intrigued by what goes on in my mind... I often find it to be pretty blah!! Glad I can bring a smile to someones face 

I can not wait until the day I can say I'm 225! You're doing awesome!!!!! Keep it up!!!! 

Because we fear that our loved ones will reject us.  We don't have that attachment to those at a distance.  Both have a place in our lives though. 

Good Luck on your interview Kelby.

Steve