So many emotions now that I have a date

I Finlay have my date for my sleeve 09/29/2011 pre-op date 09/19/2011. I am excited, happy, nervous and scared all at the same time. Is it wrong to think what is the worst thing that could happen.  I have a few circle of friends that have been through this procedure and they are giving me great information, but I am still scared out of my mind. Of course you have those who try to talk you out of the whole thing, but I say unless you have walked in my shoes you don't know what I am going through.

Is there anyone out there who had the mix of emotions am I the only one who wonders will I make it through this surgery alive. Right now the only thing I can cling to is my faith and so far that  helps but gosh, my stomach is doing flips with the nervousness. I think I am more nervous at what  to expect than when I gave birth for the first time.

I am right there with you.  My emotions are all over the place.  I'm a single mom and trying to figure out the "what if's" right now.  I have to have all plans in place just in case.  I personally am writing a letter to my son, one for the positive outcome and one for the negative outcome.  I want to be sure that if something does happen that he understands why I made the decision I did.  I didn't think anyone else was experiencing such an array of emotions like I am.  It's a little comforting to know I'm not alone.

Would you mind telling me your height?  We are having surgery a few weeks apart and are about the same weight.  I like to just follow people that are about the same stats. 

5'6 - 273lbs

Thank you ready2Bhealthy2,

We are the same height and almost the same weight I am 278 now.  Feel free and keep in touch with your stats I will do the same.  If you would like to inbox me I can give you my personal email address. 

It also feels good to know I am not in the same boat. Thank you so much for responding.

Big hugs!  I know exactly how you feel.  Nothing makes it more real than getting a date.  I have never delivered a baby, but this must be a cake walk compared to childbirth!  Read back a few days and there are some threads that give you lots of good info about what to expect. 

I didn't tell anybody, including my family, until a few days before surgery so as not to have to deal with their anxieties and fears.  No one has to live in your body but you, and you will bear the consequences of obesity - not your friends and family.  They are just scared for you.

Good luck!  You'll do great!

Thank you Happy966, I really need to hear that! I want join you on the loosers bench.

We were all nervous at your stage.  Just focus on all the wonderful changes your about to go through...check out my pics on my page for a little inspiration.  Hopefully you have a doctor that you trust and that inspires you.  Listen to him/her and do just what they tell you to (and not one thing more).  Your success is their greatest form of advertising, so they are invested in you doing well.

You're going to do great ....see you on the losers bench.

Thank you motomom I will do just that, and I can't wait to be on that loosers bench! 

The best way I found to deal with my anxiety was to ask myself "What's the worst that could happen?  And what happens if it does happen??"  It led me to making my advanced directive official and communicated my wishes to my family should the worst happen.  I even had my best friend agree to be the second agent should my parents find they wouldn't be able to follow my requests. I gathered all the information for my life insurance and important contacts and put it in one place for my family.  At 28, I may have been over prepared, but I went back into the surgery knowing that I was prepared for the worst and expecting the best.  I was able to relax and just surrender myself to the surgery with no regrets.

Best of luck!

Amy

Thank you fypcdqt, I appreciate that information.  It opened my eye a bit and it made me really sit down and think about acceptance I have to work on that. thanks a bunch