Fail!

 I had a terrible addiction to secret eating in my car before surgery.  The last 3 days I've had a real mental battle with the urge to go buy chocolate, candy, cookies -- anything bad.   Today I gave in and bought some chocolate covered peanuts because I had some time to kill between business appointments.   This is my public confession  --    I sat in the parking lot and said "don't do it" but I did it anyway --- just like the old days.   I'm so upset -- the whole 440 calorie bag slide down no problem.   I will have to use actual self - control!!   I won't give up -- and I won't slide back into the "old way".     Any ideas how to control this urge??    I actually would like to punish myself -- I'll take suggestions for good consequences to deter me from failing again.   Yes I did record it on my food/exercise journal and on my wall calendar - it is not a secret anymore!   My only idea is to keep good protein bars always on hand in the car.

Ah gosh I am sorry to hear you had such a struggle. Sending the biggest online hugs I can to you! Please remember that tomorrow is a new day and you get to start out fresh.

Perhaps as a "punishment" you could find the grossest protein shake you can and have to drink it. Smell it first before you drink, make it out of pureed okra (gag) and unflavored protein powder?
I actually wish I could have gotten a pic of the portion of my stomach they removed so that when i am tempted I can just look at that and totally gross out thinking of what I did to myself to get me to needing this.

Do you have someone you can call to help you over the rough stuff like this? So that when this comes up again you have a partner to pull you back form the edge?

OMG.....that made me gag just reading it.

That's what I was going to suggest as well. You can get peanut bitter chocolate ones and keep them in your car for when you have cravings.

Just remember you are a human being and mistakes are going to happen once in a while. Don't let it bring you down. Tomorrow is a new day

You are not alone...we all have lapses sometimes. Don't beat yourself up. It's what you do going forward that counts. Always have something with you to snack on. Have some almonds or plain peanuts, rather than chocolate covered. Measure out 1/2 a serving in a small container and take your time eating them. Sometimes I'll have a few in the morning, the rest later. If I don't have something with me, I'm more likely to be bad and buy something I shouldn't be eating. Another guilt free snack for me is Fat-free, Sugar-free Jello pudding...the kind you cook. It's really a nice treat and I'm content with a single serving.

I'm sorry this happened, but kudos for coming here and letting it all out.  None of us are perfect!

I personally have abondoned the practice of punishing myself.  It just made me feel worse and more guilty.  But if it is beneficial and not harmful to you, then go for it.

I am a big fan of counseling to help us with the head side of this journey.  I highly recommend you consider it.  I came to grips with the fact that "willpower" (or lack there of) got me fat so "willpower" isn't going to work post-op for me either.  So I have dug deep into my mind to better understand why I used food for something other than fuel for my body.  It's opened up a bunch of insights for me, and while it was scary at times, I feel I am heading into a better place.  It's definitely a journey in and of itself and I'm only partway there.  A work in progress, if you will.

In any event, pick yourself back up, get back on the horse and you'll be ok.

You did it, you ate some candy -it happens, put it in your past -get some protein bars that taste delicious but are good for you- put ONE in the car and then think of other things you can do- like play angry birds or words with friends while you have to be stuck waiting in the car!

 i am sorry that happened to you but kudos to coming on here and admiting to it that takes some balls. i agree with your idea keeping protein bars or good snacks on hand at all time. that even exactly what my nut suggests protein bar or a serving of almonds etc something good to nosh on so your less likely to eat poorly .

Punishment is not productive so don't even put yourself thru that. I always have a snack in the car and anytime there is a chance I'll have to sit around waiting I always have a crossword book or a knitting project. Busy hands can't snack!

Tomorrow is a new day!  I will keep a healthy snack in the car.  I will find a support friend to call when I'm about to give in.   I will play on my Iphone while stuck in the car.   I will go to support group and if it looks like this is going to be an ongoing battle --- I will go to therapy.     I will NOT give in or give up.   thanks for the encouragement!