Mourning. Uploaded old pics and fat wedding. So depressing!

What a realization to see me on my wedding day just a year after being at goal weight. I don't know why I let myself get so large. I CANT WAIT FOR MY SLEEVE!!!!! I'd worked SOO hard for SO long to lose the weight and get small, just to gain it again. I like to see where I want to be again, but it's another reminder of how far away I really am. Further than ever. So sad. I logged into my old photo album on facebook and don't even know why I opened those stupid old albums. Looking at myself then does nothing but make me feel like such a slob.

The first pics are after my last weight loss. Me in the center next to my hubby (then boyfriend)  then me on the right in Vegas with my little sister.  Then the wedding pic below those. And that wedding dress believe it or not hides a LOT, I have much worse pictures somewhere I am sure. I can't believe I shoved my then 300 lbs in that poor dress.

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Time to stop mourning and time to start celebrating your soon-to-be new life :)

Thanks. I know. I just get SO down on myself. I can't stand thinking about working hard again and then having then ruining it again for the umpteenth time. I want to believe the best and am excited about surgery, but there is that part of me that has failed so many times that just doesn't trust myself.

I need to stay positive, I know. Thanks for the reminder.

Just think - this will be the last time you feel this way. Your permanent victory day will come! It is hard for me to wrap my mind around the thought of never having the endur the pain of yo yo dieting again. You could always just photoshop the wedding pics to feel better.

I feel your pain I too have pics from my last weight loss when I was 140 and a size 6 very depressing but also now very INSPIRING to me to know with my VSG tool it will be permanent this time because I am not going through all of this to fail NO WAY. So stay focused and think of you goal and know that this time it will be different!!!! By the way your wedding pic looks great and you do not look like you weighed 300lbs NO WAY or stuffed yourself in the dress! Keep your head up and believe in yourself! Good luck

the rollercoaster sucks! why couldnt we lose the weight and keep it off? i dont know the answer but i know the vsg has given me the tool i need to be able to succeed for life!!

embrace the change of habits, the change in diet, the increased ability and desire to be active and moving..

hopefully your rollercoaster ride is almost over!

we cant change our pasts but we can decide that the past is dead and all we have is our future. dont dwell..we are the masters of our future and you have taken control of your future deciding on vsg

You looked beautiful at your wedding.

I was also about 300 at mine five years ago, and I still think I looked hot! :P I've weighed a lot less, and I'm hoping to get even lower now with the surgery, but I want to keep seeing how young and beautiful and happy I was on that day. Hopefully that's what you'll see when you look back on your pics too.

I think you are very pretty..as a big girl or not! 

I was bout 210 on my wedding day.....about a size 18. My sister overheard my aunt saying "Paige didnt even bother to lose weight for her wedding" but then she heard her say about my cousin (otherside of the family) "she looks anorexic" Well..guess what..she is! So I just really tried hard not to let it bother me!  I have always had a pretty health self esteem...execpt these last 40lbs or so have REALLY gotten me down! Cannot wait to get rid of them! =)

Cannot wait to see your pictures of you on the other side of the sleeve...