how to get back on track

I don't know why i get into these ruts. its like i do so well for a month then i fall off the wagon and slack off for a  couple weeks. i dont know if i get bored with it, or tired of it, or lazy, or if its a mental thing...i wish i knew. i have only been to the gym once in 2 weeks. i'm drinking a little soda, and not eating enough protein. ive always been like that. i start something and never follow through with it or fini**** im not sure why. i think im scared to actaully do something right. cause ive always screwed everything else up. and this sleeve is something that actually wont let me down...something i cant really fail. i wish i knew why i do this. i didnt deal with my mental faults before surgery cause a psych consult wasnt required. but im thinking i shoulda dealt with a LOt before getting this surgery. too late to do the whatifs. i just need to do what i need to do. im gonna make an aptmnt with a psych tomorrow. i just need someone to talk to. also, i moved back home w/ the parents after surgery cuz my fiance and i were having a rough time. BIG mistake. they promised me they wouldnt bother me, and theyve been annoying more than i have time to explain to you. money is tight, im gettin ready to go back to school & ive just got so much goin on. i really need to focus on my health. anyone else go through something similar? any advice. i wouldnt be able to tell anyone else this, but my OH friends i can always rely on :-) anyways, its been 3 1/2 months since surgery and ive lost 75 pounds. there's something to celebrate!

Well, clearly you are kickin' butt in the weight loss category!!  So congrats on that!!  It sounds like you are making a very good decision by getting counseling.  Life is always going to have busy times, challenging times, curve balls, etc so getting the mental side of food straightened out is a huge step.  I, too, am in counseling for my food issues.  And it was my choice.  No one required me to do it.  But I feel it's a really important part of my journey.

As for how to stay on track?  There's no magical answer.  The best way to ensure long term success is to develop good habits.  I'm trying really hard to do that.  Do I slip up?  Sure.  Too many carbs here, dessert there, not enough fluids one day, no exercise the next.  But, overall, I'm doing pretty well complying to my plan and I am committed to the long-term success of this.  

You can do it.  It sounds like you are thinking about it as proactively as you can at this point.  The past is history, but tomorrow is whatever you chose to make it.    Good luck!

All of us definitely have mental issues that we need to work out.

As for getting on track - you need some goals. I believe that is the most important key to success because without them, you really have no reason to wake up and make the right choices.

Nothing about this process is going to be easy - when I need to kind of re-group and re-focus, it helps me to get organized and plan, plan, plan. I look through my cabinets and fridge and see if there is something that slipped in that shouldnt be there, and toss it out. I have a little reflection time, think about what I want and why, and then I go shopping - that way im in the right frame of mind to make the best choices possible. I then plan my meals for the week - i usually cook once a week and freeze my food so that I can go on auto-pilot during the week and don't have to think about what im going to eat. Every morning, I pack my breakfast and lunch (and sometimes dinner) and input into my fitness pal before I leave the house. That way i know if I can afford anything extra during the day.

Cut out the soda asap, and up your protein intake with dense protein.

I know first hand what your going through. With me I do really good then fall off the wagon. I'm afraid of the unknown I have always been so big I'm scared of even getting close to the 100s. I'm not sure if it's the same way for you but even as a teen I was over 200lbs. I think the more weight I lose the more vulnerable I'll be to the  world, now that's what scares me the most.
I have a lot of stress right now with the fact we can't even pay rent and it's way past the first. I'm finding it hard to find a job and the stress alone is causing me to make poor choices. I hope we both can get through this.