checking in - Clutter
Well, I am up late and boy do I want to go to the frig right now for some reason.
I am reaching out to stop the power of obsession. I am not going to do it, but boy
I want to eat the world right now even though i cant. lol
its prolly cause I am going through some stress lately. Yesterday I had an abundance of things
hit me. You know... just one of those days where nothing goes right. I even had a deal bomb
with work. work to personal stuff. and then my license expires so i have to finish 3 coarses and take my final by this weekend to renew it. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeek.
Also the good news is, I am now sponsoring 2 people in OA and its wonderful to be of service.
One thing that has happen to me this last year. i have gathered clutter. I feel like I cannot breath including I have all these bigger clothes & I dont know why I am hanging on to them. I just need to get rid of stuff. it has arrived to the point where i feel anxious about it. I heard in a meeting today that having excessive clutter is a way to be numb and feel like I am boxed in. Well that is how I feel. its almost like paralizing. My son throws stuff out no problem and I pick his trash saving the stupidest stuff.
giving away 101 pounds has turned into I want to hoard things. I am not that bad yet but i am on my way. I am grateful for the gift of awarness about this, now I have to do something about it.
Cheers and glad to be here tonight.
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"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
Two Year Surgiversary!!!"
I'm sorry things are stressful for you right now. Sounds like you could use a vacation! Even if you don't go anywhere. LOL
I do'nt have much advice on the holding onto things. I don't tend to get attached to stuff. I am keeping some clothes, but only a few pieces and only the size or two up from where I am. I considered parting with all of it, but between the potential to have kids (and need some bigger things to get through for a few months) and the potential for bounceback, I decided keeping a few things was ok. Because for the longer term bigger picture, I am NOT going back to those sizes.
*hugs* Chin up, girlie!
5'5" Goal reached, but fighting regain. Back to Basics.
Start Weight 246 Goal Weight 160 Current Weight 183
Starting size: 22, 2x
Current size: 12, L
Awwwww Thanks for the support and noticing I didnt give in the binging. yep I didnt.... but boy
was my head there. I am very grateful to give back to OA. Its so rewarding and actually its helping me more than ever.
yes things are stressful and thank you again for your support. I just keep thinking, this too
shall pass..... it has to right? :)
Oh that is great you want to have a baby and are planning yoru clothes for it. That is sooOOoo
wonderful.... So whenever it happens let us all know.... tomorrow or a few years from now.
I never thought I was a clutterer until recently.... I am going to work on getting rid of something this weekend but only if I finish my 3 coarses and my final. If not, then I will do it one day this week.
Yes... we are not going back to those sizes.. NO WAY!!!
xoxoxoxo
✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
Two Year Surgiversary!!!"
I said I wanted to eat the world. i didnt say i did...I just had to dump.....and stop the power of obsession. Naaaah i find no nutrition in crystal light and sugar free popsicles. I am past being
just out of surgery. I am totally into feeding my body nutrients through food.
I love how I eat.... I am ok with how I eat....
Hope you and your wife are doing well. How is your wife doing with her progress?
Hope you both are growing closer and closer together.
TC
Mary ✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
Two Year Surgiversary!!!"
I've missed you lately. It it really sad when life gets us down. I am right there with you sister. I do the same thing as you do. I have a son that throws EVERYTHING away. I go through his trash too and keep some of the things. I guess some of us people just get "attached" to things and sometimes even WE wonder when we really look hard at the things WHY we are keeping them. I also need to get rid of clothes and purge. I seem to be a kind of horder too at times. I am sorry that you are going through so much and getting you down. My life is FAR from perfect at the moment. My son that I was so proud of in Teen Challenge left the program wednesday night. I am SCARED !!! Really scared. That being said.....they were IMHO being unfair to him. They were going to transfer him to another teen challenge 300 miles away. I told them I didn't want that to happen and they told me I had NO say. He didn't want to go so he left. Yesterday he was yo-yo ing back and forth on whether he made the right decision. I have no idea what is going to happen. I wish he had completed the program but even if he had.....that is still NO assurance that he will be drug free the rest of his life. But even with WLS....if we make the wrong decisions....we could become large again. I guess life is full of choices we all face on a daily basis. I know what you mean about the stress eating. I did my share of it yesterday. Guess that makes me human huh? I'm going to be praying for you and please pray for me. Love you and I'm sending you LOTS of HuGS !!!!!
Hugs and blessings ~~~ Vivian
GOD GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CAN NOT CHANGE; COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS THAT I CAN; AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE !!!! THIS IS MY DAILY PRAYER.
Vivian Prouty Obesity Help Support Group Coach "LOSE IT 4 LIFE"
I sooOooo miss you too and your posts which I LQQK forward to when i am on. WOW you can relate to my clutter and hoarding. i did a giggle when i heard you do the same as me with your sons trash. Oh gosh I soOOoo can relate. and smiling about it right now. I guess its because
its nice to know I am not alone. I am starting to ask myself " why am I keeping these things"
I have no clue. I can only imagine the freedom I will have when I too start to purge. wow this is kind of motivating. Thank you.
Oh gosh VIV I am sorry about your son. I have been reading your posts, about this. I pray everyday and morning and night and talk all day at different times. i will be praying for you and your son. I completely understand. I just turned 19 years Jan 17th. and I still remember if it were like yesterday or I hear it in the rooms. I hope your ok and I too am sorry for you worries, and stress. Its almost like a curse when we worry for our children that we love so very much.
I do the same worrying for my son.... We do love our sons dont we. its the greatest love I have ever known.
I sooo needed to hear the part when you said, " But even with WLS....if we make the wrong decisions....we could become large again. I guess life is full of choices we all face on a daily basis" Wow thi**** home for me and thank you for the reminder.
yes yes we are human! :)
I loveeeeeeee youuuuuuu tooooo!
✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
Two Year Surgiversary!!!"
Hugs and blessings ~~~ Vivian
GOD GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CAN NOT CHANGE; COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS THAT I CAN; AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE !!!! THIS IS MY DAILY PRAYER.
Vivian Prouty Obesity Help Support Group Coach "LOSE IT 4 LIFE"
Hey there, Doc!! It is so good you can be of service in OA. I am still in a place where I don't feel comfortable going to F2F meetings yet.
It is hard for me to remember sometimes that the compulsion to eat will pass if we don't give in to it. I too have accumulated too much clutter. My clothes feel out of control, even though I have given away a lot of the really big ones. I want to let go of "things" too. I am going to have to think about what the stuff is doing for me. Thanks for the topic!!
:) Happy
53 yrs old, 5'6" HW: 293 ConsW: 273 SW: 263 CW: 206 
you will love it. I justt know it and when that day happens. I would like to know if you dont mind.
the compulsion to eat will pass if we dont give into it. yes yes yes.... that is what last night was about. even right now, I ate my food for the day but I could eat again but wont. Last night was touch and that is why I reached out in the post, and prayed, and tried to get busy with other things with my mind. it worked. hurrray for me.... right now I am on here because if I am not, I still want to go to the frige. I am still a little stressed and a little episode happened at work so
therefore I am still triggered and doing my best to work throught it. Its means the world to me to have support and responses from you and others.... really....
Lets let go of things...and tell each other about it. .... I am going to start with one this this week.
I am going to do my closet. yep that is a huge chore. an all day chore. You have no clue how many shoes and clothes I have. If you were going to do something, what would it be????
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✿ L♦O♦V♦E ✿ & ✿ P♦E♦A♦C♦E ✿ღ ✿ & F♦R♦I♦E♦N♦D♦S ✿ ღ
"Keeping The Faith!" "Slim by Summer!"
HW: 250 - SW: 241 - CW: 154.7- GW: 140
1 month: 22 pounds (216) 2 months: 12.2 pounds (203.8) 3 months: 10.6 (193.2)
4 months: 9.7 lbs (183.5) 5 Months: 6 pounds (177.5 ) 6 Months: 12 lbs ( 165.5)
7 Months 7.1 lbs (158.4) 8 Months +1.6 pounds(159.8) 9 Months 2.7 pounds (157.1)
10 Months 8.1 lbs (149) 11 months +2 pounds ( 151) 1 YEAR!!! 2.6 pounds (148.4)
Hit "One-derland April 9th, 2011 (199.7)
"Half-Way Goal" April 25th, 2011 (194.8)
"Happyland 80`s" May 14, 2011 (189.6)
"Groovyland 70`s" June 20th 2011 (179.9)
" HippyDippyland 60's" July 16th (169.8)
" CQQL-land 50`s" August 25th ( 159.8)
"Normal BMI" 24.8 October 21st, 2011 (154.5) I am 5`6
"AWESOME-land 40's" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
"Century Club 100 Pounds" Dec 1st 2011 (149)
' ONE YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!"
Two Year Surgiversary!!!"
