Maria, Around now, you're sleeping like a happy child while your surgeons work a miracle on you. I say "miracle" and I truly know, from this perspective that the transformation you're undergoing right this instant is a miracle. I know you have had daily panic attacks and fought back dragons of uncertainty but soon you'll know what I know.. it's good to be a loser. I'm so happy for you! Welcome to the loser's bench! --Stef