The beast of carbs/crackers/"insert weakness here"

I love you for this post! I have been beating myself up lately because of the little 'bites' here and there. I poor a cup of those evil Cheezits or Goldfish for my kids and without even thinking I'm chomping a few of them for myself. I don't think its that we can NEVER have anything, I think its just we need to get in control of it before we go there. My trouble is if its in front of me, I want to eat it. I've been so good with completely avoiding pasta and rice, but we had a potluck bbq yesterday and someone brought a HUGE evil bowl of pasta salad. I even begged her to take it home with her and my 'lovely' husband chimed in, "I'll eat it". RUDE. I 'sampled' it last night, why oh why did I do that?? Hubby on the other had hasn't and wont touch it. Grrrrrrr

I have those moments and am just grateful I'm not an alcoholic or a crack head. I can imagine that's much more damaging. It doesn't justify the food impulse issues though. I get how you're feeling. I think it's a practiced art. There are some here that have much better advice, who have conquered it or are nearly there.

Flaming hot cheetos are NOT allowed in my house. Neither are those Cream Cheese & Chive captain's wafers. I cannot control myself around them so they are banned

See! You get it, too! I may have to do the same and ban chocolate covered pretzels and cheezits for life.

It really depends on trigger foods. There are foods I trigger on (those damned cream cheese crackers) and ones that I don't (popcorn for instance). It's REALLY annoying, but I just roll with it and the family just doesn't bring them into the house. If they want those crackers, they buy ONE pack from the Chevron and eat them right away. Although, I'm proud to say that my family has drastically changed all of their eating habits :)

Potato chips are NOT allowed in my home. Evil *******s!!! This is something that I was aware of pre-op and for a long time (a few years now) I have made the decision when grocery shopping just to leave them out of my cart. Don't get me wrong, before I started my WLS I did purchase them from time to time but I always ended up eating the entire bag in one sitting (like while watching one 30 minute tv show I could polish them off). My nemesis of all times is the Lay's Salt and Vinegar chips. I swear that no other S&V chip tastes as good as these and I can INHALE THEM. And we're talking about a family size bag here just to be clear! UGH!
When I began my journey back in March and cut all carbs out I can honestly say that I haven't missed them. Did it hurt to walk past the aisle in the grocery store and have it nearly kill me when I had to go down it because that's where the beef jerky is? Absolutely! Did I let that demon conquer me? POSITIVELY NOT!!!

And for me I've learned it's still a problem because after surgery on my first real vacation in early August I had to stop at a gas station to fill up and was soooo hungry (I hadn't eaten since getting up that AM around 9am because I didn't feel like consuming anything other than liquids and this was around 2pm or so...I know better now but that was then...back to the story).  So my Mom has a bag of UTZ S&V potato chips in the car that she had as a snack that she brought with her from the hotel...just so she would have something to munch on while we were visiting relatives...

Needless to say I went in the bag and before I knew it I had consumed FIVE potato chips and I LOST MY DAMN MIND!!! I recognized what I was doing as soon as I ate the first chip and I actually ended up getting out of the car and locking the bag in the trunk! 

Am I ashamed of what I did? NOPE! I lived. I learned. I worked on changing my mindset/behavior so that will NOT happen again (know my weakness, confront it, and prepare and always have snacks I can eat that won't wreck me both physically and emotionally)

Did I make a conscious decision that I will have to be aware of from here on out?YEP!

Do I think I will ever be able to have potato chips again? Maybe...TWENTY FRIGGIN YEARS FROM NOW.

Am I ok with that? ABSOLUTELY!!!

(funny it's not the damn Doritos...they make my jaw hurt chewing so much haha)

 

That's an awesome attitude! You need to post more!!!

 Wow, what a great story to tell!  Thank you for sharing.  I guess someone between preparing for and having surgery, then being post op I switched from thinking 100% carb free to I can have a little bit.  I go to dinner with my fam and know that's where I have the biggest problem. 

You have an awesome attitude and discipline.  I should say, you have the 'Right' attitude!  

LOL, I can't help but crack up at this post. I feel the exact same way. The advertisements are nuts and they definitely use trickery to pull us in. My carb weakness would definitely be french fries, so though I love McDonalds french fries, I know they are the devil.

I used to have dates with food.  

Not dinner or lunch dates with people, I dated food.

When I was alone I would make food, order food, plan extravagant meals.  I would savor the planning almost as much as the actual food.

I never could face that I was eating because I was lonely.  I was wounded emotionally and I self medicated with food.  I can think back and see myself having that behavior as far back as elementary school.  Something went right, there was food.  Something went wrong, there was food.  The sun came up, there was food.

I think we all have some similar experience - not the same emotional triggers or roots, but definitely an emotional connection so that food becomes more than fuel.